I’d been surprised to find out my best friend was pregnant. Then again, if I hadn’t been so absorbed in my own shit, I would have noticed how Anabelle started wearing t-shirts and hoodies more often.
With the way our school year goes we both graduated in January after finishing all of our courses in the first semester. I didn’t want to walk across the stage and neither did she so it worked out great for us. Anabelle was able to conceal her exceedingly small bump until last night.
I knew about her and Derick, he adored Anabelle as if she were the only woman in the world for him. He wanted to marry her when she turned eighteen. His birthday was a couple days after he’d been killed. My best friend was devastated and still is from the way she was last night. No one can blame her either, Derick was it for her. She’d been head over heels for him from the day he asked her out our sophomore year in high school to the day he was killed.
I didn’t know she’d kept this information from her brother for so long. I’d honestly been surprised.
“Hmm, my Starlight,” Lex murmurs against my neck as he pulls my body further into his.
I smile to myself as I soak up all that is Lex in this moment. He’s more than just a man, he’s smart, sweet, and protective. At this thought I know I want more with him. No, I need more with him. He’s the one I’ve always wanted to be with, and I want to feel all of him.
Heart, body, and soul.
Just as I want to give him mine.
To combine us together and become one.
I want what my parents have with Lex.
Rolling in his arms, I cock one of my legs over his and lift a hand to palm the side of his face. I lift my gaze from his mouth to meet his darkened eyes. “I love you, Lex, make me yours,” I murmur softly.
“Baby,” he murmurs just as softly. The muscles in his arms tighten around my body, holding me firmly to him. “You already are mine, Mackenzie.”
“You know what I mean. I want you, Lex. All of you, please.” I don’t give him a chance to answer, instead lift my head in order to capture his lips in a kiss, I hope he feels as deep as I do.
It doesn’t take Lex more than a few seconds to understand this is exactly what I want. Loosening his hold around my waist, he lifts one of his hands to wring his fingers through my hair. Opening his mouth, he uses his tongue to coax mine open, which I do without hesitation, and enters my mouth with invitation. As Lex’s tongue dances with my own, he glides his free hand along my side, under my shirt.
My body begins to heat in places it’s never known anything but abuse.
Releasing my mouth, Lex kisses my jaw line to my neck before lifting his head long enough to stare down at me with a question. He must have seen what he was looking for because one minute he seems perplexed, the next, Lex’s mouth was back on mine as he plunders in and devours mine.
Taking complete control of the moment is what he’s doing, and I absolutely love it. His hand under my shirt moves at the same time he releases my hair. All of a sudden Lex rips his mouth from me and my shirt is jerked over my head, leaving me clad in only my panties.
At least I’d put on my sexiest pair when I’d gotten out of the shower yesterday when we’d gotten back to the house.
“Baby, fuck you’re gorgeous,” Lex utters, the expression on his face one I’ll never forget. Not with the way his midnight eyes soften with what I believe can be nothing more than the love he has for me shining through.
“Has anyone ever eaten that pussy of yours, Starlight?” he asks as he braces his body up on one arm and trails his other down the center of my chest to the vee between my legs where he cups me over my panties.
Oh my God.
“No,” I whisper softly as I shake my head. My breath hitches and my stomach feels as if there were butterflies fluttering around in it.
Lex’s nostrils flare at my admission. “Mackenzie, before we take this any further. I want you to know, if at any point you start to feel uncomfortable or want it to stop, you say so. I’m not going to push you to do anything you don’t want to do. Nor will I pressure you for something you’re not ready for, okay?”
God knows, can Lex get any more perfect for me?
I only wish I weren’t coming to him tainted. Then again, we’re both tainted by the same demons who have marred our souls.
“Lex, I use to dream about my first time. It was always with you. That was taken from me, from us. Please give me this. Take back what should have always been yours. I promise, if something bothers me, I’ll tell you. I won’t keep it from you. He took from me, demanded I do. Nothing about what I’ve done so far has been anything but darkness. With you I know it won’t be the same. I’ll feel the lightness that I should have always felt. I love you, Alexander.”
“I love you, too, Starlight. You give me this,” Lex rasps, huskily, his hand pushing firmly against
