I felt like I had no control over myself. My body reeling from what he had just done, and I trembled beneath him as he slammed into me two more times before groaning my name against my neck.
We lay there like that for a long time with him holding his weight on his elbows. Neither of us said a word until he slid out of me and pressed a kiss to my belly.
“Are you okay?”
I blinked sleepy eyes at him and nodded my head. I was more than okay. I felt perfectly happy in that moment, and I wasn’t sure that anything could bring me down.
I watched Beck dispose of the condom as I struggled to stay awake, and I moaned softly as he climbed back into bed and curled his body around mine. He pulled the blanket over us and clicked off the light.
I could feel him breathing behind me, his body still not having calmed down, but I couldn’t fight the pull of sleep. I was exhausted, and I felt so safe in his arms.
He kissed the back of my head as he laid his head on the pillow. “Don’t forget, Josie. Don’t forget what you said.”
I nodded my head. “I won’t.”
Chapter Eighteen
Beck
As soon as I opened my eyes, I knew something wasn’t right.
Josie was no longer in my arms. Instead, she was storming around my room, grabbing her clothes off the floor, and tugging them on in a rush.
“What are you doing?” I asked and her bloodshot eyes snapped to mine.
Something was seriously wrong.
“How dare you!” She tugged her shirt over her head, not worrying about a bra, before she tugged on her shorts.
“What’s wrong?” I jumped out of the bed and pulled my own shorts on before she bolted. There was no way that she knew about what I had sent to Lucas. She didn’t have her phone, and every part of me believed the coward would keep his mouth fucking shut even though I slammed it in his face.
Even though I sent him proof of me touching his sister in all the ways I knew would piss him off. I didn’t get to say another word about what he did to Frankie, but I had been willing to throw what I had done to Josie in his face.
What he had done to my sister had been sent out for all his fucking friends to see, but mine had been just for him.
It was a decision that I regretted. One that I couldn’t take back.
But there was no way in hell that she knew.
She stormed past me and picked up my phone off my nightstand. She threw it at my chest without saying a word, and I scrambled to catch it.
Notification after notification lit up my phone, and there in the middle of the screen was the video I had sent her brother.
“Josie, let me explain.”
“Let you explain!” she screamed, and I knew that everyone in the house could hear her. My dad, my mom, and worst of all, Frankie. “What the fuck do you think there is to explain?”
I clicked on the screen and saw the video had been posted to Instagram. Right there for everyone to see was me eating Josie while she was spread out before me on the side of the pool.
“I didn’t post this.” I was grasping at straws, but I had to make her understand.
“I don’t believe you, Clermont.”
I hated that she called me by my last name. She only did that when she hated me.
“I don’t believe a damn word you say.”
“I sent it to Lucas.” I had no intention of telling her the truth, but it was the only thing I had. I didn’t expect Lucas to send it out to anyone, let alone where the whole damn school could see. I was a fool for thinking that piece of trash had any sort of morals, but I was no better than him.
I knew that.
I wanted to destroy Lucas, but I had become just like him.
“So, you’re some sort of saint?” she screamed at me, and I had never seen her so angry before. I reached for her hand, and she jerked away from me so fast it felt like she hit me. “What did I do to you?”
She didn’t wait for an answer. Her voice broke as she screamed. “What the fuck did I do to deserve this?”
My hands shook at my sides, and I was dying to touch her, to hold her against me and refuse to let her go until I could explain.
I had no intentions of falling for Lucas Vos’s sister.
That was never part of the plan, but as I stood there and watched the first few tears roll down her cheeks, I knew that I was a complete and total idiot.
All while I was trying to ruin every piece of her, I was slowly falling for her. And she had given me the power to do so. She handed me the power to either destroy or love her, and I showed her exactly who I was.
I showed her exactly what I was capable of.
“You don’t deserve this.”
“Then why?”
“Because of what he did to Frankie,” I yelled back at her. “Don’t act like you don’t know what he did to her. There’s no way you can be that fucking dense.”
She jolted back, and I hated myself more. I was doing nothing but pushing her farther away.
This was exactly what he wanted.
This was exactly why he had posted this. He knew that I would ruin myself.
“What are you talking about?”
“Your brother, Josie. He…” I ran my hands through my hair because I could barely breathe, let alone think. “He fucking assaulted her.”
She looked like she was going to be sick, but I couldn’t stop now. I hadn’t talked about what happened with anyone since those few weeks after it happened when everything was swept under the rug.
“He and his friends assaulted her, and one of
