“I’m so proud of you!” Justin says and puts his arm around me.
“To be honest I’m proud of me too. I could have run off crying when that soda hit me but I pulled myself together and walked off smiling and waving. I don’t know how I did it but at least I never have to do it again!” I giggle and start back on my work.
“Security saw who did it and threw the chick out, I don’t understand people like that.” He shakes his head like he is amazed.
“I do, the girl didn’t like that you kissed my hand. You have fans that would give their right arm to kiss you, all I had to do was follow my brother on tour.” I look up and smirk at him.
“You are something else baby girl.” He says and gives me a one arm hug. “Wanna go watch TV, our show is on.”
“Sorry, I really want to work on this. Please don’t be mad.” I give him my best puppy dog eyes making him laugh.
“No worries, can I hang out with you or do you want to be alone?”
“No you can stay, but I’m not great company once I get into a project.” This is true, Chris sometimes would have to shake me to get my attention. I block everything out but my music and my work.
“Turn your music back on, lets just relax.” I do as I’m told, for once. He keeps his arm around me but props his feet up on the table. He watches every little thing I do. To be honest, I’m not okay with it, this is making me nervous.
“Why isn’t there a TV back here?” I ask.
“Never needed one, this room didn’t get used that much till you came along.”
“I like it back here, I’m glad you don’t care that I use it.”
“Why would I care?” He asks while sitting up to look at me “Flower you are now apart of this band, which means this is your bus too.” I just stare at him, my bus too? Hmmm…..
“Okay then I want a TV put back here, that way I can work on my projects and you can watch our show with me.” I’m testing him.
“Fine, I’ll see to it, do you have a size in mind?” I should have known he would say yes.
“No, you can pick the size.” I giggle at him, I think he knew what I was up too. I shut my computer down and pack my project up. “Come on lets go watch TV.” I pull on his hand. But he stops me before I can stand up.
“I just need to tell you one more time how proud I am of you, you did so great tonight. Thank you.” He leans in and kisses my cheek. I know I must be ten shades of red but I just smile back at him.
We get up and head up front, I stop and grab my blanket on the way. When we get to the couch he sits down first then I sit to where I can lean back on him, I wrap my blanket around both of us. I know Chris would have a shit fit if he woke up and found us like this but I don’t care right now.
At one point, while watching TV, he wraps both of his arms around me. My head is resting on his shoulder, and I feel completely at peace with everything. I know at some point I fell asleep because the next thing I know someone is yanking me up and screaming my name.
“Flower what the hell?!” Justin screams.
“What?” I’m still groggy, but I look at the clock, its 4:30am.
“There is blood on your cheek, and on my shirt. What happened?” Justin is not screaming anymore, he is panicking. Chris is now up and standing behind him, great. I wipe my face with my hand and sure enough there is some blood mixed with phlegm, great.
“Flower did you take your meds last night?” Chris asks me while handing me some napkins.
“Yeah, after I got back on the bus, I think I did.” Did I? Crap I can’t remember.
“What meds? What is going on!?” Justin is freaking out.
“Calm down, she just needs to wash her face and then I need to check her lungs. Can you give us a minute, I promise we will tell you everything but I need to take care of her first.” Justin just nods and walks over to his bunk.
After cleaning up the blood and checking to see if I took my meds, which I did, I let Chris check my lungs. The doctors showed him how to listen to my lungs and what to listen for. He has been doing this for years now. He says I’m a little congested, this is not new either, it’s the sign of a chest cold starting. I’ll need to start my cough syrup routine and if I’m not better in a few days I’ll need an x-ray.
“We have to tell Justin, he really freaked out.” And he had every right too.
“Okay, I’ll go get him, you just stay.” Chris says, this is not good. I’ll be on ‘rest watch’ now. This is where I can’t do anything because he will want me to rest 24/7. They walk back up to me and Justin sits beside me and takes my hand.
“What the hell happened are you okay?” He asks, his voice gives him away, he’s scared.
“Justin, she has some health problems. She has had them all her life, this is not new to us, but she doesn’t like for a lot of people to know. Mike knows because him being the manager he needed too.” Chris looks at me, I guess its my turn to talk. I turn and look into Justin eyes, I see the worry there and it kills me.
“I’m so sorry I scared you. What happened tonight is not new to me, like Chris said I have been
