“What does it feel like when I do this?” I whispered.
Another groan erupted from his throat. His breath heavy, he responded, “Like damn heaven.”
His dark brown eyes met mine. “Not.. gonna last too long, Cass. Feels way… way too good. I don’t even care if I embarrass myself right now. I’ve lost control. You have magical hands, woman.”
I watched his head fall back against the seat; his mouth open in silent praise. His Adam’s apple bobbed up and down as he swallowed and it was one of the sexiest things I’d ever seen.
“Cass… gonna…” He didn’t even get the words out before my hand was covered in warmth. “Sorry…I tried to warn you.”
I shrugged, “Beau, it’s a normal thing. I’m not the least grossed out by it…but do you have any napkins in here?” My eyes scanned the truck briefly as he pointed to the glovebox.
“Yeah, in here.” He leaned across me, opening the glovebox, and handing me a napkin.
I wiped off my hands and felt his lips against my cheek. My eyes found his immediately. “That was incredible, darlin’. Now, let’s get you home so I can enjoy you all to myself.”
“Wait, what about Reagan?” I said suddenly remembering that Beau didn’t live alone.
“She won’t be home tonight.”
“Why do you say that?”
“She texted me earlier, said not to wait up. She’s going to stay with Rhett tonight. I don’t like it, but I like the idea of you in my bed naked even more so I’m letting it slide.”
“Oh really, naked in your bed, huh?” I was being naughty and I knew it.
“You keep it up over there and I won’t let you come until I’m ready for you too.”
“You wouldn’t…”
“You wanna try me, sweetheart?” He gave me the most devilish smile. Liar.
“Well, why are we still sitting here? I believe you have big plans for worshipping my body when we get home. I want every second as promised.”
“Your wish is my command, Cass.” He tipped his imaginary cowboy hat, and pulled back onto the road, flooring it as gravel flew around us.
The trip home seems shorter than normal, or maybe it was the lead foot beside me. He sped home just as promised. Nerves started to creep in as we pulled into the driveway. All of a sudden, I was anxious because we were no longer just flirting and joking about it. Things were going to happen for real and I had butterflies at the thought of finally giving myself over to Beau Montgomery. I wasn’t scared about it at all, I was excited because I knew he would make it good for me.
I looked over at Beau as he looked at me. “Ready?”
“I think?” I said, suddenly unsure.
He reached out and touched my cheek. “Hey… we don’t have to do this if you’re not ready yet. I promise I won’t be mad at you. I’ll be disappointed, but I will never ever be mad at you. I’ve told you multiple times that we’d move at your speed and I meant it, still do. You say no and we can go inside right now and turn on a movie and cuddle the night away.”
“No, I want this. I want you. It’s just… I haven’t done this in a while and I may be bad at it.”
“It’s been a while for me, too. So, let’s relearn things together. We’ll go slow. Let our bodies do all the talking tonight.”
He kissed me once before hopping out of the truck and crossing to open my door for me. Offering his hand to me, I took it. I remembered what I told myself when I left earlier tonight. I’d let the cards fall as they may. I wanted this with him. It could be weird, but Beau loved me. I knew he’d make me feel comfortable however he could.
We crossed the threshold to his house and I knew it was going to happen.
“You want some liquid courage, Cass?”
“Are you going to have anything?”
“No.”
“No? Why not?”
“I need my brain in working order so I can remember every single moment tonight. I want to memorize you. Burn everything that turns you on into my brain so that I can never forget the first time I made love with the woman I’ve been saving my heart for.”
“Those are some pretty heavy words, Beau.”
“You said you were letting go tonight, right?”
I nodded, “Yes.”
“Good, then I’m going to give you a night to remember. I want to show you how a real man loves and worships his woman and her body like they’re the most precious gift he’s ever been given. I told you before and I’ll tell you again. I’m giving you all my love, darlin’. I’m all in. I want you. I want you in the worst way right now and I don’t mean in a lust-filled way, although I feel that way too.”
“You’re really all in?”
“Cassidy Mae, if all I had for the rest of my life was your hand in mine and you in my bed every morning and by my side during the day, then I’d die being the happiest damn man that ever lived. You mean more to me than words can express.”
I was overcome with feelings and I rushed him. My lips found his and we consumed one another.
Teeth.
Tongues.
Lips.
This man had just crashed the last damn wall of my heart and I was crumbling, crashing into him faster than a shooting star. It was more than just want with him. It was so much deeper.
I.
Needed.
Everything.
He was my stronghold. I didn’t know why fate saw fit to bring this man into my life again, but I was grabbing
