Once I was in a more comfortable condition, and my every thought wasn’t focused on making it to the retiring room before I embarrassed myself, I could hear the murmured conversations of the women congregating on the other side of my private partition. Some were cooing over how dashing Bonnie Brock seemed, though whether they were talking about the man himself or the actor who was playing him, I couldn’t tell. They didn’t seem to differentiate. Just as they didn’t seem to fully grasp the fictional aspects of it being a scripted play and not reality.
“Who do you think his father is?” one lady asked.
“I heard he’s some member of royalty,” her friend answered.
“Lady Jersey told me he’s a foreign dignitary,” a third woman added.
I rolled my eyes, suspecting Lady Jersey knew little better than anyone else, though she would never admit it. The next few comments were lost to the rustling and resettling of my gown, but as I reached for the door handle I clearly heard the next question.
“Do you think it’s true, then? Was Lady Darby his lover?”
I stilled, not so much surprised to hear they were gossiping about such a thing as that I was trapped here, forced to listen to it.
The ladies continued to speak about me using my courtesy title. I’d long since ceased requesting acquaintances to call me Mrs. Gage instead, for such an appeal merely baffled society. They couldn’t understand why I would willingly relinquish the title granted to me by marrying my first husband—Sir Anthony Darby—that I was permitted to continue to use by courtesy, if not right, when I’d wed my lower-ranked second husband. But then most of them did not fully grasp what I’d suffered during my first marriage, and I was not going to illuminate them.
“Why would he be interested in a woman like Lady Darby?” Scorn dripped from the second lady’s voice, which I now recognized belonged to Lady Wilmot. I was more surprised by her presence in Edinburgh than her disparaging opinion of me. After all, she was close friends with Lady Felicity, the woman Gage’s father had chosen for his son’s bride. That Gage had possessed a different opinion and chosen me instead had been a source of heated contention between father and son for months following our nuptials.
“Men must see something in her,” her companion declared, before adding wryly, “Sebastian Gage married her, after all. And we all know his taste is unassailable.”
I could practically see Lady Wilmot’s eyes narrowing at this taunting insult to her and Lady Felicity.
“She’s dangerous,” the first woman supplied confidently, as if she knew of what she spoke. “Unpredictable. Ghoulish even. Men like to dabble in that sort of thing.”
Having heard enough, I decided it was past time to make myself known. Giving my skirts one last twitch, I stepped into the larger area of the retiring room just as Lady Wilmot responded.
“I suppose that could explain it. Though I do hope Mr. Gage won’t live to regret his weakness.” The glint in her eyes as she scrutinized herself in one of the long mirrors made it perfectly evident that she hoped that very thing.
I nodded to the woman passing by me to enter the partition I’d vacated. That older lady’s eyes dipped to somewhere near the level of our feet, but I kept my polite smile firmly affixed. Then I lifted my gaze to boldly meet Lady Wilmot’s in the reflection of the looking glass, refusing to be cowed. Her expression revealed not an iota of remorse, though the first lady who had spoken—a simpering blonde—gasped and scampered farther across the room as if she might be worried I would lash out at her.
I ignored them all, crossing to the washbasin and murmuring my thanks to the attendant, who smiled shyly at me as she poured the water from an ewer slowly over my hands, so as not to splash the costly fabric of my gown. This was easier said than done when one looked like one had swallowed a large melon. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Lady Wilmot pivot as if ready to do battle. I’d already apprehended that there was nothing to be gained from confronting her, but neither was I going to run away.
I dried my hands on the proffered towel and stepped closer to one of the mirrors, adjusting the rolls of curls at my temples before turning to depart. All this was done while failing to even acknowledge the presence of Lady Wilmot and her friends, a move which was certain to exasperate her. And true to expectation, she stepped forward just as I was within six feet of the door.
Unfortunately for her, my cousin Morven chose that moment to enter the retiring room. At the sight of me, she gave an exclamation of pleasure. “Kiera!” She embraced me, allowing one arm to linger around my neck and the other against my stomach. “Oh, my dearest.” She gave a fond shake of her head. “How much longer now?”
I exhaled a deep breath. “Dr. Fenwick says at least three weeks.”
“And each one of those will feel like a year,” she commiserated, already having three children of her own. “Though I vastly preferred the sensation of being akin to Humpty Dumpty than the first two months of making friends with the chamber pot.”
My lips quirked. “True.” I’d endured my share of queasiness at the beginning, although nothing compared to my poor sister, who’d suffered for nine torturous months with each of her children.
“I’m afraid that’s the travail of being in the family way.” Her gaze flicked
