Watching the way Lincoln licked his lips as he watched me play with myself was like the best drug. He made me feel desirable, something I’d never felt before him. But it wasn’t long before he was commanding me into another position, pulling me toward him.
“Put your hands on the bed.” As soon as I complied, he reached around and gripped my ass, moving me so that I was bouncing up and down on him. Then he thrust upward and pulled me down at the same time, rocking me back and forth like before. “Fuck, yeah,” he grunted. “I’m gonna come soon.” The sounds he made pushed me closer and closer. “Use my cock for what you need, baby.” He licked at the seam of my lips. “Are you close?”
“Yes.” I could barely breathe. My body was filled by him, as was my heart. “I’m almost there.” He rested his forehead against mine, his warm breath fanning my mouth as he struggled to maintain any sort of composure.
Then, without warning, Lincoln flipped me on my back, never breaking stride as he continued driving into me. His hand disappeared between our bodies, finally shoving me over the cliff. With his head buried in my neck, his hand moved to cover my mouth when I started to scream. I ended up biting his finger, but I didn’t think he even noticed, grinding into me as he came seconds after me.
Only when our heartbeats slowed, did Lincoln roll onto his back next to me, removing the condom and tossing it in a nearby waste bin. “Come here,” he said, pulling me so that my head rested on his chest. “That was—”
“Amazing,” I finished for him. “I’ve never….” My words trailed off because I didn’t want to think about what I’d never been able to do before he came into my life. I only wished my virginity hadn’t been stolen so I could’ve given it to him.
Craning my head to look up at him, my heart skidded to a stop when he winked at me, his smile widening when I snuggled closer.
“I love you,” I whispered but loud enough for him to hear me clearly because his eyes almost popped out of his head.
“Maddie… I… I don’t think what you feel for me is love.” He flashed me a strained grin, looking more like a guy who wanted to run for the hills rather than lie here with me.
“But I do,” I argued, my heart splintering with every second in which he didn’t tell me he felt the same way.
Lincoln shifted, helping me to sit beside him. “I know you believe that, but I think sleeping together has muddied the waters between us.”
“You regret it?” I tried to remain as calm as I could, but my damn voice shook. “You think having sex with me was a mistake?”
He reached for my hands, but I yanked them back. “Maddie. No. Of course, I don’t regret it.”
“But you said that if we did it, that I would belong to you. And you to me.” My bottom lip quivered, and I cursed my emotions for rushing over me.
“I didn’t lie about that.” He moved into a sitting position as well, reaching for me once more, but again, I moved back. If he touched me, I didn’t know what I’d do, too vulnerable right now to trust myself.
All the times I’d been forced to have sex, I’d never once felt this exposed, my heart hanging in the balance. The one person I knew I was meant for didn’t love me.
“You don’t love me.”
“I don’t,” he quickly responded.
What’s the saying?
Like a Band-Aid… right off.
34
“Maddie. Come back here.”
She told me she loved me, and I told her I didn’t feel the same. What was wrong with me? She offered me her body and her heart, and I dumped over the entire experience with my thoughtless words. And now she locked herself in the bathroom.
“Go away,” she cried, her voice cracking, devastating me.
Knock. Knock. Knock.
“Fuck!” I growled, walking the few feet to get to the bedroom door, glancing behind me to see if Maddie had come out of the bathroom. Of course, she hadn’t. She’d probably never come out again.
Knock. Knock.
“Linc!” Ace shouted from the hallway.
I swung open the door so fast Ace almost hit me in the face, his fist raised to pound on the wood again.
“What?” My temper had gotten the best of me, and although Ace didn’t deserve to be on the receiving end, I didn’t have time to mess around. I had to get back to Maddie before my thoughtlessness did any more damage.
“You left your cell on the bar,” he answered, handing it to me.
“So?”
“So, it keeps ringing. I think it’s Rico, about a fight.” He moved to walk past me and into the room, but I blocked him from entering. “Where’s Maddie?” Ace looked down and saw that I was naked except for a sheet wrapped around my waist.
“She’s in the bathroom.”
“Whatcha doin’ in there?” His arched brow indicated his disappointment, but the crook of his smile told me he might be amused. I didn’t have time to decipher exactly what expression was the one he wanted to portray, so I shoved him back.
“None of your business,” I said, slamming the door in his face before he could ask me any more questions or shoot any more confusing looks my way.
I was next to the bathroom two seconds later. “Maddie, please open the door and talk to me.”
“There’s nothing to talk about.” I heard her sniffles, and instead of giving her the time she so obviously needed, I pounded on the door.
“I’m not goin’ anywhere, so you better get your ass out here and talk to me.” I hit the door with my fist over and over, coming across as annoying more than anything else. But I’d do whatever it took to get her to hear me out.
After another minute
