Everything inside me screamed to come clean, tell my lover the truth but there was that tiny part of me that felt so scared he would hate me for it. He would finally realise I was not worth all the trouble and decide to let me go. After being loved and cherished so much by him, I wasn't sure I was ready to handle the pain of being dumped just because I could not control my hormones or my emotions.
Besides, the thing about Cole was that he was very possessive. That was an innate part of his nature and maybe it came from never having anyone to call his own until he had met us so he jealously guarded what belonged to him. I knew he wasn't the kind of guy who was okay with the idea of sharing Jasper with me or vice versa.
It was quite clear he hated it when Jasper looked at me and I was also aware of how uncomfortable he got when he saw me paying too much attention to his partner so expecting understanding from him regarding this was out of the question. Cole was an amazing guy but I did not want to test his limits.
Speaking of limits, I didn't want to test mine either. It was way too scary. Two men? How could that even be possible? I never imagined myself to be the ménage à trois type despite having read about it a lot. How would that even work? They were both so hot and demanding, they would eat me alive.
I shuddered at the image I created in my brain and tried not to allow the languid feeling that came over me to take control of my body. No. This was wrong. I had to stop. For Cole's sake. He deserved better. If Jasper could be faithful to him even during these trying times, I had no reason to stray when I was on the receiving end of so much love and devotion.
The thought gave me an idea. I sat up, feeling energized, and scrolled through my contact list to find Jasper's number. I had never used it despite Cole's insistence that I keep it in case there was some problem at the house and I could not get a hold of Cole.
Now I typed a quick text and hit send then waited for him to reply with my bottom lip caught between my teeth.
I've got an idea -Skye.
Oh my God, what if he didn't want to talk to me after the shower incident? What if he was back to hating my guts?
He actually had ammo against me now and could rat me out to Cole about how I had ambushed him in the bathroom and almost kissed him. That would be a surefire way to get me out of Cole's life and Cole would hate me so much, he would have no problem letting go this time. Dread curled around my heart at the thought.
Jasper wouldn't be that deceptive, would he? What if everything he had said to me in the bathroom was a ruse?
Just as I was about to put the phone down, I saw the incoming text. My heartbeats sped up in a way they definitely had no business doing so considering who the sender was.
Do I want to know? - Jasper.
I smiled and typed back.
Trust me on this. It's going to work. Just go MIA while you're on this trip. No contact with Cole. He'll go crazy and would have to forgive you. - Skye.
There was no reply for several seconds.
Then my phone pinged again.
What is this, high school? I'm perfectly fine. I don't want him to worry. - Jasper.
I rolled my eyes.
Jasper. Just do as I said. You want him back or not? - Skye.
He made me wait a whole two minutes before replying.
Fine. Just take care of him. Let me know if he's alright. - Jasper.
I snickered and typed back, throwing his words about me to Cole back in his face.
Relax, Wells. He's not a little boy. He can handle himself. - Skye.
I tossed my phone on the bed and got up, feeling happier and lighter for some reason and ready to spend the rest of the night with my sweet, gorgeous boyfriend. Get his nose out of the book he was most probably reading at that moment.
Another text came in and I quickly checked it as I ran my fingers through my hair. My eyes bugged when I read his reply.
I know he can handle himself. But he is always going to be my little boy. - Jasper.
Okaaayyy. Should I ask? I shook my head as the implications hit me from all around, put the phone down slowly and backed away, crushing my curiosity. That truly was none of my business.
*****
Two days passed during which Cole and I spent all our free time huddled inside the house watching Netflix and chilling and hitting our TBR pile. Which resulted in failed attempts because we were also busy having sex like bunnies now that we had the place all to ourselves. We were still in the honeymoon phase and couldn't get enough of each other. It was all we wanted to do. He was very, very thorough.
But I didn't miss the worry he hid from me when he escaped into the bathroom or his office to leave voicemails for Jasper which grew more and more desperate as time passed. When Jasper did not reply by the end of the second day, I heard Cole calling some of his boyfriend's family members in London who informed him that Jasper had left London right
