“I’m watching your hands.” He pointed at his eyes and then at Jays and I chuckled.
“C’mon you two I need to get ready for tomorrow.” I pulled on their arms softly. Both of them rolled their eyes at the same time and I threw my head back with laughter. I loved them both so bloody much.
The drive back was somewhat peaceful. Jay’s radio was playing quietly through the car and echoed Radio 1’s top 40 hits of the Summer. I placed my head against Harry’s shoulder and yawned as he moved my hair from my face.
“Are you sure you want to go home and not back to ours?” He questioned quietly. I nodded and squeezed his arm softly.
“I can’t stay at Alfie’s tonight.” I mumbled as my eyes became heavy. I snuggled up closer towards him.
“Av?” Jay spoke louder as he turned down the radio “did Chloe mention us going away in July?” I nodded and smiled.
“Yeah she did. I’ve told them.” He stayed quiet for a while.
“Nance and Soph can come too? I’ve booked them tickets? Jamane is coming and so is Alf?” I nodded along with every name he mentioned.
“Chlo said.” I whispered almost nearly asleep.
“It’s my Birthday while we’re away.” My eyes opened wider now and I caught the look in his eyes.
“How old will you be 27?” I always forgot he was so much older than me. I was just 21. An immature 21 year old.
“Yup.” I watched him grimace and I laughed as I ran my lips over the stubble on his jaw.
“It’s a good job I like older men hey?” I heard Jay scoff a laugh and I smirked to myself.
“Hey I’m not old.” He smirked back at me and I kissed him softly.
“Maybe a little bit?” I muttered against them and watched as he rolled his eyes.
Monday
Whenever I start something new I get the shakes. No matter what it is I still feel sick. The morning was calm, I took my time, I got ready and the drive was nice. Now that I was stood in the swanky lift however I was far from calm. I gulped down the ever growing lump in my throat and exhaled as the doors opened. I was greeted by the familiar face of the dark haired receptionist. She smiled fondly at me and I smiled back.
“I’m here for my first day?” My voice was shaky and I tried my hardest to compose myself.
“I knew you’d be back! I’ll call Freddie now.” She picked up the stream lined telephone and looked so small behind her large desk. She informed him that I had arrived for my first day and watched him leave the office. I recognised it as the one I’d been interviewed in. He was full of smiles and I watched as he reached me and gripped my hand in a firm shake.
“Welcome, welcome, has Isla offered you a drink?” I watched her eyes widdened as she paled slightly.
“She did but I’m okay thank you.” I offered her a small wink as he turned to look in her direction. He was in some ways more intimidating than Jay and Haz. He guided me through the sea of desks in the open plan office.
“Are you nervous?” He questioned me as he pushed his blonde locks from his face and I shrugged.
“Not really? I’m excited to get stuck in.” I smiled. It was such a false smile and anybody who knew me properly would have been able to tell.
“That’s good then.” We arrived in an office that was towards the back of the sea of desks. “This will be your office.” He opened his arms and showed off the spacious office and I smiled politely. It had a huge floor to ceiling height window with the best view of the city. I could see the sea in the background and I grinned widely.
“I love big windows so this will do just fine thank you.” He laughed. He seemed so young now but he couldn’t be. I knew Jay was 27 and mum had said Jay was one of the youngest board members up until recently.
“Make yourself comfortable and at home and I’ll bring some little bits to get you started.” He smiled as he made his way out of the office. My office. I suddenly felt extremely grown up as I spun around on the large leather chair. I glanced down at my phone and saw a message flash on my screen.
A picture of my asleep face was on my screen. I was tagged in a post.
‘Missing this face’ was written across it. I smiled to myself as I tapped back.
‘I miss you more.x’ I hit send and placed my phone back on my desk as Freddie walked back in carrying a mountain of books. I smiled as I helped him with the books. The skyline was wonderful, blue’s and oranges combined.
“You ready to get stuck in?” He questioned and I nodded.
“Sure, show me what I have to do.” I smiled and turned on my computer. I hoped that the day would hurry up and be done with. First days were always the worst.
The day ended up going pretty quickly. Freddie sat by me in the office for longer than I’d have liked. He almost lingered around. He introduced me to Isla again, then another few members of staff that were closer in age to me. Everyone seemed so nice.
I entered the lift and leant back slightly against the mirror in it. I unbuttoned my top button and watched as Freddie made his way into the left and exhaled as he seemed to mimic my actions by undoing a button on his shirt. I felt uneasy.
“Do you wanna go for food? I don’t think I’ve seen you eat all day?” He ran his fingers through the front of his hair and as I examined him I heard a
