Even though she was curious as her eyes were clearly screaming her excitement out, she chose to stay quiet for some reason.
So, I held her in my arms tightly as we started to walk in the park to go to the lakeside.
The whole place, the ground and even the trees were carefully decorated with star-like lights just as I had asked my men to arrange. I so much wanted to lit up the dark night sky for her, and her eyes were telling me that I did a great job. Cause I saw so much wonder in Summer's eyes at this moment while her mouth was agape in joy, as we kept walking under the starry sky, tonight.
“You did this?” Finally, she could not hold herself back and ask out loud with so much excitement, declaring how happy she was.
Yes, I wanted to see her happy.
And for that, I could do anything.
“You like it?” I asked in return to hear whatever she had got to say to me.
“Umm...it is the first time when someone did this for me. And I am happy, of course.” She said, keeping her head down, depriving me of seeing her flustered face which was surely going to reveal the fact that she was beyond happy.
But I chose not to do as my heart say, letting her enjoy the moment all she wants.
And after walking for some time, we finally reached in front of the lake at last.
“Let's sit there for some while.” Summer pointed to the bench where I usually sit whenever I come here, and I just can not help but smile, realising that this girl surely knows a lot but keeps beating around the bush.
Anyway, I decided to let her go this time only.
“Are you okay? I mean is our pup giving you troubles?” I asked while I helped her sit down on the bench.
“Yes. And it is all your fault.” She answered aggressively, and I did not know whether I should be scared or happy.
“Umm... Okay... I accept. It is my fault, Summer. And I can not promise that I will never do this kind of wrong to you in our later future. Cause I know, I will for sure.
I had a dream once, which I need to fulfil. And for that, you might have to go through such troubles again, but I promise I will always keep you happy. I just need you to believe in me, Summer.” With that, I came down on my knee and took out the small red box from my pocket only to hold it opened in front of Summer, and said further,
“I want to grow old with my wife, with our pups by our side. So, Summer, would you like to take me as your husband and allow me to cherish you for the rest of my life?”
Episode 87
Kazan's P.O.V
I kept kneeling in front of her eyes, holding the ring in my hand and was hoping that this time she might accept me whole-heartedly, but Summer did not say a single word since when I asked her to marry me.
In fact, none of her facial expressions holds any kind of sign that she might agree to my proposal even this time and that was what kept freaking me out in my mind without any doubt.
I must say, I have never imagined before that asking my mate to marry me would be this difficult as I have never ever felt this kind of nervous as I am feeling now, while waiting for her one single answer.
And I will never deny the fact that I was scared indeed.
What if she says no again, like the last time, although I have never asked her formally as I did this time. But still, I did not know why, but her silence was killing me.
Even if she says no this time as well, one thing was clear to me that no matter if we get married or not, she will be the only one I will spend the rest of my life with, and we are surely going to make a lot of our pups.
I guess she knows that too...about my feelings for her, but I just can not understand what is holding her every time wherever I come up with all the courage to ask her hand in marriage. And tonight I was so sure that she was going to accept me at last.
But seeing her like this, I just can not agree with my thoughts anymore.
Cause, as time kept passing by, I clearly saw how her lips started to crook down while both of her eyebrows got knitted together, bit by bit.
And she closed her eyes tight, but said nothing. Neither did she make any sound.
I just could not understand what was happening...what was she thinking right now?
What did I say that made her this much sad all of a sudden?
Was I that bad as a mate?
Would she never accept me in her life?
What about my dreams?
What about my wife and pups?
What about my desire to make my own family?
I badly wanted a home to get back to after every long and tiring day in my coming life.
But I want no home where I can not find my Summer.
I need her badly.
I love her.
Mate?
At this moment, a sudden thought came across my mind, shaking me from head to toe.
What if I am doing injustice to her?
What if all this time I was only seeing my dreams and desires and kept confining my mate without much of my awareness?
What if she always desired for freedom and I am coming in between her dreams and was holding her back without knowing what exactly I
