While he hadbeen making arrangements for the cruise, Mark had felt himselfgetting to the point of not giving a damn about the consequences;and it was something of a consolation that whatever came from itall it couldn’t be any worse than what he’d been through before. Itreally had got to the stage where he needed to get something akinto revenge, or at the very least a fair deal; and if as it seemedGemma had abandoned him, that was where he’d get it. The idea ofdealing with Gemma in any way other than financially hadn’t crossedhis mind when he had initially suggested the cruise. However thefrustration and annoyance he’d felt when she had just assumed thatthat was it between them had been smouldering away and developinginto feelings closer to anger and betrayal. In particular, thesense of having been used and having not been aware of it had beenbuilding as he had started to make steps to ensure he wasn’t lefthigh and dry. It had given him some focus as well as justification.If she thought that she could play him for a fool then she neededto be taught a lesson. And what was wrong with revenge? Retributionhad always seemed to him to be the most sensible justification forany form of punishment. However, the main thing was to get what hedeserved and the fifty thousand-plus would fit the billthere.
Of course, hewas well aware that should anything happen to Gemma everythingwould point to him, but no matter what suspicions may and wouldarise, if it came to it he would leave absolutely no trace thistime around. And there’d be no confession either; her mates wouldbe sure to assume it was him but they’d have no evidence. This timethere wouldn’t be a need for any convoluted or slow-burningpoisoning, apart from anything else Gemma would be on the look-outfor that. It would have to be an accident, either in one of theports they visited or, even if a bit dramatic, over the side atnight, maybe a domestic row that got out of hand. He reckoned oneof their stop-overs would be the best bet and from the little bitof reading around he’d had time to do, Dubrovnik seemed apossibility.
Mulling itover Mark couldn’t really explain where it had all that come from.He pulled on his shirt and jeans in a state close to semi-shock.Ripping off Gemma or more accurately taking his deserved share wasone thing, but he had just let his mind wander way beyond that.Sure, it had been at the back of his mind as a possible lastresort, but now, thinking it through, he realised it would be a loteasier without having Gemma to deal with in future; and she washardly likely to let him just walk off with her money. He couldfeel a surge of adrenalin: maybe that was the solution and hemerely hadn’t liked to accept it before the trip. Feeling that hewas in charge of his fate, Mark finished dressing and went up tothe deck to find Gemma. For the time being it was probably best tosee how the next day or two played out.
The cruise hadbeen a bit of a brainwave; they’d be away from England anddepending on how it all panned out he could just leave and go toground in Italy, Yugoslavia, Greece or wherever felt right.Cruising was beginning to become a popular holiday option andliving near to Southampton had helped. Mark had wanted them to beas anonymous as possible and had aimed to get them on as large aship as he could. Initially he had tried to book with P&O onthe SS Canberra. However even though it had been re-fitted sincebeing requisitioned as some sort of troop carrier during theFalklands War earlier that year, and had returned to its civilianrole a few weeks back in September, it wasn’t offering any suitableMediterranean trips that winter. The SS Uganda was a good dealsmaller but there were places available and he felt morecomfortable with the Med than going any further afield. In fact, itwas all beginning to work out better than he had planned or evenfeared. The trip had cost them – and so, effectively, him, giventhat he had just about emptied their account – less than he’dexpected and it looked as if it had been a stroke