"Because he said he loved me. I was afraid that if I told someone, then he would stop loving me. I didn't want him to hate me, I just wanted to be loved, fuck." Chloe began sobbing softly, trying to hide her reddened face between her hands and away from her new therapist as she began to cry all her problems out. her life was fucked up, she knew it too, she just didn't realize how fucked up it actually was. she couldn't believe how much stupid people existed in her life and how badly they had ruined her. It bitterly amazed her how much damage someone could do to another person's life just by a few words and a fist or two. "Okay, take a breather," Rebecca spoke, handing over a tissue to the poor girl who was breaking all over again right in front of her very eyes.
"I don't want to talk about him anymore, I don't want to talk about anyone today- I just want to go home." Chloe cried and Rebecca nodded her head, understandingly. She didn't want to push it and ask of too much just on her first day in therapy, but she felt like it was needed, wanting to understand what exactly was going on through Chloe's brain. "Alright, you're free to go. I'm really sorry about everything.. Please show up on Wednesday, alright?" Rebecca spoke and Chloe nodded, sniffling as she left the office in a hurry.
She drove back to her university campus with tears blurring the roads and her vision as she thought about how sickening her father was. And what was even more sickening was that she had let it happen all over again. Her father sexual, mentally, and physically abused her from the ages ten to fifteen. Five torturous years of pain. And then it happened again at the age of seventeen, this time with her therapist Robert. Her stomach dropped to the floor thinking about Robert. She had left Chicago with bad thoughts of him ghosting in her mind. After that day when Laura caught rosemary in Robert's bed, the law was taken into matter. Although justice wasn't served for Chloe. Robert had a bail bond of three thousand dollars that got him out in an instant. He also had a fine attorney who had somehow convinced the jury and judge of Chicago, pleading him as indeed not guilty for his actions against Chloe. It was a shock towards Laura and Abbie, knowing how wrong it was to let him off the chain just like that, but nevertheless, they couldn't do anything about it since the case was solved. The only thing Laura could do was sign Chloe up for therapy once again- a female therapist to make sure that Chloe was comfortable.
And so here she was, sitting in her car in the parking lot of the campus, crying her broken heart out, thinking about how fucked up the world was. What did she possibly do to deserve all this? All she could think about was how God had been punishing her for practically her whole life. Everything about her life screamed sins. "God, I'm sorry, please forgive me and help me get through this tough time in life." She cried quietly as she closed her eyes. And for the first time in many years, she began to say a soft prayer to god to show him how much she needed help and how appreciated he was to her. "...forgive me god, for I have sinned.."
Chapter 24
Chloe stood anxiously in the baggage claim area, Her brown eyes scanning the room for that certain penguin loving boy she has learned to love. She was at the airport to pick up Ethan who had just flew into New York to be with Chloe. Ethan had decided that California wasn't as magical without Chloe by his side, so a whole year past and Ethan decided to leave UCLA to come and live with Chloe in New York. At first, Chloe didn't like the idea of him giving up his education just to be with her, but then as he began telling her about how he would apply for her university in the fall, she became happy because she was finally going to be with Ethan again. So here she was, waiting at the baggage claim area, huffing quietly as she couldn't spot Ethan anywhere. Suddenly, two large hands wrapped their way around her eyes, blocking her sight as she heard a faint laugh behind her. A smile crept its way up to her face and she quickly turned around, giving Ethan the biggest hug. She stared at him, trying to think what was different about him. She had only seen Ethan in their skype sessions and in some photos he sent her, so she was glad to see him in person. He had gotten taller, his hair blonde hair had gotten lighter- if that made any sense- and he had seem to have gotten a slight deeper voice. "I'm so glad you're here," Chloe gushed as she unwrapped her arms from him. Ethan could only nod, trying hard not to grin madly like an idiot.
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