“Little bird…” I was all choked up and I didn’t know what to say. She must have felt the same because she reached out for me and I held her until the nurses came in.
Chapter Thirty Four
Madison
Days blurred altogether and I had no idea how long I’ve been here trying to recover. I was sore and exhausted from barely sleeping. The nightmares were worse than they ever been before. It was a constant replay of the night Mrs. Montgomery almost killed me. I just wanted to be in my own bed and hopefully tomorrow I will be.
Right when I tried to close my eyes for some sleep, someone was knocking on my door. “Madison, are you awake?” Dr. Fully asked from the doorway.
“Yeah Doc, come in.” Dr. Fully walked in and sat down in the chair next to my bed.
“Madison I know you’re tired, so I will make this quick. Someone may have mentioned to me about the nightmares you have been having and I wanted to see if you wanted to talk about it.” I nodded my head agreeing. Maybe if I talk about it, I’ll get some sleep.
“I just keep replaying that night over and over again. I thought the Mr. Montgomery nightmares were bad, but these take the cake. It starts off with everyone seeing the video, but the only difference is in my dream I have to watch Jude watch it. Then everything with Mrs. Montgomery starts, but instead of just her, it’s also Mr. Montgomery and Chanel helping her.” My skin started to get covered in goosebumps just thinking about it.
“What you went through was very traumatic. Between your parents, Mr. Montgomery, and that night, I’m amazed at your strength to keep pushing forward. There are a lot of people out there that would suffer a mental breakdown, but you are trying to get help and move on which is a great step in the right direction.”
“Will I ever forget?” I’d do anything if someone can just wipe my mind clean of all those terrible memories.
“Honestly, no Madison. You’ll never forget, but we will get you to a place where you can cope. I do think we can eventually get these nightmares under control.”
“Ok Doc, I’ll do anything to get better.”
“That’s great to hear Madison. When you get home and settled, I want to start doing video sessions twice a week.”
“Sounds good.”
“Ok, now get some rest and I will talk to you soon.” He patted my shoulder and turned to head out the door, but I stopped him before he left.
“Hey Doc! Thank you for never giving up on me.” I was always so stubborn during our sessions and most therapists passed me on, but never Doc.
“You’re a strong girl Madison and you don’t deserve to be given up on.” With that said, he gave me a smile and headed out the door. Those words he said, I will never forget.
“I want to see Madison first, you’ll be in there for a hour!” I could hear Ezra from the hallway and I assume he’s talking to Stella.
“To bad, so sad!” Stella came running into the room with a pissed off Ezra staring from the door way.
“Hey Ezra.” I said from my bed.
“Hey! I came to visit, but someone decided to cut me off in the parking lot and now the line to come see you.”
“Don’t drive slow and you can go wait, ok bye.” Stella was never a bitch. This new side to her was only brought out when Ezra was around.
“I can have more than one visitor now, you can come in.”
Stella looked over at him and said, “Nope, go wait in the waiting room.” With a huge smile on Ezra’s face, he ignored Stella and came to sit next to us.
“How are you feeling?” Ezra asked. Stella wiped off the pissed look she had and replaced it with a look of concern.
“I could be better, but I’m just happy to be alive.” I always thought the universe was against me, but after almost dying, I feel like a new person with a better outlook on life.
“We’re happy your alive too. Trust me, I so thought you were a goner for sure.” Ezra said and the look of horror on Stella’s face was priceless that it made me and Ezra laugh.
Stella elbowed Ezra in the ribs and said, “You’re an ass! It’s not funny guys, you have no idea how bad it tore me inside thinking if I just stayed home, this would have never happened.” We both stopped laughing and the feeling of sadness overcame me. I didn’t know she blamed herself.
“Stella, do not blame yourself for a second. To be honest, when I was laying there, I thank god that you weren’t home. If you were home, she wouldn’t have a second thought to just putting a bullet in your head. She almost killed Jude.” Ezra tensed up at the idea and Stella shuddered. It was a cold truth, but I needed her to know that her being out of that house was the best thing. Losing Stella would be losing a piece of me and I don’t have that many pieces left to lose.
“I’m sorry. I just hate the idea of not being able to help you, but I do have some good news for you.”
“I could use some good news, spill.”
“Well Chanel has been officially kicked out of the sorority and is on academic probation. I over heard they want her to finish the rest of her final year classes online.” Thank god. She may have not pulled the trigger, but she was still guilty for showing the video. I was happy I wouldn’t have to see her again…I hope.
“That is good news.” Ezra chirped in.
“Yeah and you’ll never guess who I saw all cuddled up in the corner of the parking garage.”
“Who?” Ezra turned
