A beat passes as he stares into my eyes. “I never said I was going to mail them.”
“You know what?” Tears blur my vision. “I knew you were going to say that.”
He gives a frustrated sigh. “I thought writing would be good for you. Therapeutic. You thought I didn’t know you were warning Damian with your hidden messages?”
“You read them,” I say with disgust even if I’ve always suspected as much.
“You went through my desk. When? The door was always locked.”
“I was looking for my passport. When you kicked me out of your house, I told Benoit I’d left my phone there. He took me back for it. The study was open then.”
He clenches his jaw. “I didn’t kick you out of my house. I gave you one of your own.”
Turning my face away as if I can escape the painful memory, I ask, “What does is matter how I did it? It changes nothing.”
“It matters because I can’t let it happen again. How did you get away from the guard?” When I don’t answer, he gives me a little shake. “Tell me!”
I look back at his rugged, angry features. “I changed into a different jacket and beanie I carried in my bag. I stuffed the bag under the jacket to look pregnant.”
“Zoe, Zoe, Zoe.” His gaze roams over my face. “You’re even better than what I gave you credit for.” Cupping my chin, he splays his fingers over my cheek. “Hotter when you behave like a little spy.”
“Stop it, Maxime.” I push his hand away. “Please.”
“This is what’s going to happen. You’re going to tell your brother we’ve had a fight, but we’ve worked things out, and you’re going home with me.”
I give a start. “How do you know I haven’t told him the truth?”
“If you had, the deal would’ve been off. He would’ve come after me, and we’d be fighting a war right now.”
“You have to realize you don’t have a hold over him any longer. If you take me, he’ll come after you. If you hurt me, he’ll kill you. He’ll cancel the deal.”
“I guess you’ll have to be convincing.”
“I’m not lying to my brother any more than I already have.”
His smile grows broader as he narrows his eyes. “What lie did you tell him not to cut us out of his business and come after me with every weapon at his disposal?”
I swallow. “That wasn’t a lie.”
“Tell me. Don’t make me drag it out of you.”
Averting my eyes, I admit the truth. “I told him I loved you.”
Gripping my chin, he turns my face back to him. Possession swims in the gray depths of his eyes. “You’re coming back with me, Zoe. I don’t care about the deal or the diamonds. I’ll fight your brother if I have to. I’ll wage any war. I won’t hesitate to kill any man I must.”
No, he won’t hesitate. Between Damian and Maxime, I’m not sure who would win. They’re both ruthless. Powerful. Determined. I think about Lina, Josh, and the baby. I can’t risk Damian’s life. Maxime knows. That is his trump card.
My voice is shaky with the tears I refuse to shed. “You’re a bastard.”
“That, we’ve already established.”
I ball my hands into fists. “I hate you.”
“I know, cherie, but you also love me.”
Scooping one arm behind my knees and the other around my shoulders, he lifts me like I weigh nothing and carries me back to the lounge where he lowers me onto the sofa before kneeling in front of me. A tremor runs over my body when he grips my ankle. I stare down at his dark head as he inspects my injury as if he cares, as if there isn’t a possibility that I can sustain others by his hands. The gray that brushes his sideburns has crept a little farther, like years and not months have passed. He smells of cloves and citrus, a faint mix of a familiar winter that matches the equally familiar frosted landscape of his eyes.
Lifting his gaze to mine, he says, “Stay,” before leaving the room.
I hate how much I’m shaking. I hate how powerless he makes me.
The cabinet door slams in the bathroom, and a moment later he returns with my medicine kit. He didn’t have to ask where it was. The bastard went through my things. He invaded my privacy and searched my place, just like he did before.
Crouching in front of me again, he reaches for my bleeding foot. His fingers locking around my ankle makes me feel like a trapped animal.
In a knee-jerk reaction, I shove him away. “Don’t touch me.”
A smile curves his lips. Slowly, he pushes to his feet. His gaze is level on me, those steely eyes hardening enough to contract the skin on my arms. “My mistake. It seems kindness isn’t what you need.” He moves so close I have to crane my neck to look up at his face. “It seems a different approach will work better with you.”
I lean as far back as the couch allows. “Excuse me?”
“Take care of that cut before it gets infected.” His smile is unwavering, but it never reaches his eyes. Taking the kit, he shoves it into my hands. “Is that easier for you to understand?”
Yes. I’m well educated in his lessons. He offered to take care of me. Since I rejected the kindness, he’s retaliating by being cruel, but I’m done with his games. If it’s not real, I don’t want it. “If your caring comes with a price, you can keep it.”
“If by that you’re suggesting I don’t care, you’re wrong.”
“Caring isn’t selfish. Caring is giving without expecting something in return.”
“Is that so? Then tell me how that doesn’t make you selfish. If you love me like you claim you do, shouldn’t you give it without expecting my love in return?”
If you love me like you claim you do…
