“I know, but doesn’t lessen the guilt, you know?” He nodded his head like he knew exactly what I was talking about.
I don’t know why I did what I did next. Maybe because we were in a dark confined space? Maybe because we finally had a meaningful conversation that didn’t end in tears? Maybe it was the fact he showed me the old him was still in him underneath his cold exterior? So many maybes, but I did know for certain I needed him. Before I knew it I was straddling him and kissing him like my life depended on it. He eagerly grabbed my hips and we both got lost in each other.
I broke our kiss, took his shirt off, and started making my way slowly down his chest to where his belt was. His breath caught when I started to unzip his pants. I was never really into giving blow jobs unless I was returning the favor, but with Jude I wanted to pleasure him. I wanted all of him even the good and the bad.
I gripped his shaft at the bottom and started to swirl my tongue around the tip. When I started to deep throat him, his breathing started to get heavy and he couldn’t help the moan that slipped out. I took that as a sign he liked what I was doing, so I kept taking him fully in and swirling my tongue around his cock in between.
He grasped my hair and said, “Holy fuck Madison!” Right then I grabbed his balls to play with them and increased how fast I was going. He warned me he was ready to cum, but I refused to stop. I went faster and started sucking him off harder, ready to taste him. I never swallowed, but with Jude it was different.
How he was grabbing my hair and breathing heavy turned me on. I couldn’t help but moan. My moan set Jude right off the edge and he held on to me with shaky hands while he came.
“God damnit Madison. Where the fuck did you learn that?”
“Well…” He slapped his hand over my mouth and said, “Never mind.”
I started to straighten my clothes, but he grabbed me by my waist and rolled me underneath him. “Where do you think you’re going?”
I was about to answer him, but he wasn’t waiting for one. He ran his finger across my skin above my shorts. I felt myself getting even wetter with just his single touch. He opened my legs and started to make his way down my stomach, but stopped when the freezer door open.
“Guys are you in here?” Rem came walking in with his flashlight, but turned right around saying, “Fuck! Sorry!” I’m guessing he saw more than what he wanted to.
I pushed Jude off me and got up to straighten my clothes. He took his good old time and put his shirt on. When we both walked out, Rem was waiting outside of the freezer door. “Thank god you found us! The emergency latch was broken.” I said.
“Thank god I didn’t find you a few minutes later.” Rem mumbled. He would have definitely got more than what he would want to see if he had.
“What happened man?” Rem turned his attention to Jude.
“I went to put the props in there, but I must have fallen and hit my head. Madison found me sleeping in there and when she came to wake me up, the door slammed shut.” He gave me a quick look and I knew he wanted me not to mention what happened with him before. I knew where he was coming from because letting your darkest secrets out was frightening. You didn’t want people to define you as a victim of abuse. We were so much more than that, we were survivors.
Without hesitation I said, “Yeah thank god I saw the door and decided to check inside or he would still be sleeping like a baby in there.” He rubbed the small of back discretely and I knew that was his way of saying thank you.
“There you are!” Declan came over to me. Jude looked between me and Declan and you could tell he figured out we came here together by our costumes. I was just about to explain to him we were just friends, but then Chanel strolled over.
“Jude baby! I’ve been looking all over for you.” I couldn’t help, but roll my eyes.
“Want to go dance?” Jude held his hand out to Chanel and she greedily took it. My mouth dropped in shock while she gave me a smile that said she won. I just stared at them while they went back upstairs, dumbfounded as to what just happened.
“He’s just jealous and hasn’t figured out you two are just friends.” Rem whispered to me while looking at me then Declan. “When he realizes it, trust me he’ll be sorry.” How can we just hook up literally minutes ago, but then he will go off with Chanel like I didn’t mean a thing.
“What’s up?” Declan asked while clueless as to what was going on.
“Want to go take some shots?” I wanted to rewind back time, but since that wasn’t possible, shots would have to do.
“Yes ma’am.” We headed upstairs and went straight to the liquor table taking a few shots of whatever liquor they had left.
When I started to feel a buzz, I decided I wasn’t going to hide out here in the corner, but to go have a good time myself. “Want to dance?” I asked Declan.
Declan nodded and lead us on to the dance floor. I could see Chanel grinding all over Jude while he held on to her hips. I felt betrayed and maybe I didn’t have the right to be since we weren’t together, but to hook up with me and go with someone so vile as her made my heart hurt.
“I know what you’re feeling?” I looked up at Declan confused and he nodded his head towards Jude and Chanel.
