It would have been good to see, but then I wouldn’t have felt his sweet, plump lips on mine.
Groaning, I dropped my head and rubbed at the back of my neck.
I had to forget him.
A knock sounded on my door. The compound was in full swing of a party happening in the common room, but I wasn’t in the mood.
Opening the door, I found Hailey on the other side. I knew after having her more than twice she would think we were something. We weren’t, and it was going to suck telling her that.
“Hey, baby,” she cooed, stepping close and rubbing her hands up my chest. “Miss you out there. You going to join the party, or do you wanna make your own in here?”
She would be a good distraction.
But who was I kidding? Even as I stared down at her big tits, my dick didn’t even take notice of the chance to get off. If anything, he was damn asleep. Unless I thought of Lucas.
Jesus Christ, my dick throbbed from only the thought of his name. If it could speak, I was sure it’d be saying, “Huh? Lucas is here? Where?”
I’d also be a bigger asshole than I was if I gave her something she thought she wanted and made her think there was an us.
Fuck my life.
I lay my hands over hers. “Darlin’.” Her eyes narrowed. “It’s been good, but it can’t go on. I’m not looking for an old lady.”
“Wreck, do not do this.”
“Hailey….”
“No. You want me. I know you do. I would make a great old lady. Head whenever you want. I’d even let you fuck me in front of your brothers.”
“See, that’s the thing. When I get an old lady, which won’t be any time soon, I won’t want anyone to touch them, look at them.” I could see the stubborn glint in her eyes. “Hailey, you’ll find someone that’s it for you, but it ain’t me. Still, if you ever need anythin’, you know I’m here. Yeah?”
“I’m needing now, Wreck.” She tried to slide her hands up further, but I held them in place.
“You ain’t gonna get from me anymore, darlin’.”
She smirked. “I’m sure I could persuade you.” I didn’t expect her hand to drop, but it did, and next she cupped my junk. “See, baby, you’re on the road to getting hard for me.”
Problem was, it wasn’t for her I had a chub.
Fucking Lucas.
Grabbing her hand, I gently shoved her back. “Not happenin’, Hailey. Don’t make this any harder than it already is.”
She laughed. “But that’s what I’m aiming for.”
I shook my head and crossed my arms over my chest. She wasn’t getting anything else off me, not until I had my head on straight, and even then, she wouldn’t because she was after one thing. She wanted to be someone’s old lady. It would never be with me. I could handle her for a few hours if an orgasm came at the end, but not all the damn time. Made me sound like a prick, but she’d been willing for me to stick my dick in her, and I made sure she was satisfied in the end.
“We had something special starting, Wreck. How can you do this to me?”
“You saw more than what I was offerin’.”
She planted her hands on her hips, and I knew shit was about to get ugly. “You could just tell me the truth, that you’re having problems sexually since the last time you didn’t want to fuck either. I’ll be sure to tell the other girls to steer clear because your dick isn’t working.”
The last time was when I saw Lucas sitting in a café with a guy I didn’t know. They’d been laughing, smiling, and touching. I hadn’t meant to go up to their table, but I felt I had to, for Saint’s sake. I had to make sure Lucas was safe with whoever he was with. I’d hated the guy he was with right away. It wasn’t until I heard they were friends that the burn inside me calmed.
I was supposed to take Hailey to the compound and fuck her. I couldn’t. My head wasn’t in the right space, so I dropped her home. However, before she got out of the car, she tried to rub me over. My dick didn’t show interest. I pretended I wasn’t feeling well. She didn’t know I went back to the compound, got hard instantly when I thought of Lucas, and tugged one out.
Still, she didn’t need to spread shit about me. I took a step toward her. Glaring, I told her, quietlike, “If anything gets around, I’ll know where it came from, and the brothers and I will make your life hell. Do not start this crap, Hailey. Get me?”
“Yes,” she whispered right away.
“Good, now get.”
She turned and ran down the hall.
I rubbed a hand over my head. I hadn’t wanted it to go that way. She’d been an all right chick, but she pushed me. She went too far, and there was only so much I could take.
No one threatened me.
I’d put up with enough in my life and wouldn’t have some woman try that shit on me. I was older, somewhat wiser, and ever since I grew into the man I was and got out of the house I’d been in—when I couldn’t take care of myself and had to take the beatings, the belittling—I refused to let anyone do it to me again.
No matter who it was.
Sighing, I stepped back into my room and closed the door behind me, locking it. I went back to my phone on the bed, picked it up, and checked to see if Lucas had replied.
There was nothing.
I didn’t blame him. He was being the better person. Still, I’d hoped he’d given me his attitude or fought for something from me.
Fucking hell, what was I thinking? Why did I want him to fight
