True;
The worm of the world hath eaten out my heart.
I will renew it in thee. It shall be
The bosom favourite of every beauty,
Even like a rosebud. Thou shalt render happy,
By naming who may love thee. Come with me.
I have a love on earth, and one in Heaven.
Thou shalt love ten as others love but one!
Oh! I was glad when something in me said
Come, let us worship beauty! and I bowed;
And went about to find a shrine; but found
None that my soul, when seeing, said enough, to.
Many I met with where I put up prayers,
And had them more than answered; and at such
I worshipped, partly because others did;
Partly because I could not help myself.
But none of these were for me; and away
I went champing and choking in proud pain;
In a burning wrath that not a sea could slake.
So I betook me to the sounding sea;
And overheard its slumberous mutterings
Of a revenge on man; whereat almost
I gladdened, for I felt savage as the sea.
I had only one thing to behold, the sea;
I had only one thing to believe, I loved;
Until that lonesome sameness grew sublime
And darkly beautiful as death, when some
Bright soul regains its star-home, or as Heaven
Just when the stars falter forth, one by one,
Like the first words of love from a maiden’s lips.
There are points from which we can command our life;
When the soul sweeps the future like a glass;
And coming things, full freighted with our fate,
Jut out, dark, on the offing of the mind.
Let them come! Many will go down in sight;
In the billow’s joyous dash of death go down.
At last came love; not whence I sought nor thought it;
As on a ruined and bewildered wight
Rises the roof he meant to have lost for ever.
On came the living vessel of all love;
Terrible in its beauty as a serpent,
Rode down upon me like a ship full sail
And bearing me before it, kept me up
Spite of the drowning speed at which we drave
On, on, until we sank both. Was not this love?
Why, how can I tell? I am not in love;
But I have oft times heard mine angels call
Most piteously on their lost loves in Heaven;
And, as I suffer, I have seen them come;
Seen starlike faces peep between the clouds,
And Hell become a tolerable torment.
Some souls lose all things but the love of beauty;
And by that love they are redeemable;
For in love and beauty they acknowledge good;
And good is God—the great Necessity.
I have not told thee half I will do for thee.
All secrets thou shalt ken—all mysteries construe;
At nothing marvel. All the veins which stretch,
Unsearchable by human eyes, of lore
Most precious, most profound, to thine shall bare
And vulgar lie like dust. The world within,
The world above thee, and the dark domain,
Mine own thou shalt o’er rule; and he alone
Who rightly can esteem such high delights,
He only merits—he alone shall have.
And if I have shall I be happier?
What is pleasure? What, happiness?
It is that
I vouchsafe to thee.
Am I tempted thus
Unto my fall?
God wills or lets it be.
How thinkest thou?
That I will go with thee.
From God I come.
I do believe thee, spirit.
He will not let thee harm me. Him I love,
And thee I fear not. I Obey Him.
Good.
Both time and case are urgent. Come away!
Give me a breathing-time to fortify,
Within myself, the promise I have made.
Expect me, then, at midnight, here. Remember,
That thou canst any time repent.
Ay, true. Goes.
Repentance never yet did aught on earth;
It undoes many good things. Of all men,
Heaven shield me from the wretch who can repent!
III
Scene—Water and wood—Midnight;
Festus, alone. | |
Festus |
All things are calm, and fair, and passive. Earth |
Lucifer |
Why doubt on mind? What matter how we call |
Festus |
There seems a sameness among things; for mind |
Lucifer |
There is less real difference among things |
Festus |
That is the madness of the world—and that |
Lucifer |
It is imbecility, |
Festus |
Oh! the brave and good who serve |