“Hell, no,” he ground out, sounding miserable. “Maybe I did kiss her. But if I did, it was a mistake. It was—” With a strangled noise, he cut himself off. His head drooped, his forehead banging into the glass. “Anyway, she hated it. She ran away right after, even though things had been going so well.”
Chrystabel’s insides churned with shock over his candid admissions and sympathy for his hurt and confusion. She’d never seen him fall to pieces like this before. He’d scarcely ever appeared less than composed and in control.
But besides all that, she couldn’t help feeling a stab of childish envy, too. Matthew had kissed seventeen-year-old Creath, and yet she, nineteen-year-old Chrystabel, still had yet to be kissed.
How unfair was that?
“I suspect she was just startled,” she told her brother. “You took her by surprise. Her new feelings took her by surprise.”
He finally turned from the windows, his dark eyes glazed. “She wasn’t the only one taken by surprise.”
“Of course you’re both surprised. Your feelings grew very swiftly. But just think, Matthew—you can save her from that awful Sir Leonard! If you marry her before he returns, she’ll be safe from his fiendish designs. You can be her knight in shining armor like in days past.” She gave a romantic sigh. “You must marry her, and quickly.”
Now it was his turn to look shocked. “Marry her? I just met her! And my whole life has just been turned upside down. I’m being forced to move to Wales and start over, and I…I cannot begin to contemplate marriage, not on top of everything else.”
“I know the timing isn’t ideal.” Adding three drops of lilac to Creath’s scent, Chrystabel set down the bottle to fix her brother with an earnest gaze. “It’s true the two of you just met, but some things are meant to be. Not every man is lucky enough to meet his perfect match. Don’t you see that you have to act now, or she’ll be lost to you forever? She’ll be married to Sir Leonard and having his babies instead of yours.”
“Babies? One kiss and you’re talking babies? I cannot listen to this.” Matthew stomped to the door.
“Where are you going?” Arabel called after him.
“Away!” he growled. “To see that our servants cut and haul the yule log for your deranged sister’s illegal secret Christmas.”
The door slammed behind him.
“He wasn’t furious,” Chrystabel pointed out to her sister calmly.
“He is now.”
“He’ll get over it. Can you pass me the vanilla?”
Arabel didn’t. “I think you were right about Matthew and Creath,” she said slowly, tracing one of the stars embroidered on her gown. “He’s in love, even I can see that. And your plan brought them together—at least for a little while.” She met her sister’s gaze with reluctant awe. “Perhaps you are a bit of a matchmaker.”
“It would seem so,” Chrystabel said modestly, not wanting to appear smug. Though she had known she was right all along. “Matthew will sort things out with Creath, I’m sure of it. All that’s left now is to secure Joseph’s heart for myself. I’ve decided what to give him for Christmas.”
“A bottle of scent?”
Searching for the vanilla herself, Chrystabel shook her head. “Not a bottle of scent.”
“Why not? Men wear perfume too, you know.”
“Not Joseph. He likes growing flowers, not wearing them.”
“How do you know?”
“You think I don’t know the man I’m going to marry?”
Arabel laughed. “So what are you going to give him?”
“My roses.” Just saying it aloud filled her with anticipation. She couldn’t wait to see his reaction.
“What roses?” Arabel paused in thought. “You can’t mean your roses—”
“My roses,” Chrystabel confirmed. “He grows flowers, and he doesn’t have any roses here at Tremayne. They’re the perfect gift for him.”
“But you love those roses—you fought tooth and nail to bring them along. Lord, I thought you would rather have left Matthew behind than those bushes! Why on earth would you give them away now?”
“You’re not seeing the situation clearly,” Chrystabel said, adding two drops of vanilla to the bottle. “Joseph will have my roses, but I will have Joseph. He’ll care for them, I’ll have my essential oils, and we’ll live happily ever after.”
“Oh, Chrys…” Concern in her eyes, Arabel cleared her throat. “You know happily ever afters only happen in fairy tales. Shouldn’t you lower your expectations, at least a little? Elsewise you’re bound to be disappointed.”
“I disagree. I think I’m destined for a happily ever after, and so are you. After Joseph and I get married, I’m going to find your match.”
“Not that I’m convinced you can, but please don’t. I’m not ready to get married.”
Chrystabel swirled the bottle. “Whyever not? Being in love feels wonderful.”
“But making love doesn’t.” Her sister bit her lip. “Don’t you remember what Martha and Cecily told us?”
“Oh, pish, they said it only hurts the first time. You cannot avoid marriage just because you’re worried about that,” Chrystabel told her, though she sometimes worried about that a bit herself.
“I have no intention of avoiding marriage. I’m just not in any hurry, either.”
“You will be when I find your perfect match. And then, once again, you will have to admit I was right. Now, smell this.”
Arabel rolled her eyes—good-naturedly, because she was Arabel—and raised the bottle of perfume to her nose. “It’s lovely. Creath will adore it.”
“Excellent.”
Arabel corked the bottle. “Are we done, then?”
“With perfuming. But there’s still so much to do.” Rising, Chrystabel took out her penknife and went to the wardrobe cabinet. Opening it, she pulled a dress forward and cut off half of a hook-and-eye fastener.
Arabel gasped. “Why on earth did you do that?”
“I need something that looks like an anchor.” Chrystabel handed her the little hook. “Don’t you think this resembles an anchor?”
“A little, I suppose,” Arabel said doubtfully. “What’s it for?”
“For a pudding token.”
“Oh!” Arabel’s eyes lit up. “We’re having Christmas pudding tonight?”
“Well, no. Tremayne’s staff was told not to make any beforehand, and it’s too late to begin now. We’re having
