“Baby, come on inside and tell me what’s going on.” She carefully helped Rebecca out of the car and into the house. She got her settled on the couch, kneeling down in front of her. She patiently waited for Rebecca to talk.
“I’m sorry Shawn. I just feel so fat and ugly. And seeing Stacy’s friend today, well none of us could deny that she is absolutely gorgeous. Here I am, looking like a house. How can you even be attracted to me anymore?” She started sobbing again.
Shawn got up, sat down next to Rebecca on the couch and pulled her against her. “Becca, listen to me carefully. There is no one on this earth that is more attractive to me than you. Your attractiveness is far beyond your physical appearance; which by the way is still sexier than anyone I know. You are right, she’s better looking than most, but she doesn’t have what interests me and never could.” Shawn brushed Rebecca’s hair back gently.
“What’s that?” Rebecca asked quietly.
Shawn smiled and kissed Rebecca’s hand. “She doesn’t have my heart. She never could have my heart because it belongs to you and only you.”
Rebecca hugged Shawn tight. I’ve been turned into a bumbling, insecure crybaby. Ugh these are the hormones I could do without! “You are too sweet. I’m sorry I’m so hormonal. I’m just really sensitive about my appearance. It’s new to me, being this big you know!”
Shawn laughed. “I’m sure it feels like you’re as big as a house, but really you look great. You’ve been swimming to get some exercise and eating well. You haven’t gained that much weight either. What is more important to me though is that you are healthy and so are the babies.”
“I know all that is true. Thank you for reminding me of it.” She groaned. “God my feet hurt. They feel like blocks of cement.”
Shawn lifted Rebecca’s legs so they were in her lap. She proceeded to remove her Dansko’s and socks to inspect Rebecca’s feet. “Baby they are pretty swollen. You better sit here with them up while I get dinner and then I think we should call your doctor in the morning to see what she thinks.”
“Shawn, you know that happens. Move and let me see them please.” She sat up to look at them. “Well in good news, I can still see my own feet. In bad news, I think you’re right. They do appear more swollen then they should be. We better call in the morning like you said.”
Shawn stood up. “I’m going to go make us some dinner and then I’ll help you get a shower. We can go to bed early tonight. In the meantime you sit here and keep them up.” She leaned down and kissed Rebecca’s forehead. “I meant what I said Becca, I love you more than anything in this world.”
Rebecca reached up and touched Shawn’s cheek with her hand. “I love you too Shawn. Thank you for putting up with me. I’m sorry I’m such a mess.”
Shawn smiled. “You’re a beautiful mess. Now, you rest and I’ll bring you dinner in a bit.” She headed into the kitchen to make dinner.
Rebecca relaxed on the couch, watching TV and thinking about how much her life had changed. God, I wish I had the courage to be myself and approach Shawn years ago. I am so lucky to have her now and soon our babies will be here. I can’t believe this is my life now; I never figured I’d have kids, much less a beautiful woman who loves me so much.
Shawn quietly padded into the living room, finding Rebecca asleep on the couch. She pondered whether she should let her sleep or wake her up to eat some dinner. She opted to wake her because a hungry mama was not a very appealing option. She sat down carefully on the edge of the couch, brushing Rebecca’s hair out of her face. She studied the dark, beautiful woman sleeping next to her. How could she think that she isn’t beautiful? Most women would die for those long eyelashes and perfect complexion. What was I thinking when I walked away from her not once, but twice? How did I get so lucky to have her love?
“Becca, honey, dinner is ready can you wake up?” She gently rubbed Rebecca’s arm. Her breath caught in her throat when Rebecca opened her eyes and smiled at her. “You take my breath away when you smile at me like that.” Shawn said quietly.
Rebecca reached up and pulled Shawn’s head down, kissing her softly. “I hope that is still the case when we are old and grey, well until you’re old and grey anyway. I, personally, have no intention of getting old or grey! I’m starving, is dinner ready?” She grinned.
Shawn rolled her eyes. “Nothing like going from whispering sweet nothings to me, to asking about food in three point five seconds. Come on babies; let’s get you fed before your mama starts gnawing on me.”
“Ha ha. Very funny lady. May I remind you that you sleep next to me every night?” She playfully pinched Shawn’s butt as Shawn helped her up. “If you’re not careful, I’ll have you for a midnight snack.” She winked as she walked away to the kitchen.
Shawn followed after her, coming to a stop right behind her. She leaned over and whispered in Rebecca’s ear “You know, I do love ethnic food and Cuban happens to be my favorite.”
Rebecca grinned and rolled her eyes at Shawn’s joke. “I’ll be sure to let my mom know that.”
“You are not right. There is only one Cuban beauty that I am interested in snacking on. Sadly, I heard she got deported last week.” Shawn jumped away quickly as Rebecca tried to smack her.
“That’s it. You are cut off.” Rebecca joked.
Shawn pulled her close. “Oh please, you know you couldn’t go without it once it’s on your mind. I promise to make it up to you.” She wiggled
