Or maybe she just isn’t interested in me.
Huffing to myself, I finish up making my bed and get under the covers. It’s too hot to sleep on a night like this, and my cock is throbbing with need. I could pleasure myself, but it wouldn’t be the same. Not now that I’m so desperate to have my cock buried deep inside her tight little pussy. Only Elena can give me the release I so sorely need. Only Elena can make me happy.
I know I’m acting crazy. This isn’t like me. I’m normally so in control, so focussed, so good at keeping myself under control. I barely know Elena and yet there’s something about her...something pulling me in...something making me want her desperately…
I have to make her mine.
Elena
The second I saw his girlfriend show up, I closed the blinds and told myself I was through with Landon. All his flirting now seemed like he was cheating. Maybe he wasn’t as trustworthy as I thought. Maybe I was foolish to believe that something could come of the way we were talking to one another.
So why do I feel so betrayed? This is ridiculous, I barely know the man. After one conversation, did I really believe he’s the one for me?
The sad thing is, yes, I did. I still do. There was a spark between us, I just know it. Even if he does have another woman, even he wouldn’t be able to deny to himself that there was something going on between us. It was magic.
I don’t know him very well, but I like what I’ve seen so far. Except for the fact that he never mentioned his beautiful girlfriend, of course. How could I be so dumb? Of course, a gorgeous man like him has a woman.
But I’m not sure I can stand the torture of knowing he will never be mine. I don’t think I’ll ever open my window again if it means I run the risk of seeing the pair of them together in bed. All I wanted was for him to be available to me, to be mine. I wanted it to feel as natural and flirty and funny as our first conversation. Now, I know that it can never be. Now I know that he’s going to forget me easily and go back to his beautiful woman without a second thought.
I pace my room. I want to open the window and get a glimpse of him. I want to ask him why he led me on like this. But I should have some pride. I should hold back, even just out of respect to his girlfriend. Maybe I should even tell her the way he flirted with me, if I was her, I’d want to know.
Before I can stop myself, I head to the window and open the blinds. The moon is high in the sky now. I’ve been thinking about him literally all night. But when my blinds open and I see him lying shirtless in bed, I realize he’s alone.
I shake my head in confusion. I definitely saw him with that woman. They hugged pretty tightly and then he invited her inside. Surely she must be his significant other? But if she is his girlfriend, or fiancé, or wife, then why doesn’t she sleep beside him?
I can think of a hundred excuses. Maybe she’s an insomniac and she’s off doing her own thing. Maybe she snores badly and sleeps alone. Maybe she found out about the chemistry between Landon and me…
Or maybe she’s not who I think she is.
I want to believe he’s single, but I’m scared to get my hopes up. I watch him sleep for a minute. The moonlight gently illuminates his beautifully toned body and I want nothing more than to climb through his window and be the one to lie next to him. But I still have things I need to unravel. I still need to know what his deal is with the woman in his house. I need to restrain myself so that nobody gets hurt, particularly me.
I shut the blinds and get back into bed, but I know I won’t sleep. There’s too much on my mind. I know I shouldn’t be chasing Landon down. Even if he is single, even if the woman in his house is nothing to him, there are still so many issues to face. There’s the age gap...maybe I’m not mature enough for him...and then there’s the fact that my dad would never approve. I’ve always imagined falling for someone that my dad would love. I respect his opinion so much and I crave his approval more than anything.
But I’m never going to get it in this case. I know damn well that he’s already made his mind up to hate our new neighbor. I rub my forehead as a headache begins to form behind my eyes. When did my life get so damn complicated?
One thing is for sure. I’ll never know unless I ask Landon about what’s really going through his head. I have so many questions for him. Does he want my body or my heart? Or does he want both? Is he willing to take risks for me the way I am for him? Is he willing to give up someone else to be with me?
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to be a home wrecker. But if he’s not happy with his life right now, and if his woman is part of the reason, then... He needs to be with someone who can give him everything he wants and needs.
Someone like me.
I’d do anything for the man. That’s a scary thought. One conversation with him and he’s got me going crazy. But I know what I want. I’ve always been decisive and this is no exception. I want him to be mine forever. I want to belong to him. I want to make love to him every single night. I want to feel him deep inside me, our bodies
