“No one mentioned feelings,” Dani muttered. “I’ll meet you in the library.”
Sorcha batted her lashes. “Unless you get lost in Zaf’s eyes on the way there.”
“Oh, gag.” Dani wrapped her cardigan around herself—why hadn’t she brought a jacket this morning?—and left the umbrella’s protection behind.
Everything was muted and cool in the concrete entryway of the car park, the sound of rain fading a little and the air growing sharp. The closer she got to Zaf, the more she noticed the shadows beneath his eyes and the tense line of his jaw. He’d looked like that yesterday, too, slightly haunted as he avoided her gaze and grumped at poor, innocent undergrads. It occurred to Dani all at once that, if he never mentioned his background, maybe he didn’t want people to know. But now it seemed as if everyone knew.
She was busy frowning at the pang that thought caused in her chest when Zaf finally noticed her. He pulled out one of his earbuds and said with a defeated air, “Danika.”
“Sorry. Did I ruin your plan to avoid me?”
He screwed up his face and scrubbed at his beard, and the whole world seemed to hold its breath. Which was both ridiculous and impossible, and yet, that’s how it felt. Then he sighed, “Yeah, actually. But I wasn’t enjoying it much, anyway, so I’m glad you’re here.”
Everyone and everything exhaled.
“Of course you’re glad,” she said. “The real question is why you’d avoid me in the first place.”
“And the short answer,” he replied, “is that I was, er, thinking about some things.”
“That sounds like heavy-duty thinking.”
“Well, we don’t all have as much practice as you.” Before she could formulate a response to that, he changed the subject, a little furrow forming between his eyebrows. “Why aren’t you wearing a coat?”
Oh, not this again. “It was sunny this morning,” Dani said for the second time in ten minutes, sounding defensive even to her own ears.
Zaf shook his head, unzipping his jacket and shifting his sandwich from hand to hand as he slid out of the sleeves. “You need someone to keep an eye on you.”
“Keep saying that and I might decide you’re a misogynist.”
“Is that what you think?” He wrapped his jacket around her shoulders, then squeezed her upper arm. His eyes met hers, not with a challenge, but with quiet, open care—as if he was actually waiting for a response.
“Well, no. I was joking.”
“Oh. Good.” He smiled slightly, and they stood like that for long moments, close and connected in the shadows. Dani thought she felt a gentle tug within her chest, as if there was a ribbon tied around her breastbone, connected to the curve of Zaf’s solemn mouth.
Then he let go, and stepped back, and took a bite of his sandwich, and the moment dissolved. Which was fortunate, as she had no idea what the bloody hell had just happened and would prefer to forget about it completely.
To that end, she cleared her throat and gave her borrowed jacket an assessing stare. “Hmm. Not bad. And it’s almost black.”
“Yep. One hundred percent nylon, too. Nothing but luxury.”
She laughed, but the sound was slightly breathless. His fault: she could see more of him now he’d stripped off for her. The way his shirt stretched tight over his chest, the corded muscle on his exposed forearms—it was all deliriously visible. The hair on his arms was dense and black and silky. He had ridiculously thick wrists. His hands were big and long-fingered and he was currently using them to unplug his earbuds from his phone.
“Listening to porn again?” she asked, pushing all horny thoughts firmly aside. Small talk, then sexual propositions, that was the rule. Although, she supposed discussing porn might be blurring boundaries. Oh, well.
Zaf’s cheeks flushed darker. “I was never listening to porn. I listen to romance novels.”
Erm . . . what?
“I beg your pardon,” she sputtered after a moment. “Did you just say you listen to romance novels?”
He grunted. “Well. I listen in the car, mostly. Read at home.”
Dani, in a shocking display of intelligence, repeated, “Romance novels. Actual romance novels. The novels. With the romance.”
He gave her a flat, sharklike stare that sent another thrill of arousal down her spine, because apparently, she found him gorgeous even when he was annoyed. Possibly more so, in fact. “And?” His tone dared her to elaborate.
“Oh, behave,” she said, her surprise blooming into curiosity. “What do you think I’m going to do, question your masculinity and tell you kissing is for girls?”
After a moment, he admitted grudgingly, “Nah.”
“Then what’s the murder glare for?”
With complete seriousness, he told her, “This is just my face. I have a murder face.”
But when she laughed out loud, his scowl faded, replaced by one of his little smiles. Usually, Zaf was handsome in a distant, angsty, man-on-TV sort of way. But when he smiled, even the tiniest bit? Then his kind eyes glowed like spilled ink by candlelight, and she found herself wanting to kiss the broad curve of his nose. In a purely abstract manner, of course. In reality, Dani would never do something so pointless. Faces were for sitting on, not for kissing.
At least, that was her opinion. She wondered now, more than ever, what Zaf’s was. “Why do you read romance?” she asked, sounding a little like a drill sergeant or a police investigator. Oops.
Zaf looked at her as if she’d asked if milk came from fish. “For the romance.”
“The . . . romance.”
“Yeah. People liking each other and talking about their feelings and living happily ever after.”
Now she’d officially entered the realm of what the fuck. “You voluntarily read about people discussing their feelings?”
“Yep.”
“Let me rephrase that,” she said. “Why do you read about people discussing their feelings?”
“If I was standing here with a thriller, would you ask me why I read about people murdering each other?”
“Of course I wouldn’t. You have a murder face, not a feelings face.”
It was his turn to laugh, the sound low
