A hand reached out of the swirling fog grabbed Lilly’s arm. “I don’t know where you’re going fella’ but this sweet thing is coming with me.” The man elbowed Roland in the face as his meaty hand pulled Lilly close and dragged her away through the fog.
Bright red flashed behind Lilly’s eyes at the same moment she became aware of the tingling in her fingers. She concentrated on the feeling and invited it up her arm. As soon as she felt her entire arm tingle she sent a shocking spark of pain to her abductor. His body jerked and she took advantage of the moment to direct a powerful punch to his ample gut. Doubling over, he lost his grasp on her arm. She stumbled and fell onto the damp bricks of the banquette. She lay there for a moment before climbing to her feet as she saw the glowing form of Quetzequatel chasing the dark form into the opaque wall of fog. Laughter bubbled from her lips as she stood watching the glowing feathered snake fade into the mist. “Thank you!” She called.
Following the sound of low moaning, she walked back through the fog to find Roland lying on his back. She knelt over and help him sit up. “I’m okay, he pushed me and I lost it for a minute when my head hit the bricks. “I may have a hell of a headache tomorrow, but I’m okay. Where did he go?|”
“My tingling hands, a well placed punch and a little help from Quetzequatel scared him off.”
With their arms around each other, they back tracked and found their way to the Square. A breeze blew in from the river tearing the fog into ribbons which floated away on the breeze. The glorious dawn light bathed their faces as Lilly placed the heavy key in the gate to Panthea’s apartments.
Roland fell into a deep sleep when his head hit the pillow. Lilly lay in bed and closed her eyes. Her outer vision had cleared, but her inner vision tripped on, revealing psychedelic realms. Swirling colors filled her vision morphing into weird animals, faces and geometric shapes. The vision danced before her closed eyes and sleep would not come. She opened her eyes and saw her small apartment. She closed her eyes and let the psychedelic vision take her. The visions faded by 7AM and Lilly’s mind finally relaxed into the oblivion of deep sleep.
A loud knocking woke her at 12:30 as Sabine came to remind her she was due in the shop half an hour ago. Lilly dragged herself through the afternoon as Roland slept through the day. She was sitting on the stool behind the counter, sipping her third cup of coffee staring into space. Jolene sat on the stool beside her, “Late night?”
“Yea, we went to a drumming ritual. Afterwards we went to the Chinese restaurant for dinner.”
“So you’ve met Kumira?”
“I didn’t meet her. I saw her in the center of the circle, but I never spoke with her.”
“You know,” Jolene said in a whisper, “Her rituals are fueled by LSD. She has even formed a church with LSD as its sacrament.”
Lilly nodded slowly, “Yes, I had some of the acid punch. I didn’t know I was drinking LSD, but it was wonderful. My aura vision fully returned after I drank it. I could see the colors. I could see the energy building. I even saw a huge flying serpent. I saw him twice. He rescued us from a drunk on the way home. The flying serpent seemed real! I’m sad to think it was an hallucination.”
“Your visions are not less real because you took LSD,” Jolene said in a matter of fact voice. “Our brains block over 90% of the energy surrounding us. LSD’s magick works on the brain and lifts the veils of illusion. When the veils are lifted the energy, always there, is visible to us. Your ability to see more energy than most is strong, so don’t think what you saw wasn’t valid. If you were at the ritual, you were supposed to be there. You are part of the energy invoked within the circle. The Bhodi Sala are reincarnated Atlantean’s and I would not be surprised to find you have a connection to them through a past life or many past lives. The visions you enjoyed were gifts to you, windows into your deeper knowing. Be grateful.”
Lilly smiled sadly, “Since I’ve been wearing the Inanna Crystal my abilities have been returning. I see a bit from the corner of my eye. I wish my vision was as vivid as it was on the LSD. Everything was beautiful.”
Jolene put her arm around Lilly’s shoulders, “It will return, give it time. The process of healing the trauma you have suffered will take time, ma chere. You can work on forgiveness. It is forgiveness which will accelerate your healing.”
Lilly shrugged out of Jolene’s arm, “Forgive? You think I’m going to forgive Alex for what he did to me? I will never forgive or forget. I’m not opening the door to abuse again!”
“No, Lilly, I’m talking about forgiving yourself. Have you considered you may be harboring blame for what happened, believing you invited it, deserved it and allowed it? These deep seated, unknown, unacknowledged and false beliefs churn in the subconscious mind. Overtime they create fear, doubt, selfloathing and havoc in your life.
It is the unexamined and unhealed parts of you that will allow the abuse to return in myriad ways. I am not asking you to deny the abuse you suffered or pretend it didn’t happen. I am saying examine your feelings, allow them, embrace yourself in love and forgiveness, those are the thoughts, feelings and attitudes that will speed your healing and raise your energy to the point where you will reactivate your gift of auric vision. You are on the path, don’t let attachments to the past get in your way. Reclaim your personal power. Knowing
