“There is nothing to fight anymore. Even when I would try, this is the end of everything.” I make one more step to the edge.
“Well, then jump. If you don’t have to fight in yourself then there is nothing, I can do to stop you. Take your life in your hands and jump.” I take a deep breath. His words hit me like a car. He is right, where is this person who always fight for herself. Person who is never scared of the future. But I know the answer. I am weak and this act of desperation is showing it clearly. Those words also are irritating me because who he thinks he is, to tell me who I am. He doesn’t know me; he never saw me. He is a stranger who happen to see me in my lowest.
I look down one more time and then it enlightens me. I cannot die. My father counts on me, he needs me in his life. He built his empire for me and his sons. For us to have better lives. He will be devastated, when I will kill myself. He will think that I am weak, that he never taught me to be a strong person, and this is not true. Everything he has done was for me to become a better person, to feel confident with myself. I cannot die now, not like this. This is the act of desperation for weak people, for someone who doesn’t have faith in herself. I am not that person. I abruptly turn around, but the strong wind blocks my movements and I lost my balance. I close my eyes because at this moment that was the only reasonable thing to do. I didn’t want to die but the fate decided that this is the time.
Suddenly, the only thing I can feel are strong arms that wrapped my waist in a hug. Suddenly, I am no longer flying, I am holed in strong embrace. I welcome this act of heroisms with everything I could give. My body went limp and I start to sob. The guy still holds me close to his chest. He put my legs on the ground, but I don’t feel them, and I rapidly start to sink to the ground. He wraps his arm around my waist one more time and hugs me.
This is a strange feeling, but I feel safe with him, like nothing can hurt me anymore. I don’t know for how long I have been crying, I don’t know for how long he was holding me and telling sweet things into my ear. I know that now I feel better and I am glad for this stranger that he saved my life. I will be grateful for the rest of my life which hopefully will be long.
Chapter 7
I haven’t seen the guy from the roof for the rest of summer. I was thinking about him and even dreamed about him. I showed my weak side to him and I never done that before. Even for Tyler. I could only hope that he will forget about me and never see me again.
The rest of the summer went uneventfully. I’ve been practising with JO every day, each evening. To be honest, JO seemed to be a little sad these days. He was always my best friend, maybe it is not good to compare forty years old to a friend but it’s true. I think he misses home, but the truth is that he never had a family. The only people he cared about were me and my brothers. He is like family to us, all of our members are, actually. JO never been sad or showed any emotions to be specific. I am dying to know what happened, so I write this in my mind’s diary to ask him that later. I have also solved the problem with potential enemies and that made my daddy very happy. He even made sure that my babies came to me. Ah, yeah, I have two amazing dogs. I thought that they had been killed in the explosion because as to my father history, I have been there alone, but I am always with my dogs by my side. They may seem to be dangerous and aggressive, and maybe a little bit possessive of me but they are my life. I would give everything for them. I got them on my tenth birthday. Two small Dobermans were waiting for me to embrace them with love, and I have done just that. I also used them for my advantage, but not in a bad way or anything. As everyone knows, the life can surprise, and I am prepared for that. I am only human, and I don’t think I would be able to save myself in a danger if I would be unnumbered, so I trained my dogs as well to help me if I would need help. They have a chip installed on the back of their neck and I have the small button installed in my ring. When I will press it, the chip will flash red and my dogs would know where to find me, and also it will send the alarm to Tyler phone to inform me that I need help. I never used it before because I never needed help, I was always independent and handled my business by myself, but who knows, maybe someday I will need it.
Today is the first day
