“Oh, yes, it is very pretty; and I am sure I am very grateful to Providence for giving me such a home,” said the widow; but she sighed, poor soul, as she said it: for, to tell the truth, though she was not so young as she once was, it takes some people a long time to find out that they themselves are growing old, and have done with life. And then outside, in that existence which she could hear but could not see, there was one figure which was wonderfully interesting to poor Mrs. Mortimer; which is a complication which has a remarkable effect on the question of content or discontent.
“You ought to take a walk every day,” said Miss Marjoribanks, “that is what is the matter with you; but, in the meantime, there is something else I want you to do. This is Thursday, you know, and I have always some people on Thursday. It is not a party—it is only an Evening—and no dress to speak of. Your black silk will look quite nice, and be all that is necessary. Black is very becoming to some people,” said Lucilla reflectively. She looked at Mrs. Mortimer with her head a little on one side, and saw in a moment, with the rapid glance of genius, just what she wanted. “And some lace for your head,” Miss Marjoribanks added. “I don’t think you have gone off at all, and I am sure you will look very nice. It is at nine o’clock.”
“This evening, Lucilla!” said Mrs. Mortimer, faintly: “but you know I never go out—I am not fit for society. Oh, don’t ask me, please! Since poor Edward died—’
“Yes,” said Lucilla, “it must have been a great loss, I am sure; though I can’t say I mind going into a room alone, as some people do; but you know you can avoid that, if you like, by coming early. Come at eight, and there will be nobody in the drawing-room, and you can choose your own corner. Put it quite back—at the back of your head,” said Miss Marjoribanks, with a little anxiety. “I could show you how if I had the lace. I do so want you to look nice. Oh, never mind the fashion. When one has a style of one’s own, it is always twenty times better. Put it as you used to wear it before you were married; and then, with that nice black silk—”
“Oh, Lucilla, don’t ask me,” said the widow. “I shall not know how to talk, nor look, nor anything; and then I know nobody; and then—”
“My dear, you have always me,” said Lucilla, with tender reproach. “I am so sorry I can’t stop any longer. I leave it quite to your own taste about the lace. And you will find people you know, you may be quite sure of that. Remember, not later than nine o’clock; and come at eight if you don’t like to come into the room by yourself. Goodbye now. I want you to look very nice tonight,” Miss Marjoribanks added, giving her friend an affectionate kiss; “you must, for my sake.”
“But, Lucilla—” cried Mrs. Mortimer.
It was vain to make any further protest, however, for Lucilla was gone, having, in the first place, communicated her requirements to Mary Jane, who was not likely to forget, nor to let her mistress be late. “And mind she is nice,” said Miss Marjoribanks emphatically, as she went out at the door. It was necessary she should be nice; without that the intended situation which Lucilla was preparing—the grand finale of her exertions—would fall flat, and probably fail of its effect. For this it was necessary that the widow should look not only pretty, but interesting, and a little pathetic, and all that a widow should look when first dragged back into society. Miss Marjoribanks gave a momentary sigh as she emerged from the garden door, and could not but feel conscious that in all this she might be preparing the most dread discomfiture and downfall for herself. Even if it passed over as it ought to do, and nobody was charmed but the Archdeacon, who was the right person to be charmed, Lucilla felt that after this she never could have that entire confidence in her father which she had had up to this moment. The incipient sentiment Dr. Marjoribanks had exhibited was one that struck at the roots of all faith in him as a father; and every person of sensibility will at once perceive how painful such a suggestion must have been to the mind of a young woman so entirely devoted as was Miss Marjoribanks to the consolation and comfort of her dear papa.
Lucilla was not allowed to spend the rest of this momentous afternoon in maturing her plans, as might have been necessary to a lesser intelligence; and when the refreshing moment came at which she could have her cup of tea before preparing for the fatigues of the evening, it was Mrs. Chiley who came to assist at that ceremony. The old lady came in with an important air, and gave Lucilla a long, lingering kiss, as old ladies sometimes do when they particularly mean it. “My dear, I am not going to stay a moment, but I thought you might have something to tell me,” the kind old woman said, arranging herself in her chair with the satisfaction of a listener who expects to be confided in. As for Lucilla, who had no clue to Mrs. Chiley’s special curiosity, and who had a good many things on her mind just at that moment which she rather preferred not to talk about, she was for once struck with veritable astonishment, and did not know what to say.
“Dear Mrs. Chiley, what should I have to tell you?” said Miss Marjoribanks. “You know very well where I should go the very first moment if anything happened;” and by way of staving
