“I love you in the moment,” he whispered in her ear. “Right here. Right now. I love you.”
He didn’t mention that he’d loved her in the past. He would love her in the future. He would love her long after they’d passed from this earth and their son lived on.
“That’s not fair.”
He tweaked her nipples again. He’d never promised to play fair. “It’s true. As true as this is.” He flexed his pelvis and slid his cock along her backside. “Are you going to be good for me now or do we need to continue with the spanking?”
“I like the spanking, but I want you inside me.”
At least she could be honest with him in this space. He planned for a lot more honesty tomorrow night. Tonight he was going to give her what she wanted. As much pleasure as she could handle.
“I want you to come for me again.” Because he likely needed to sleep with her a couple of times before he would last as long as he wanted to. But he’d planned tonight’s session out carefully. He wasn’t getting them in trouble the way he had the last time. If she got pregnant, it would be because she wanted to.
Because she trusted him enough to share a pregnancy with him, to share their kid’s childhood.
He reached over and picked up the small wand he’d bought earlier in the day. It was sterilized and ready for her. He flicked the on button and a low, unmistakable hum started.
A breathy moan escaped from Kim and she rubbed back against him. “Seriously?”
He nipped at her earlobe. “Seriously. You’re going to come for me and then I’ll get my turn. But I want to hear you, want to feel you come.”
Her hands came back to cup his hips as though she knew she would need something to hold on to. His left arm was around her, just below her breasts. He had no intention of letting her fall.
He brought the vibrator against her pussy. “Tell me when I hit the right place.”
He didn’t need words. Her whole body started to move against the wand in his hand.
“That’s it. It feels so good,” she whispered. Her hips moved, bumping her ass against his cock and getting him harder than he’d been before she’d used that sweet mouth of hers to swallow him down.
He moved with her, cupping her breast and holding the wand against her so she could find the perfect spot to send her into bliss. It wasn’t long before she shuddered against him, and he felt every muscle in her body relax.
He eased her down on the bed and set the wand on the tray. There was the sweetest smile on her face. He remembered that dreamy expression. It meant he’d done his job well.
He reached for the second item he’d put on the tray. He watched her as he rolled the condom over his cock. Her blonde hair was spread across the comforter and she looked so fuckable it hurt. She’d been worried about the changes in her body, but she’d only gotten more gorgeous. He’d loved her body when it was in peak physical condition, when she’d been a weapon. He loved her body like this, too. Softer.
He accepted that he would love her no matter what. Her body was beautiful because it housed the soul that completed his own.
“Beck?” She was staring up at him, a bit of the dreaminess fleeing.
He was pushing her too hard, too fast, but he couldn’t help the way he felt. He needed to keep some of it to himself. “I was thinking of how beautiful you are.” He moved between her legs, spreading them wide. She needed this to be hot. She wasn’t ready for his emotion yet. He hooked her knees over his elbows, making her utterly vulnerable to him. “I was thinking about how much I want to fuck you.”
Her pussy was still wet from the orgasms he’d given her. She was slick and hot, and he couldn’t wait a second longer. He surged inside her and his eyes rolled from the pure pleasure of her tightening around him.
He thrust in and pulled out, letting himself off the leash for the first time that night. All day this was where he’d needed to be. He needed to end every night inside her and wake up with her in his arms.
He let her legs slide down and pressed his body to hers, kissing her in long passes as he fucked her hard. Her arms and legs wound around him, surrounding him with her silky heat.
It was more than pleasure that struck him as he came. It was the feeling of being home and safe. It infused him with a vibrant joy as he started to come down from the high of his orgasm. He let himself drop down on top of her, sighing at how good it felt to be close. He would have to get up in a moment, have to deal with the condom he didn’t want to wear, deal with the fact that they were only really together in these moments.
But for now he was going to revel in her.
She hugged him close. “We’re in the now, right? Just right this moment.”
He was going to spend the rest of his life trying to convince her they had a future. “Yes, baby.”
She was quiet for a moment. “I love you, too. Just for now.”
He kissed her again. He would take it.
Just for now.
Two hours later it was almost midnight and he watched as Kim slipped out of the bed and grabbed one of his T-shirts.
“You could stay, you know,” he said quietly. He’d made love to her twice more and they’d rolled around in the bed like they were young and just learning each other’s bodies. But when she’d started to get tired, the mood had changed.
She was back to being wary.
Their time—for tonight—was done. He watched
