The girls exchanged glances. It was something Cassie realized they did often, as if they needed to check in with each other before saying yes.
“All right,” Nina said.
As the girls filed obediently upstairs to get changed, Cassie felt perplexed by their overly formal behavior. She had expected that by now they would have relaxed into their normal personalities. It was as if the girls were constantly keeping her at arm’s length, and she was worried that they might resent her presence, although she didn’t know why.
This also made it difficult to interact with them; it was as if they were two small, perfectly obedient robots. The only real conversation they had offered so far was to talk about schoolwork.
There was only one person who could change the situation, and that was her. No doubt these children were not used to being looked after by ordinary people, who weren’t highly intelligent specialists or business leaders, but she could only be who she was.
The thought of helping them with homework crossed her mind, but homework was a boring task, and in any case the girls seemed to prefer to do their chores independently and without help.
How about playing a proper game with them, Cassie thought. That was what seemed to be missing in their overly serious, high-powered lives. Brilliant and destined for success they might be, but they were still only eight and nine years old, and needed playtime.
Pleased by having thought of an activity that they would enjoy, where she could contribute her own energy and imagination, she headed upstairs to put on her jacket.
“It looks like it might rain soon, but it’s holding off for now, so shall we go and play in the garden?” she asked Nina.
Nina looked up at her politely.
“We don’t usually do that,” she said.
Cassie’s heart sank. These children were pushing her away.
Venetia appeared at Nina’s bedroom door.
“I would like to play,” she said.
Cassie saw that on the shelf above Nina’s bookcase, there were a few toys. They were too high up for the children to reach, but there was a beautiful doll which looked like an expensive collector’s item, rather than a toy, a puzzle in an unopened box, and a soft, colorful ball.
“Shall we go and play catch outside?” she suggested, reaching for the ball.
Again, the girls exchanged a glance, as if reaching a decision.
“We are not allowed to play with those toys,” Nina said.
In the frustration of the moment, Cassie almost lost her temper and screamed at the girls. She was emotionally shattered after the discovery of Jacqui’s death, and she was starting to feel that this stonewalling was a personal attack.
On the point of exploding, she managed to grab a final tattered thread of self-control.
“OK,” she said, injecting as much faux cheerfulness into her voice as she could muster. “You’re not allowed to play with those toys, but would you like to play a game anyway?”
“Yes.” Nina nodded, showing some enthusiasm for the first time, and Venetia jumped up and down, beaming with excitement.
Cassie was relieved she hadn’t snapped. Most probably they didn’t have anything against her personally, but were just shy, and extremely aware of their house rules.
“Are there other toys anywhere? Or else we could play a game without toys.”
“Let’s play without toys,” Nina said.
Cassie racked her brain for the best idea as they trooped downstairs. What would be most fun, and bring her and the children together?
“How about a game of tag?”
Cassie decided to keep it simple, as the clouds were looming, and she didn’t think they would have very long outside before it started to rain.
“What is tag?” Nina asked curiously.
Cassie had no idea of the Italian word, so she decided a quick explanation would work best.
“We can run anywhere in this garden. As far as the wall on that side and the flower bed all the way over there. I’ll start by being ‘it’ and will give you the count of five to get away.”
The children nodded. Venetia was looking excited, while Nina appeared puzzled but intrigued.
“OK, let’s go.” Cassie turned away from them and counted down dramatically.
“One, two, three, four, five!”
She spun round and gave chase.
Nina sprinted off, but Venetia was slower, seeming not to understand the game. As Cassie ran toward her she appeared to realize she was in trouble and backed away.
Cassie just had time to realize that she looked genuinely scared, before she lunged at her.
“Tag! Got you!”
Instead of the screams and laughter she had expected, Venetia flinched back and Cassie saw she was fighting tears.
She stopped, dismayed by the child’s unexpected reaction. None of her ideas seemed to be working out.
“Are you upset? Everyone gets to be ‘it.’ You just have to tag someone else now.”
When Venetia clamped her lips together and shook her head, Cassie had another thought.
“Did I hurt you? I’m so sorry. I think I tagged you harder than I meant to. Can I see?”
As she grasped Venetia’s hand, she noticed that the young girl’s nails were bitten down to the quick. She was wearing a pink, long-sleeved velveteen top, and Cassie pushed the soft fabric up her arm.
“I can see a mark. It looks as if it’s bruising already. I’m really sorry.”
Staring down at the faint purple-red welt on Venetia’s arm, Cassie felt filled with horror that the first thing she’d done was to cause injury.
“It’s starting to rain,” Nina said, as the misty drizzle turned into a chilly shower.
“Let’s go in and play another game,” Cassie said, desperate to make amends for her clumsiness. She hadn’t tagged Venetia that hard, but again, she had been expecting her to run and not just cringe fearfully away.
She was starting to think that under her well-schooled exterior, Venetia was a sensitive child, both physically and mentally.
“Have you played hide-and-seek before?” she asked the children when they were safely in the hallway, with the front door closed.
They both shook their heads, but they looked eager, rather than doubtful.
“Let me explain. You
