In the Moonlight
The Abbé Marignan well deserved to be named after that famous battle. He was a tall, thin, fanatical priest, always in a state of exaltation, but never unjust. All his beliefs were fixed, and they never wavered. He sincerely believed that he understood God, that he penetrated His designs, His wishes, His intentions.
As he walked up and down the garden path of his little country presbytery a question sometimes arose in his mind: “Why did God do that?” Then, imagining himself in God’s place, he searched obstinately, and he nearly always found the reason. He was not the man to murmur in transports of pious humility, “O Lord, thy designs are inscrutable!” What he said was: “I am the servant of God; I ought to know the reason for what he does, or to divine it if I do not.”
Everything in nature seemed to him created with an absolute and admirable logic. The “why” and the “wherefore” always balanced. The dawns were made to rejoice you on waking, the days to ripen the harvests, the rains to water them, the evenings to prepare for sleeping, and the nights dark for sleep.
The four seasons answered perfectly all the requirements of agriculture; and to him the suspicion could never have come that nature has no intention, and that everything that lives has accustomed itself, on the contrary, to the harsh necessities of different periods, of climates, and of matter.
But he hated women; he hated them unconsciously, and despised them by instinct. He often repeated the words of Christ, “Woman, what have I to do with thee?” and he would add, “One would almost say that God himself was ill-pleased with that particular work of his hands.” Woman for him was indeed the “child twelve times impure” of whom the poet speaks. She was the temptress who had ensnared the first man, and who still continued her damnable work; she was the being who is feeble, dangerous, mysteriously disturbing. And even more than her fatal body, he hated her loving soul.
He had often felt women’s tenderness dwell in him, and though he knew himself to be unassailable, he grew exasperated at this need of loving which quivers continually in their hearts.
To his mind, God had only created woman to tempt man and to test him. Man should not approach her without defensive precautions, and such fears as one has of an ambush. Woman, indeed, was just like a trap, with her arms extended and her lips open toward a man.
He had toleration only for nuns, rendered harmless by their vows, but he treated them harshly notwithstanding, because, ever at the bottom of their locked hearts, their chastened hearts, he perceived the eternal tenderness that constantly went out even to him, although he was a priest. He felt that tenderness in their eyes more filled with the ecstasies of piety than those of the monks, in their ecstasies touched with sex, in their loving yearning for Christ, which made him indignant, because it was woman’s love, carnal love. He felt that accursed tenderness even in their submissiveness, in the softness of their voices as they spoke to him, in their downcast eyes, and in their tears of resignation when he harshly reproved them. And he would shake the skirts of his cassock on coming out of a convent, and would stride off rapidly, as if in flight from danger.
He had a niece who lived with her mother in a little house near by. He was bent on making
