“What in the world can you have been doing?” said Lucilla innocently; “you used always to tell me, you know, when you got into any difficulty, and I am sure if I can be of any use to you, Tom—But as for furniture and things, they matter a great deal, I assure you, to people’s happiness; and then, you know, it is the object of my life to be a comfort to dear papa.”
When she said this, Miss Marjoribanks settled herself again in the recess of the window, so that the Miss Browns could command a full view if they chose; for Lucilla’s courage was of the highest order, and nothing, except, perhaps, a strategical necessity of profound importance, would have moved her to retreat before an enemy. As for Tom, he was bewildered, to start with, by this solemn repetition of her great purpose.
“I know how good you are, Lucilla,” he said, with humility; “but then my uncle, you know—I don’t think he is a man to appreciate—Oh, Lucilla! why should you go and sacrifice to him the happiness of your life?”
“Tom,” said Miss Marjoribanks, with some solemnity, “I wish you would not talk to me of happiness. I have always been brought up to believe that duty was happiness; and everybody has known for a long time what was the object of my life. As for poor papa, it is the worse for him if he does not understand; but that does not make any difference to my duty,” said the devoted daughter. She gave a little sigh as she spoke, the sigh of a great soul, whose motives must always remain to some extent unappreciated; and the sight of her resignation and beautiful perseverance overwhelmed her unlucky suitor; for indeed, up to this moment, Lucilla still entertained the hope of preventing Tom from, as she herself described it, “saying the very words,” which, to be sure, are awkward words to hear and to say.
“Lucilla, when you are so good to my uncle, you ought to have a little pity on me,” said Tom, driven to the deepest despondency. “How do you think I can bear it, to see you getting everything done here, as if you meant to stay all your life—when you know I love you?” said the unfortunate young man; “when you know I have always been so fond of you, Lucilla, and always looked forward to the time—; and now it is very hard to see you care so little for me.”
“Tom,” said Miss Marjoribanks, with indignant surprise, “how can you say I care little for you? you know I was always very fond of you, on the contrary. I am sure I always stood your friend at home, whatever happened, and never said a word when you broke that pretty little pearl ring I was so fond of, and tore the scarf that my aunt gave me. I wonder, for my part, how you can be so unkind as so say so. We have always been the very best friends in the world,” said Lucilla, with an air of injury. “I always said at school I liked you the best of all my cousins; and I am very fond of all my cousins.” Miss Marjoribanks concluded, after a little pause, “It is so unkind to tell me that I don’t care for you.”
Poor Tom groaned within himself as he listened. He did not know what to answer to Lucilla’s aggrieved yet frank confession. Naturally it would have been much less displeasing to Tom to understand that she hated him, and never desired to see him any more. But Miss Marjoribanks was far from entertaining any such unchristian sentiments. She even began to forget her anxiety about what was going on upstairs in that delightful sense of power and abundant resources with which she was mastering the present difficulty. She reflected in herself that though it was excessively annoying to be thus occupied at such a moment, still it was nearly as important to make an end of Tom as to see that the pictures were hung rightly; for, to be sure, it was always easy to return to the latter subject. Accordingly, she drew her chair a little nearer to the window, and regarded Tom with a calm gaze of benevolent interest which was in perfect accordance with the sentiments she had just expressed; a look in which a gentle reproach was mingled. “I have always been like a sister to you,” said Lucilla; “how can you be so unkind as to say I don’t care?”
As for the unhappy Tom, he got up, as was natural, and took a little walk in front of the table, as a young man in trouble is apt to do. “You know very well that is not what I mean, Lucilla,” he said disconsolately. “It is you who are unkind. I don’t know why it is that ladies are so cruel; I am not such a snob as to persecute anybody. But what is the good of pretending not to know what I mean?”
“Tom, listen!” cried Miss Marjoribanks, rising in her turn; “I feel sure they must have finished. There is Mr. Holden going through the garden. And everybody knows that hanging pictures is just the thing of all others that requires a person of taste. If they have spoiled the room, it will be all your fault.”
“Oh, for Heaven’s sake never mind the room!” said Tom. “I never thought you would have trifled with a man, Lucilla. You know quite well what I mean; you know it isn’t a—a new thing,” said the lover, beginning to stammer and get confused. “You know that is what I have been thinking of all along, as soon as ever I had anything to live on. I love you, Lucilla; you know I love you! how can you trifle with me so?”
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