Jimmy crossed his legs and draped the sheet around him as if it were a toga. “If I had known you would have been this much trouble I would have left you sitting in that damn chair all those years ago.”
Jackie stared at Jimmy as if seeing him for the first time. Were her ears functioning? She couldn’t have heard him correctly. “What the hell did you just say,” she finally managed to stammer out, as she wiped snot and tears off her face.
“........You mean to tell me that I was just a means to an end? Just a front for you to look legitimate; I just don’t understand. I don’t want to understand.” Jackie shook her head over and over again. She knew she must be hallucinating or this had to be some horrible elaborate prank. This could not be happening to her. She could not have been that foolish. She could not have been that blind.
She continued on with big shuddering breaths, “Are you saying you ... you never loved me, you never cared about me? Your children, Chrystal, and Royce; you don’t love them? That this, this is the real you and everything else is just a big fat lie? Did I just imagine everything we had together? Did you, did you plan this whole thing, to let me catch you like this with Bryan? Was I the biggest fool, that stupid, oh my God?”
She could barely get the words out clearly before she was completely left speechless. She hung her head as far as it would go onto her chest. Rivers of tears were running down her indigo blouse, leaving a lavender trail. Her arms flopped at her sides. Her fists were balled so tightly that her fingers were almost numb. It was as if someone had hammered a huge nail into the center of her body, her very heart and let all her scarlet life blood ooze out.
“Don't be ridiculous. I didn't plan this. ......and I have grown to care for you all in my own way. I am not the monster you are trying so hard to paint. Bryan and I have been together since college. He knows me like no other and I have very deep feelings for him. I am just who I am. And I am not going to apologize for that, not ever...”
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