“That’s the pleasure of seeing you. She’s very happy. Elle éclaire la maison,” said the good sister.
Pansy wore, as Madame Merle had said, a little black dress; it was perhaps this that made her look pale. “They’re very good to me—they think of everything!” she exclaimed with all her customary eagerness to accommodate.
“We think of you always—you’re a precious charge,” Madame Catherine remarked in the tone of a woman with whom benevolence was a habit and whose conception of duty was the acceptance of every care. It fell with a leaden weight on Isabel’s ears; it seemed to represent the surrender of a personality, the authority of the Church.
When Madame Catherine had left them together Pansy kneeled down and hid her head in her stepmother’s lap. So she remained some moments, while Isabel gently stroked her hair. Then she got up, averting her face and looking about the room. “Don’t you think I’ve arranged it well? I’ve everything I have at home.”
“It’s very pretty; you’re very comfortable.” Isabel scarcely knew what she could say to her. On the one hand she couldn’t let her think she had come to pity her, and on the other it would be a dull mockery to pretend to rejoice with her. So she simply added after a moment: “I’ve come to bid you goodbye. I’m going to England.”
Pansy’s white little face turned red. “To England! Not to come back?”
“I don’t know when I shall come back.”
“Ah, I’m sorry,” Pansy breathed with faintness. She spoke as if she had no right to criticise; but her tone expressed a depth of disappointment.
“My cousin, Mr. Touchett, is very ill; he’ll probably die. I wish to see him,” Isabel said.
“Ah yes; you told me he would die. Of course you must go. And will papa go?”
“No; I shall go alone.”
For a moment the girl said nothing. Isabel had often wondered what she thought of the apparent relations of her father with his wife; but never by a glance, by an intimation, had she let it be seen that she deemed them deficient in an air of intimacy. She made her reflections, Isabel was sure; and she must have had a conviction that there were husbands and wives who were more intimate than that. But Pansy was not indiscreet even in thought; she would as little have ventured to judge her gentle stepmother as to criticise her magnificent father. Her heart may have stood almost as still as it would have done had she seen two of the saints in the great picture in the convent chapel turn their painted heads and shake them at each other. But as in this latter case she would (for very solemnity’s sake) never have mentioned the awful phenomenon, so she put away all knowledge of the secrets of larger lives than her own. “You’ll be very far away,” she presently went on.
“Yes; I shall be far away. But it will scarcely matter,” Isabel explained; “since so long as you’re here I can’t be called near you.”
“Yes, but you can come and see me; though you’ve not come very often.”
“I’ve not come because your father forbade it. Today I bring nothing with me. I can’t amuse you.”
“I’m not to be amused. That’s not what papa wishes.”
“Then it hardly matters whether I’m in Rome or in England.”
“You’re not happy, Mrs. Osmond,” said Pansy.
“Not very. But it doesn’t matter.”
“That’s what I say to myself. What does it matter? But I should like to come out.”
“I wish indeed you might.”
“Don’t leave me here,” Pansy went on gently.
Isabel said nothing for a minute; her heart beat fast. “Will you come away with me now?” she asked.
Pansy looked at her pleadingly. “Did papa tell you to bring me?”
“No; it’s my own proposal.”
“I think I had better wait then. Did papa send me no message?”
“I don’t think he knew I was coming.”
“He thinks I’ve not had enough,” said Pansy. “But I have. The ladies are very kind to me and the little girls come to see me. There are some very little ones—such charming children. Then my room—you can see for yourself. All that’s very delightful. But I’ve had enough. Papa wished me to think a little—and I’ve thought a great deal.”
“What have you thought?”
“Well, that I must never displease papa.”
“You knew that before.”
“Yes; but I know it better. I’ll do anything—I’ll do anything,” said Pansy. Then, as she heard her own words, a deep, pure blush came into her face. Isabel read the meaning of it; she saw the poor girl had been vanquished. It was well that Mr. Edward Rosier had kept his enamels! Isabel looked into her eyes and saw there mainly a prayer to be treated easily. She laid her hand on Pansy’s as if to let her know that her look conveyed no diminution of esteem; for the collapse of the girl’s momentary resistance (mute and modest thought it had been) seemed only her tribute to the truth of things. She didn’t presume to judge others, but she had judged herself; she had seen the reality. She had no vocation for struggling with combinations; in the solemnity of sequestration there was something that overwhelmed her. She bowed her pretty head to authority and only asked of authority to be merciful. Yes; it was very well that Edward Rosier had reserved a few articles!
Isabel got up; her time was rapidly shortening. “Goodbye then. I leave Rome tonight.”
Pansy took hold of her dress; there was a sudden change in the child’s face. “You look strange, you frighten me.”
“Oh, I’m very harmless,” said Isabel.
“Perhaps you won’t come back?”
“Perhaps not. I can’t tell.”
“Ah, Mrs. Osmond, you won’t leave me!”
Isabel now saw she had guessed everything. “My dear child, what can I do for you?” she asked.
“I don’t know—but I’m happier when I think of you.”
“You can always think of me.”
“Not when you’re so far. I’m a little afraid,” said Pansy.
“What are you afraid of?”
“Of papa—a little. And of Madame Merle. She has just been to see
