“I know I’m sorry… I don’t mean to worry you,” she smiled weakly in my direction. I glanced behind her to notice her laptop was paused on a word document. “I’ll leave you be, I was just going to see if Soph wanted to go out shopping today.” I watched as she picked up her cup full of tea and disappeared across the room toward her computer.
“That sounds like a nice day.” I smiled to myself and jogged up my steep stairs towards my room.
I flopped myself back on my bed and began to check my Facebook. Alfie’s bar ‘The Top Hat’ had tagged me in some photos from last night singing. It had 100’s of comments from punters who attended. I felt my heart pound louder in my chest and I swiped across to my messages.
Avaya: Come shopping?
I waited for what seemed like an eternity for a reply.
Soph: I’m sorry I can't Nace ruined me last night. :(
Avaya: Ohh I’m sorry Soph.
There was no further reply. I realised how lonely I was without them. I shrugged to myself and began to tap Anya’s name in my phone book. She moved away up north to go to uni. She was the first of us to flee the nest. It rang, and rang and rang before she finally picked up.
“Oh thank God you’ve answered.” I sighed and lay back on my bed again. Laughing came from the other end of the phone.
“What’s going on?” I knew I could tell her everything and anything but it had been so long since I’d seen her face to face I was just nervous about what she’d think of me. “I saw that gig you did last night it was brilliant.”
“Thank you,” I began and suddenly stopped. I couldn’t tell her the specifics.
“Spill it Av, what’s going on?” I exhaled and shook my head.
“I think I’ve accidently caught feelings for someone,” I heard her take a deep breath “actually I take it back. I don’t have a clue what I’m doing. He kinda you know,” I flushed, picturing him between my legs and pressed my thighs together.
“What? He what?” I closed my eyes.
“He went down on me.” I cringed the second the words left my mouth.
“Fuck off! Have you done it then like finally? Did you return the favour?” I imagined her short dark hair wobbling as she spoke and laughed a little.
“No I haven’t done it. We just kinda kissed and then he told me to take my knickers off and well,” I cleared my throat. He was so sexy. “So yeah he got lost for a little while.” I heard her giggling on the other end of the phone.
“Did he make you squirm?” I smirked as the memory of my orgasm came to the forefront of my mind.
“I think I had an orgasm. It was like a wave rolled through my body.” She was quiet for a while.
“Back up, this guy was that good with his mouth he made you cum?” I blushed as she said the word.
“Yes.”
“Wow…” We were quiet again for a little while and I smiled to myself. “Is this the same guy as tall, dark and handsome from the coffee shop?” Oh fuck how am I supposed to explain this?
“Well no not exactly… he’s a friend of his but I’ve only just found this out.”
“Oh my god Avaya what have you turned into these last few weeks?!” I scoffed back a laugh.
“Nancy and Soph I think…” She giggled too.
“Well just don’t get hurt. I’m coming to visit soon. I’ve taken a gap year to travel so I wanted to see you before I flew off.” Sadness went through me and I nodded.
“That sounds nice. When were you planning on coming back?” I sensed her uncertainty from the end of the phone.
“I’m not sure yet, just be safe yeah? I’ve gotta run. Love you.”
“Love you too” I placed the phone down and grabbed my bag. I needed to get out of this house.
Shopping was at best a 25 minute train ride from where we lived and sometimes I enjoyed the commute into town on the train. Especially when I was alone. I enjoyed my day alone, browsing through the shops and having a wander around. I placed my phone in my hand and ear phones in. I closed my eyes and tried to forget what happened last night. My phone buzzed and I looked down to see a text from Conway.
Conway: Alf said he’s got your wages from last night
Come and grab them from Top Hat tonight?
My mum would kill me if I was out all night again and I go to type my response.
Me: I can pick them up but can’t stay need to catch up on uni stuff?
Conway: Ok? :(
Me: Don’t sad face me. I do have a life outside of partying you know…
Conway: Well I was gonna tell you we were having a gathering at ours afterwards and you were invited. You should bring your friends? ;)
Me: Aww has Nancy caught your eye?
You know she isn’t shy. I’m sure she’d love a piece of you.
There was a while before he responded.
Conway: Are you jealous?
Me: Absolutely not :)
Conway: Gutted for me then eh?
Me: See you tonight :)
I shook my head in disbelief. It was the truth. I wasn’t jealous that Nancy wanted him. Was he upset that I’d rejected him? I held my arm as the train halted at my stop and jumped down onto the platform below. I couldn’t tell Soph or Nance about what had happened the previous night. Haz didn’t seem to be in a rush to tell Jay. There must have been a reason? My head hurts…
I didn't want to call my friends, I didn’t want them involved. Only because both of them would know I had the hots for his best friend and Nancy had a huge mouth that she couldn’t keep shut. I’d go on my own to collect my wages. I placed
