“When they said you were dead, my whole world fell apart. I even thought of killing myself, and probably would have, if my dad hadn’t come over one night.”
“You didn’t seem to waste too much time in mourning.”
“Not too much time?” Lonnie looked at him with a mix of anger and incredulity. “Marcus…you were dead. They said your body was blown to bits and there weren’t even enough parts to send home. How long was I supposed to wait for a ghost?”
Marcus remained silent for several seconds. Seconds that stretched to infinity for Lonnie.
She opened her mouth to speak, but the words were stuck in her throat, choking her as she tried to say them. “I…want another chance.” She took a deep breath. “I still love you.”
Marcus closed his eyes and leaned his head back against the seat. Lonnie turned away from him. She faced out the windshield and forced the tears that welled up to stay down. “I understand if you hate me. I acted like a whore while you were suffering in Africa, thinking I was waiting for you. If you don’t want me, just don’t say anything and I’ll get the message and leave it alone.”
Marcus inhaled deeply through his nose. His muscular chest expanded inside the thick parka. In a deep, thoughtful voice, he said, “I have four hundred pages of poetry I wrote for you since I escaped Sierra Leone.”
Lonnie turned and looked into his face. The stone-cold warrior expression had faded. A warm gentleness she remembered from long ago returned to his eyes, but with a twinge of pain.
“I haven’t been with another woman since I proposed to you in Europe. I waited for you to change your mind for several years, but you didn’t, so I decided I would be better off if I just died in the line of duty. I quit being careful and volunteered for all kinds of crazy missions all over the world. I always kept a large military life insurance policy, naming you as the beneficiary if anything should happen to me. For some reason, I kept surviving, although God knows I shouldn’t have.”
He locked his deep brown eyes on hers. “When you wrote to me before I left for Africa, I thought you had come around and we could live happily ever after. Thirty-two good men were killed, but somehow I survived. I just knew it had to be because God was smiling on me and wanted me to get back to you. The image of you in my dreams is what saved me as I crossed that whole war-torn country, being hunted like an animal.”
The tears in Lonnie’s eyes overflowed and ran in streams down her cheeks.
“When you didn’t answer my letter, I got scared. I thought something had happened to you in your job with the troopers. Linus told me the truth later.”
Lonnie wiped her eyes and cheeks with shaking fingers. Her lower lip quivered. She feared she was on the verge of bawling out loud.
Marcus continued. “I truly hoped you would have a happy marriage with Jerry. I never stopped loving you, but decided that if you would be happier without me, I would just disappear.”
She tried to talk, but the sound balled up in her throat and would not come out. Individual tears escaped and slid over her cheeks. Lonnie glanced out the window of the truck to make sure no one was looking at her. After a long silence, she forced out the words. “I am so sorry.”
Marcus reached across the space between the two seats and took her hand in his own. “I know. This is a pretty crappy world and the circumstances of our reunion have not been anything like what I had wished for.” He took her other hand in his. “If we live through this, and you really want to, we’ll erase the past and try again.”
“Yes,” she replied. “Let’s try again.”
Chapter 41
North Side of the Denali Range
Near Healy, Alaska
20 December
03:35 Hours
Four armed men, dressed in military uniforms and carrying a hodge-podge of weapons and equipment, hiked toward the road in the mountains just north of Healy, an alpine city built in the sparse, rocky terrain around the Isabella Coal Mine. The Alaska State Defense Force had no real winter maneuvers per se. Staff Sergeant Aaron Michaels had been determined to change that since he joined the ASDF just after 9-11.
As a young man, Michaels had dreamed of being a Marine. That dream was crushed, due to boot camp injuries he had received as a nineteen-year-old private back in the eighties. He had stayed in good shape and tried to reenlist in the Marines numerous times, only to be sent away by the recruiters. At the age of thirty-four, through a combination of frustration and patriotism, he ended at the recruiting office for the Alaska State Defense Force, which had gladly accepted him for whatever he was willing to do.
The ASDF is, for lack of a better term, a militia. Unlike many of the private militias in the Lower 48, it is a legitimate, although minimally funded, paramilitary law enforcement and security organization run by the state of Alaska under the authority of the Department of Military and Veterans Affairs. In the days since 9/11, units of the ASDF have often been called to month-long stints of active duty to back up trooper or National Guard operations that need additional manpower.
Members of the various units in the ASDF have, since the terrorist bombings in New York, been called up for duty guarding the pipeline, the Anchorage Port, the Alaska Railroad, and other similar missions. One such unit had been instrumental in the capture of two suspected terrorists who were caught mapping the underside of a pipeline bridge north of Fairbanks.
The rank and file of the ASDF are comprised of volunteers ranging
