He grabbed my arm forcefully, pulling me toward him. “Don’t you see that I am trying to make you hate me?” I opened my mouth to speak, but he continued on. “Because if you hate me, it makes not being able to love you hurt less. You are the only thing that ever mattered to me in this godforsaken life I was given. For once, in over two-hundred years I felt whole, like I had found myself and a purpose to live; and then it was stripped away again all because of one stupid mistake. I never should have left.”
His voice remained calm and collected even though I knew he was struggling with hiding his emotions, but his words still hit me like a ton of bricks. I missed him so much. His grip tightened as he brought his face closer to mine. The smell of spicy mint on his breath tickled my nose. My heart beat hard in my chest, aching for his touch again. I craved his aggressive but compassionate kiss on my lips that always led to my body desiring much more.
The moment his lips finally touched mine, for the first time in almost eight months everything felt the way it was supposed to, the way it had not so long ago when we were happy together...until his memories took over mine. Visions poured inside, of his lips touching Bernadette’s in the exact same way his were on mine right now, while she giggled at his wandering hands on her tanning-bed baked skin.
My head ruthlessly began to spin out of control. I could feel my knees getting weak, and then the unwanted glimpse into their personal nights and sexual rendezvous that they had spent together sent me over the edge.
I ripped my arm out of his grasp, pulling my mouth away from his, and furiously pushing him as hard as I could in his chest; that unfortunately wasn’t enough force to make him budge much more than an inch, but I knew by his surprised look I had caught him completely off guard. He reached for me as I teetered backwards, still dizzy and trying not to trip over my own feet, while I distanced myself further from him.
“Don’t touch me!”
“What’s the matter with you Adelay? What happened?”
“Is that why you insisted I come up here with you? As some kind of sick plan to ensure that I hate you? Well, it worked Davin! I completely hate you!”
“What are you talking about?”
“Don’t act like you didn’t know that by kissing you I would see into your memories with Bernadette once I touched you. That was a really low blow Davin, even for you.”
I turned from him, hurrying back towards the way we had come in. I had to get as far away from him as possible. He was toxic, and I would never allow him to get that close to me again. I couldn’t let our past together torment me anymore. The past was the past, and there was no changing it. I had to get over it and get on with my life no matter how bad it hurt. After tonight, Davin needed to be forgotten.
“Adelay, come back!”
The cold icy air stung my face as I ran back to the stone stairs. If he was chasing after me, I didn’t care because I wasn’t stopping until I was back at the party and asking Sully to take me home.
Sully was sitting on the sleeping bag next to Sarah, still drinking and talking to Robbie and Andy and some other random kids that had joined them. I slowed my pace, trying to catch my breath before I made it over to them. He looked perfectly content without any indication of noticing anything was out of the ordinary.
“I love you Adelay…” An airy whisper spoke inside my head.
“Leave me alone,” I uttered under my breath just as I approached the group. Sully looked up at me with no look of concern or wariness of my whereabouts. I faked a smile.
“Hey princess, have a seat.” He patted the ground next to him. I kneeled down, seeing Davin slip by past a small crowd and back into the building where he had snuck away from.
My blood still boiled from the unwelcomed infiltration inside my head back there on the hill. Sully draped his arm around my shoulders, hugging me into him. I rested my head on him for a minute, still trying to keep my breathing regulated and unnoticeable to him. Not much later Davin emerged from The Cell with a clearly wasted Bernadette sloppily hanging all over him and walking straight towards us. The orange glow emitting from the flame of the bonfire flicked off of his face, illuminating off his silky pale skin.
One thing that was for certain, I was getting real sick of seeing that bitch constantly strutting her slutty antics in my face, and by the perma-scowl that was always plastered on her face I was pretty sure she hated being around all of us just as much; but if it meant rubbing Davin in my face she would continue to endure the pain.
“Can you take me home, Sully?”
He glanced down at me where I rested my head on his shoulder. “Are you okay, princess?”
“Yeah, I’m suddenly really tired. Being here just doesn’t feel right after all that has happened.”
“Of course we can leave. I don’t want you uncomfortable.” He stood up helping me to my feet.
When I was sure Davin was secretly watching from across the way I stood on my tiptoes, flirtatiously running my hand up Sully’s chest and whispered in his ear. “You can stay with me if you want. My parents were expecting a late night, so they should already be asleep by the time we get there.”
I could feel the heat of Davin’s
