Her eyes dropped to the swell of her pregnant belly.
I'm not his little anymore, am I?
Not only had the pregnancy changed her body, it had irrevocably changed her marriage. Her husband could no longer treat her like his baby girl. And, like it or not, she was going to be a mother soon. There was no do-over. She could no longer pretend to be a baby when her son needed a mother.
Tears filled Rachel's eyes as she realized how much trouble her marriage was in. She wanted to look away but she sat mesmerized, forcing herself to watch as her husband punished another woman the way he could no longer punish her—long and hard. The heavy paddle struck Trixie's ass repeatedly, turning it a deep crimson.
When he changed position, she wasn't surprised to see Derek's hard cock straining for release, outlined perfectly for all to see through his tight black leather pants.
The next sob Rachel heard was her own. She shouldn't have come. She should have stayed home, waiting patiently for Derek to come home to her, blissfully oblivious to the additional threats to her marriage.
But she hadn't stayed home, and she couldn't un-see the scene playing out in front of her. Even if she could, she wouldn't undo her pregnancy. She loved the son growing inside her with all of her heart. So, where did that leave her?
"Rachel, are you feeling okay? Do you need something?"
Matt Chamberlin was leaning close. She glanced sideways and saw genuine concern etched on his face. It struck her as funny that a complete stranger was able to read her better than her own husband had been able to lately. That realization did not comfort her.
As her tears flowed harder, a sudden urge to get the hell out of the club consumed Rachel. She should have sat in the back where she could exit without detection. Everyone in the club would notice her leaving if she got up now. Ethan had taken her coat and her purse.
A bitter anger struck, and she found herself resenting the fact that she had to grow up and worry about such tactical things. She longed for the days when her Daddy thought of her every need, showering her with love and care. All she'd had to do was submit.
She knew it was irrational, but she felt the need to mourn the changes in her marriage. Baby girls couldn't have babies. Only women... mothers... had babies. She had changed, and there could be no going back now.
"Rachel, what's wrong? Do you need a doctor? You're hyperventilating," Matt said.
Panic. It had been almost five years since she'd had one, but she was having a panic attack. It was like riding a bike. It was coming back to her with clarity, and yet she was helpless to stop the waves of dread from washing over her.
The roaring in her ears had started. It wouldn't be long now before she was in a full-out attack. She needed fresh air. She needed to stay calm.
I need my Daddy.
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Black Light Series
Infamous Love, A Black Light Prequel
Black Light: Rocked
Black Light: Valentine Roulette
Black Light: Rescued
Black Light: Roulette Redux
Complicated Love
Black Light: Celebrity Roulette
Black Light: Purged
Black Light: Scandalized
Black Light: Roulette War
Black Light: The Beginning
Black Light: Roulette Rematch - coming February, 2021
Black Light: Rolled - coming 2021
Punishment Pit Series
Wanting it All
Securing it All
Having it All
Balancing it All
Defending it All
Protecting it All
Expecting it All - Release 12/1/20
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Blessed Betrayal
Royalty, American Style
Alpha’s Capture (as Livia Bourne)
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