I hurried away, forcing all the questions from the front of my mind. He would sleep, and I would talk to him later about his stay here.
The brush of something against my skull stopped me mid-step. Like claws tracing up my spine and clamping down on my brain. The fingers in my mind had never felt like this before.
This was someone new and they were digging.
I swallowed hard and then kept moving as quickly as I could without running. Running wasn’t allowed here. I would not run. I would not break the rules.
Through the mess hall and to the other side of the facility, I walked with a steady pace, thinking about the dogs that were kept here. Nice dogs. Therapy animals for the most part.
To keep us company and help us heal.
The fingers in my mind tightened suddenly, like long fingernails, and I stumbled against the wall, breathing hard as my vision blanked out for a moment.
What do you really think of the dogs?
The question was sharp and followed by pain that I struggled to think past. Like a migraine that came on in a bolt of bottled lightning.
“Nice dogs,” I whispered. “Soothing. They are not my favorite, but they are good for the others.”
The fingers eased their grip and I took a breath, sweat sliding down my face. I wiped a hand across my brow and picked up my pace again.
I passed a few other patients, nodded at them. Saw the blankness in their eyes.
What about the blankness?
Another bolt of lightning seared its way down my spine, emanating from the fingertips, and I arched against it, clawing at the wall for purchase as I struggled to form any sort of coherent thought.
A memory came to me. Esther had come in before me, but was still fighting mad when I’d arrived. I’d watched her then, watched her fight whatever had a hold on her. She’d arch back against the wall suddenly, balanced only on the heels of her feet and the back of her head. I’d hold her hand and try to calm her, not understanding.
How many times had I seen her hurt like that? Too many.
Too many times.
The currents beneath the calm waters inside of me spun faster, bubbling up, breaking through the surface of my mind. Whispering that darkness was the answer.
“No.” I gritted my teeth against the surge of emotion.
Something tugged hard on my head, and I slammed my own skull into the sidewall.
Tell me your name.
“Fiona.” I could give them anything they wanted.
The name of your dog?
“Abe. He wasn’t real though.”
He was from before. He was from before and he was gone, and I missed him and that was why I didn’t get close to the dogs here. I didn’t like the idea of losing another.
The fingers in my mind eased, apparently happy with that answer. I lifted a hand to my nose, touching the warmth that trickled from one nostril. I wiped it away and pushed off the wall. My head throbbed and I made my feet move in the direction of the dogs. They had to be fed, just like all the people had to be fed. I could do that.
I could feed the dogs.
And the current under the calm swept around faster and faster, tightening its hold on me. The fingers in my mind couldn’t see it, but they would soon enough.
*_*_*
“She is broken, isn’t she?” Ernest spoke quietly to Susan. Her eyes were closed, the orbs dancing under the lids faster and faster. She didn’t respond to him. “Susan?”
“There is darkness in her. She hides it well, like Esther did. You are not hard enough on her. I think she has you fooled.”
Ernest froze in his seat. “No, there is nothing like that in her.”
“There is. I will show you.”
He closed his eyes and dove into Esther’s mind, subtle, careful. Their minds were fragile, and he didn’t like how rough Susan and the others were. Gardreel had told him to be careful, so he was, he took his steps through his charge’s mind as though it were a precious thing.
Esther’s mind was . . . not like Phoenix’s. Fiona’s. He brushed through her thoughts as she ate. There was nothing to watch, nothing more than the drive to eat, maybe sleep, and a desire to move. But that desire to move slid away. He opened her mind carefully, watching her thoughts slide by. Until an errant one caught his attention. He reached out and took hold of the image that had popped into Esther’s mind.
Her hands wrapped around Phoenix’s throat, squeezing the life out of her as her body bucked and her green eyes closed.
“I’ll fucking kill her!”
“Jesus.” He opened his eyes and stared at Susan. She’d never said anything about this to the handler. He would know. He was the supervisor.
His jaw ticked. “Swap back, now.”
Susan didn’t open her eyes. He snapped his fingers in her face and her eyes popped open. “What?”
He took the token back from her, a silver set of angel wings hung off a leather thong, and he handed back Esther’s token.
The gun had felt unnaturally heavy in his hand, and it shivered in a way a solid object shouldn’t. But they’d stuffed it so it couldn’t speak any longer. Thank God for that. He was glad to be rid of it. Made for killing and possessed by what could only be a demon, judging by the way it talked. Who in their right mind would want a weapon to speak, of all things?
Susan kept blinking at him as if she didn’t quite grasp what was happening. Maybe because he’d never really spoken to her this way before. As if he were the boss. He stood. “I’m checking on her in person. And I’ll be reporting you for not treading carefully in their minds. Esther is beyond shattered.”
She gasped and her eyes filled with tears. “Please don’t! The boss already hates me.”
Ernest paused
