“I just wish you still weren’t so scared of me, is all,” Eli said, throwing away the stalk of grass he’d been playing with.
“I’m not afraid of you anymore,” Chris said. “I never really was. Not really, I was just ”…
Chris didn’t continue. This was the last touchy subject between them, and it was driving a wedge between them as wide as though they’d never made any progress at all.
It wouldn’t be such a big deal for Eli had he not been born an alpha, and his inner wolf was beginning to growl at the constant reversal of positions.
Another big issue was something Eli had yet to share with Chris, and that was the constant danger the other man would be in so long as he had those pretty eyes of his. Eli worried that he wouldn’t be able to protect his mate all the time from the other wolves who would want him, and because Chris still showed a reluctance to giving himself over fully to their bonding, Eli worried over whether or not the other man would leave.
Another thing that bothered him was the idea of if it would be
responsible or not to try and stop him.
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“You used to swear up and down that you weren’t into men, and now I can barely get into the shower without you following me inside.”
Eli sensed Chris’s mortified anger spiking the moment the words were out of his mouth. “Wait,” Eli reached out and grabbed hold of Chris’s wrist before he could sulk off. “I didn’t mean it like that. I
just…dammit, you know how I meant it.”
Chris looked at him and then at the group of children splashing around in the pond, being overseen by the protective alphas. He and Eli were sitting in the shade of the trees, but James had forbidden them to stray too far.
“My first time with another man…” Chris swallowed, and Eli felt his pulse grow quick from his wrist. “It wasn’t something that I wanted. Can we just leave it at that?”
Eli struggled valiantly, he really did, to keep from asking anymore questions. Chris had basically just told him that someone had raped him. Eli had suspected sexual abuse, but to know for sure…
It really was a testament to his willpower how he managed to keep his mouth shut. He wanted to ask who had done it, how long it had been, and if he’d been hurt. He didn’t ask those things. One day Chris would give him the details, and then Eli was going to go hunting for the piece of shit who did it.
Eli pulled Chris back down to sit with him, and Eli wrapped his arm around the other man’s shoulders, keeping them close. He kissed Chris’s hair.
“I’m sorry I pushed it. You can have as many secrets as you like.”
For now. “Take all the time you need, I can be patient.”
Chris snorted, nudging Eli in the ribs. “Yeah right.”
* * * *
They’d returned home to the cabin that had become theirs and theirs alone, and considering Chris’s hesitation to be topped in bed or
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to lose any form of control while they were naked and alone, Eli was pleasantly surprised when Chris pushed him against the wall of the kitchen, got down on his knees, and put Eli’s dick in his mouth.
Holy fuck. Eli grabbed Chris around the shoulders and, as gently as he could, thrust his hips in time with Chris’s bobbing head. He would ask no questions. He knew better than to look a gift horse in the mouth, and his inner alpha was loving the attention.
Chris seemed to appreciate the steady pace Eli was taking him with, and when he looked down, their eyes met, and Eli could see the curiosity in those multicolored depths.
It occurred to him that this was probably the first time Chris had ever given anyone head before. He was going to have to give him some hands-on lessons, but for the moment, the only thing he would be able to offer was some instruction.
“Use your tongue around the base. Fuck, yeah. Keep your mouth tight when you get to the head.” Eli groaned as Chris proved to be very good at following instructions.
It was steadily getting hard to not just thrust his cock between those pink lips as hard and fast as he could. He released Chris’s shoulders when the other man made a small pained sound.
“Sorry,” he said. He hadn’t meant to grip so hard.
Chris just smiled up at him, and with his mouth still around Eli’s cock, it was the most beautiful sight Eli had ever seen.
Then it was back down to business as Chris grew steadily confident in his new skills, and Eli’s head banged against the wall as he threw it back and moaned.
This was just what he’d needed.
He wanted to come inside Chris’s mouth so badly, to have him take everything Eli had to offer, but he again reminded himself that Chris was new to this, and he should make an attempt to warn him.
“Fuck, I’m coming. Ugh, Chris!”
He grabbed the other man’s shoulders again and tried to push him off, but with their positions it was difficult to actually push him off,
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and Chris was determined. Eli couldn’t hold back anymore, and God help him, he tried.
There was nothing Eli could do but grab hold of his mate and empty himself into Chris’s mouth.
Well, the other man certainly learned his lesson as he was forced to pull back from the rush of fluid down his throat. He coughed and gagged a bit, but otherwise was fine and managed to catch his breath on his own.
“Told you I was coming,” Eli said.
“Ha-ha.” Chris wiped his cheek with the back of his hand, removing all traces of what he hadn’t managed to swallow.
