“Stop,” I whispered, a tear slipping down mycheek.
Darren raised hisface from my stomach, his fingers still grazing my breasts, andlooked at me confused.
“What did you just say?”
“Stop. Please.” I couldn’t look at him, just stared at theceiling hoping he would take pity on me.
“You were enjoying this a second ago, and don’t try to tell meyou weren’t. Your body can’t lie to me no matter how much you wantit to. What changed, Jaden? Whathappened?”
“I just can’t. I don’t want this.
“Yes, you can and you do. You need to stop thinking and justlet your body enjoy it,” he said, kissing just above my pubicbone
“I can’t.”
“Would you prefer I just hurt you so that it’s painful? Isthat what you want?” he seethed, obviously insulted by myrejection.
“Yes,” I choked. At least,then I wouldn’t feel bad about enjoyingit because I knew this way I wouldn’t. He got up and smacked me.Again. God, I was good at that.
“What the fuck’s the matter withyou?!”
“What difference does it make?! You’ve already raped meseveral times! Why should now be any different foryou?”
“Because you’re deliberately choosing pain over pleasurebecause you can’t let yourself enjoy what I so clearly want to giveyou. I have more pleasure to give than pain, Jaden, if you’d onlyjust give in to it. Stop being so goddamnstubborn.”
“Why? Why do you have to make me enjoy it? It’s justcruel.”
“Jaden,” he said now softening his voice and placing his handgently against my face. “You’re doing this to yourself. You need tolet go. Stop holding on to something that has no meaning for youanymore. Your focusneeds to be on me now, and what I want to do to this beautiful bodyof yours,” he said, brushing his fingers over myskin.
“But …”
“No buts,” he said continuing hiskisses.
His hands trailedup the inside of my thighs, making me quiver, but all I could thinkabout was the other man I had been longing for since I had beentaken. I had to make him hurt me—had to make him want to hurt me soI wouldn’t have to live with the guilt of enjoying this if my bodywas stupid enough to like it.
“I’m sorry. I just don’t have the heart for this,” I utteredin anger. “Because it belongs to someone else, along with myloyalty.”
I was terrified toprovoke his jealousy, but I couldn’t take this. I knew of only oneway to stop it.
“What. Did you. Just. Say?” Darren asked very sharply,bringing his eyes back up to mine.
I stared at himwith absolute hatred. I wanted him to know that my body mightbelong to him, but that was it. My heart and soul belonged tosomeone else and that would never change no matter what hedid.
When I didn’tanswer, his hand shot out for my throat and gripped it likea vise. I groaned andgasped for air, terror rising in my blood as I started to regret mydecision. What if this was one of those moments when he might snapand accidentally kill me? Maybe I hadn’t really thought thisthrough.
“I swear to God, Jaden,if you make me repeat myself today onemore time …” he growled, his grip getting tighter andtighter.
The muscles in myarms strained as I fought for oxygen, tears involuntarily springingfrom my eyes and falling down my cheeks. Shit, he was furious nowand fear filled my belly as if I had consumed too much ofit.
“I’m sorry,” I croaked out. It was all I could manage tosay.
“You’re sorry?” Darren almost laughed,wide-eyed and angry,until he got real low to my face. “Not fucking yet, youaren’t.”
And then he kissedme so roughly, he actually bit my lip and drew blood. I squirmedand shrieked, trying to buck him off me until he finally releasedmy mouth. Fear coursed through my body. I was bound tothe headboard and hisheavy body trapped my legs under him. There was no way for me todefend myself. I was completely at his mercy, and it looked like hewas really running low on that at the moment. God, I was fuckingstupid.
This was worsethan the last time he showed how jealous he could be, especiallysince I now had no way to protect myself. Panic surged through myveins, intoxicating my rationality and bringing me to the point ofbegging for mercy and forgiveness, but I wasn’t that goneyet.
“I’m over here giving you all the pleasure your body desiresand you have the nerve to tell me where you think your loyaltylies? Are you fucking kidding me?!”
He gave me anotherhard squeeze for good measure and released my throat. Darren thenwrenched my thighs apart and placed himself between them. Unzippinghis jeans, he unleashed his straining erection and plowed into me.I gasped loudly as his dick filled me up, stretching my core pastthe breaking point.
“You want pain, baby doll, you gotit.”
In and out, hedrilled into me, whatever gentleness he had exhibited beforecompletely absent. He unleashed all his fury into my body, bitingme, bruising my skin with his grip, but it seemed pretty obvious hewas enjoying himself as he punished me with his cock. I finallylooked away from him, unable to stand the expression on his face ashe took what he wanted over and over again.
“Look at me,” he growled, gripping my face roughly in hishand. “Don’t you dare take your eyes off mine.” And then he lacedhis fingers through my hair and pulled it taut so that I had nochoice but to keep my eyes locked onhis.
“I hate you,” I hissed at him, looking him right in the eyeslike he wanted me to.
“Good,” he shot back, slamming into me evenharder.
God, I couldn’temphasize the word hate enough. He wanted me to watch him while heenjoyed taking my body however he wanted. It took everything I hadnot to let another tear slide out, but I was losing control and heloved it. He loved showing me how easy it was for him to dominateme, even though I thought I was so much better than this. Maybethat was what made it worse.
He then suddenlygrabbed my throat again and squeezed. He just loved to put hishands there. It wasn’t just
