“Oh, Frank, go and speak to him, and tell him how miserable I am, and what a dreadful thing it would be; tell him everything, Frank. Oh, don’t leave him till you have persuaded him. Go, go; never mind me,” cried Mrs. Wentworth; and then she went to the door after him once more—“Don’t say I sent for you. He—he might not be pleased,” she said, in her faltering, eager voice; “and oh, Frank, consider how much hangs upon what you say.” When he left her, Louisa stood at the door watching him as he went along the passage towards her husband’s room. It was a forlorn-hope; but still the unreasoning, uncomprehending heart took a little comfort from it. She watched his figure disappearing along the narrow passage with a thrill of mingled anxiety and hope; arguing with Gerald, though it was so ineffectual when she tried it, might still be of some avail in stronger hands. His brother understood him, and could talk to him better than anybody else could; and though she had never convinced anybody of anything all her life, Mrs. Wentworth had an inalienable confidence in the effect of “being talked to.” In the momentary stimulus she went back to her darkened room and drew up the blind, and went to work in a tremulous way; but as the slow time went on, and Frank did not return, poor Louisa’s courage failed her; her fingers refused their office, and she began to imagine all sorts of things that might be going on in Gerald’s study. Perhaps the argument might be going the wrong way; perhaps Gerald might be angry at his brother’s interference; perhaps they might come to words—they who had been such good friends—and it would be her fault. She jumped up with her heart beating loud when she heard a door opened somewhere; but when nobody came, grew sick and faint, and hid her face, in the impatience of her misery. Then the feeling grew upon her that those precious moments were decisive, and that she must make one last appeal, or her heart would burst. She tried to resist the impulse in a feeble way, but it was not her custom to resist impulses, and it got the better of her; and this was why poor Louisa rushed into the library, just as Frank thought he had made a little advance in his pleading, and scattered his eloquence to the winds with a set of dreadful arguments which were all her own.
XVI
The Curate of St. Roque’s found his brother in his library, looking very much as he always looked at first glance. But Gerald was not reading nor writing nor doing anything. He was seated in his usual chair, by his usual table, with all the ordinary things around. Some manuscript—lying loosely about, and looking as if he had thrown down his pen in disgust, and pushed it away from him in the middle of a sentence—was on the table, and an open book in his other hand; but neither the book nor the manuscript occupied him; he was sitting leaning his head in his hands, gazing blankly out through the window, as it appeared, at the cedar, which flung its serene shadow over the lawn outside. He jumped up at the sound of his brother’s voice, but seemed to recall himself with a little difficulty even for that, and did not look much surprised to see him. In short, Frank read in Gerald’s eyes that he would not at that moment have been surprised to see anyone, and that, in his own consciousness, the emergency was great enough to justify any unlooked-for appearance, though it might be from heaven or from the grave.
“I am glad you have come,” he said, after they had greeted each other, his mouth relaxing ever so slightly into the ghost of his old smile; “you and I always understood each other, and it appears I want interpretation now. And one interpretation supposes many,” he said with a gleam, half of pathos half of amusement, lighting up his face for a moment; “there is no such thing as accepting a simple version even of one man’s thoughts. You have come at a very fit time, Frank—that is, for me.”
“I am glad you think so,” said the other brother; and then there was a pause, neither liking to enter upon the grand subject which stood between them.
“Have you seen Louisa?” said Gerald. He spoke like a man who was ill, in a preoccupied interrupted way. Like a sick man, he was occupied with himself, with the train of thought which was always going on in his mind whatever he might be doing, whether he was working or resting, alone or in company. For months back he had carried it with him everywhere. The cedar-tree outside, upon which his thoughtful eyes fell as he looked straight before him out of the library window, was all garlanded with the reasonings and questionings of this painful spring. To Frank’s eyes, Gerald’s attention was fixed upon the fluttering of a certain twig at the extremity of one of those broad solemn immovable branches. Gerald, however, saw not the twig, but one of his hardest difficulties which was twined and twined in the most inextricable way round that little sombre cluster of spikes; and so kept looking out, not at the cedar, but at the whole confused yet distinct array of his own troubled thoughts.
“If you have seen Louisa, she has been talking to you, no doubt,” he said, after another little pause, with again the glimmer of a smile. “We
