Willem pauses for only a moment and shakes his head. "You had no soul. The only bit left Kane had to search for, and it wasn't enough to expound on. So, he gave you a bit of his own. That created what's called a soul bond. That bond is unbreakable, as you share a soul. You can feel him, and he can feel you."
My mind begins to think about all the times Kane's voice has echoed in my mind. All the times that my emotions, my lust, my connection was so strong I felt as if I couldn't bear it. And then it dawns on me. "If he dies, so do I."
Willem nods. "And vice versa. Now, it's not necessarily a death, but your soul will be gone and you will be back where you were when the Nephilim had drained you."
"A capsule," I whisper. "A soulless capsule. If Kane dies, I might as well be dead too."
Taking in a deep breath I let the information settle in and shake my head. "Well, it's a really good thing that I never killed him. But now I have to figure out what's happening, protect him, and myself. If something happens to one of us, it happens to both."
Chapter 5
Briar
Standing in my chambers, I clutch my hands in front of me as I pace back and forth. The news of my soul bond isn't as shocking as it should probably be. It explains so much. When I look back at the timeline of the intensity of me and Kane's relationship, it all matches up perfectly with the event of the Nephilim. That stretch of time after the attack was when we really started to grow close. On one hand, it's concerning, as my emotions and my feelings aren't my own. On the other hand, I can see that it helped to bring us closer which tells me that Kane is not all dark. He feels remorse, caring, and up until we returned, made attempts to fix whatever negative emotions he set upon me. Still, there's a bit of embarrassment, and irritation at the idea that the entire time we were together he could feel what I was feeling.
There's nothing I can do about that now, but it does make me realize that I need to protect what I'm feeling and what I'm thinking. I've known that all along though, even before I came to the Underworld. Now though, it's more important than ever. Kane is changing, and he's even crueler than he was when I first arrived. There is something going on and I'm dead set on staying as close to him as possible so that I can figure out what he's up to. It's going to take a little bit of effort though, it's obvious he doesn't fully trust me, not that he ever has.
Placing my hand on my stomach, I close my eyes and think about the heat that has always been there between Kane and me. Sometimes the pull between us is so strong I fear I will lose myself to him and never turn back. I crave to be near him, to feel his hands on my skin, the prick of his fangs on my neck, and his body rolling against mine. I know he feels it too, perhaps even stronger than me.
My eyes shoot open and I stop in place, glancing down at myself. That's it. Our sexual and sensual tension is exactly what I need to use to get closer to him. It's no shock that Kane, like most other men, are entranced by the curves of a woman, the potent sexuality emanating from every move. Lilith is the perfect example of this. She isn't a good person or being, she's nasty and dark, and will stab you in the back sooner than help you off the ground. She pulls men in with her luscious curves, her tight revealing clothing, and those eyes that can stare right through a soul.
I quickly move over in front of the mirror, staring at my reflection. I definitely look a bit more sensual since taking control of my makeup and my hair, but I'm nowhere near where I need to be. I need Kane to stop looking at me as the lost little mortal he has captured, and instead, have nothing but lust for me when he sees me. I've spent so much time pushing and poking through the wardrobe that has been provided for me, trying to put on the most conservative outfits possible, but it's time to stop that. It's time to embrace my revealing wardrobe and grow my feminine assets. I need to use them, flaunt them, make it impossible for Kane to resist me. And when I have him panting after me, I shut him down and make him wait for more.
I've seen women do this over and over again, turning even the strongest men into putty in their hands. The only one I know personally though, is Lilith. I can't stand Lilith, but I can't stand a lot of things about this new life. I have to make sacrifices to keep myself and Kane safe. If I want to get close to him, then I need to ask Lilith for some help. Maybe I can strike up a tenuous partnership and ask her to make me irresistible. I'm not sure if she'll help me, as her sights are set on getting back together with Kane, but I'm sure she can be convinced. Lilith doesn't want Kane for him, she wants Kane for his powers.
Biting my cheek, I mull it over for another couple seconds and then grab my shoes and hurry out of my chambers. I know Lilith is in the Castle somewhere, she's always here. She has a regular place within the royal court and her room is across the Castle below the ground. She likes the dark, which isn't surprising
