Mr. Cavendish went up Grange Lane with his hands in his pockets, and tried to think that he did not care; but he did care all the same, and was very bitter in his mind over the failure of friends and the vanity of expectations. The last time he had walked past those garden walls he had thought himself sure of the support of Carlingford, and the personal esteem of all the people in all the houses he was passing. It was after the Archdeacon had broken down in his case against the man whom he called an adventurer, and when Mr. Cavendish felt all the sweetness of being a member of an oligarchy, and entitled to the sympathy and support of his order. Now he went along the same path with his hat over his ears and his hands in his pockets, and rage and pain in his heart. Whose fault was it that his friends had deserted him and Carlingford knew him no more? He might as well have asked whose fault it was that he was getting stout and red in the face, and had not the same grace of figure nor ease of mind as he used to have? He had come very near to settling down and becoming a man of domestic respectability in this quiet place, and he had just escaped in time, and had laughed over it since, and imagined himself, with much glee, an old fogy looking after a lot of children. But the fact is that men do become old fogies even when they have no children to look after, and lose their figure and their elasticity just as soon and perhaps a little sooner in the midst of what is called life than in any milder scene of enjoyment. And it would have been very handy just now to have been sure of his election without paying much for it. He had been living fast, and spending a great deal of money, and this, after all, was the only real ambition he had ever had; and he had thought within himself that if he won he would change his mode of life, and turn over a new leaf, and become all at once a different man. When a man has made such a resolution, and feels not only that a mere success but a moral reformation depends upon his victory, he may be permitted to consider that he has a right to win; and it may be divined what his state of mind was when he had made the discovery that even his old friends did not see his election to be of any such importance as he did, and could think of a miserable little bit of self-importance or gratified vanity more than of his interests—even the women who had once been so kind to him! He had just got so far in his thoughts when he met Mr. Centum, who stared for a moment, and then burst into one of his great laughs as he greeted him. “Good Lord! Cavendish, is this you? I never expected to see you like that!” the banker said, in his coarse way. “You’re stouter than I am, old fellow; and such an Adonis as you used to be!” Mr. Cavendish had to bear all this without giving way to his feelings, or even showing them any more than he could help it. Nobody would spare him that imbecile suggestion as to how things used to be. To be growing stouter than Centum without Centum’s excuse of being a well-to-do householder and father of a family, and respectable man from whom stoutness was expected, was very bitter to him: but he had to gulp it down, and recollect that Centum was as yet the only influential supporter, except his brother-in-law, whom he had in Carlingford.
“What have you been doing with yourself since you came that nobody has seen you?” said Mr. Centum. “If you are to do any good here, you know, we shall have to look alive.”
“I have been ill,” said the unfortunate candidate, with a little natural loss of temper. “You would not have a man to trudge about at this time of year in all weathers when he is ill.”
“I would not be ill again, if I were you, till it’s all over,” said Mr. Centum. “We shall have to fight every inch of our ground; and I tell you that fellow Ashburton knows what he’s about—he goes at everything in a steady sort of way. He’s not brilliant, you know, but he’s sure—”
“Brilliant!” said Mr. Cavendish, “I should think not. It is Lucilla Marjoribanks who is putting him up to it. You know she had an old grudge at me.”
“Oh, nonsense about Lucilla,” said Mr. Centum. “I can tell you Ashburton is not at all a contemptible adversary. He is going to work in the cunningest way—not a woman’s sort of thing, and he’s not a ladies’ man like you,” the banker added, with a laugh.
“But I am afraid you can’t go in for that sort of thing as you used to do, Cavendish. You should marry, and settle, and become a steady member of society, now you’ve grown so stout.” This was the kind of way in which he was addressed even by his own supporter, who uttered another great laugh as he went off upon his busy way. It was a sort of thing Mr. Cavendish
