Kent: Hey, can we meet up today?
I sighed.
I could have said no to him and let it go. It wasn’t right to allow my past to haunt me. It wasn’t worth it. He was just a player, and he didn’t deserve my time. Our time was over, and I needed to let him go.
But does my heart listen to my mind?
Me: Hey
Me: Um, sure
Kent: Cool, meet me at your favourite coffee shop ;)
Me: Okay, you better have better things to say
Kent: Yes, boo
I should have stopped him calling me that again, but I let him and it made me feel stupid. How much of a blob I had to be to understand that he wasn’t coming back, and he was just playing with my heart again?
I had other chats I didn’t open.
Ned: I tried to call you many times
Ned: I was wondering if we could get together today? :)
Me: Ned, I’m sorry I was a bit busy
Ned: It’s okay
Ned: We’ll make it up this evening when I invite you for dinner
Ned: What do you think?
Me: I don’t know
Me: I’m kind of busy with Mom and other things
Me: I need to be here
Me: I’m sorry
Ned: Okay, cool
I closed the chat while I was freaking out, and texted my girls
Me: Girls?
Jane: Here
Max: present!
Me: I think I’m turning into a bitch
Max: WHY would you say that?
Jane sent a surprised face sticker
Me: Kent texted me
Me: He asked me for a meet up
Max: That asshole!
Jane: No shit
Me: I KNOW
Me: I couldn’t believe it either
Me: Do you think he broke up with his girlfriend?
Max: Celia, please, just stop!
Max: You don’t want to go back to him
Max: trust me
Me: I already agreed
Max: FOR FUCKS SAKE
Jane: Now, why did you do that?
Me: I think I still care about him
Me: I don’t know why it’s so hard to forget him
Me: I thought I would…
Max: It’s okay, honey, I understand
Max: Can’t you cancel it now?
Jane: You still love him?
Me: I guess I do
Me: I don’t know if I can
Me: And I’m curious to see what he has in mind
Me: Maybe he’s willing to apologize
Max: Even if he did, then what?
Max: You’ll live happily ever after again?
Max: Celia, open your eyes!
Max: I’m sorry to say this
Max: But he’s no good for you
Max: You need to move on!
Me: This stings
Me: Maybe you don’t know how it feels
Me: And you have no right to tell me what to do!
Jane: Um, girls, calm down!
Max: We’re your bffs, remember?
Max: We care about you
Me: Yes, you do, but you never understand me!
Max: hahaha, bullshit!
Max: I’m sick of tired of your misery that sometimes makes you forget we also have lives!
Me: I’m sorry?
Me: It wasn’t my attention to be a DRAMA QUEEN
Max: FUCK YOU!
Me: Fuck you too!
Max left the group
Jane: Oh no!
Jane: Call her now!
Me: I’m tired of this shit
Celia left the group
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I went to the cafe to meet up with Kent, and while I sat on the chair, by the window looking at the sky, I remembered my fight with Max, and felt like punching the window. I tried to keep it off my mind, but I couldn’t. It stung my heart at the highest level. I never saw Max that angry before, and I knew I hurt her deeply with my words.
I heard the doorbell of the coffee shop, and when I turned around, I saw Kent walking toward my table. He sat across from me and smiled.
“Boo,” he called, “I’ve missed you.”
I noticed he cut his dark hair, and changed his perfume scent, and I knew it was probably for his new girlfriend.
“So, what were you up to?” I asked to cover up what I was feeling towards him, “How’s your girlfriend?”
I expected him to say that they broke up, otherwise, why would he have returned to me.
“She’s great!” He said, “I feel great. I’ve never felt like this before.”
My stomach sank, I never expected him to say that to me. Why would he think the new girl is more special than I was to him?
“I…well, that’s great for you!” I stuttered.
“What about you? No boyfriend yet?” He asked.
“Umm, not yet, but I do see someone now,” I replied, and felt guilty about saying that. I’ve been ignoring Ned all morning to meet up with Kent, hoping that we would start something new and passionate, but I got disappointed. And I was so angry, why did he come here to tell me that his new relationship was great? Was he rubbing it on my face?
“I see,” he said, and leaned his chin over the back of his bent hands, “I assume that you’re having a hard time moving on?”
“I’m not, actually Ned is great. He is,” I tried to convince, “He’s a gentleman, and very sweet.”
Kent nodded, “I bet he is. You know? I think about you sometimes, boo.”
“You think about me?” I repeated.
“Yeah, I don’t know why, but our memories are so important to me,” He explained, “I wish I could have them back.”
“Why are you telling me this? Why now?” I snapped.
“Because I regret breaking up with you sometimes, but I do care about my girlfriend.” He said, “Boo, I still like you, you know?”
“This is not happening,” I whispered to myself.
“What, boo?” he asked, and titled his head to the side.
“You can’t think about two girls, it’s cheating,” I said.
“I can if I’m making up my mind,” Kent
