were, the people she pictured. It used not to be so; she had often had her solitary dreams. But now that she was hardly ever alone she was so often lonely. Lonely! It was a word she did not admit in her vocabulary⁠—but the sensation was there, cold and a little sickening, gnawing at the roots of her life.⁠ ⁠… What nonsense! Why, she was actually robbing poor Lewis of the proud prerogative of isolation! As if a girl with her resources and her spirits hadn’t always more than enough to pack the hours with! She leaned in the wide window of the library and looked over the outspread city, and thought how when she had first stood there all its myriad pulses seemed to be beating in her blood.⁠ ⁠… “Am I tired? What’s wrong lately?” she wondered.⁠ ⁠… Should she call up the garage where her Chrysler was kept and dash out for the night to Paul’s Landing, where her family had lingered on over Thanksgiving? It would be rather jolly, arriving at Eaglewood long after dark, in the sharp November air, seeing the glitter of lights come out far ahead along the Hudson, and entering, muffled in furs, the shabby drawing room where Mr. and Mrs. Spear would be sitting over the fire, placidly denouncing outrages in distant lands.⁠ ⁠… No, not that⁠ ⁠… It was sweet to sit in New York dreaming of Eaglewood; but to return there now was always a pang.⁠ ⁠…

She began to muse on the woods in late summer, her woods, when their foliage was heaviest, already yellowing a little here and there, with premature splashes of scarlet and wine colour on a still-green maple, like the first white lock in a young woman’s hair⁠ ⁠… Of days on Thundertop, sunrise dips in the forest pool, long hours of dreaming on the rocky summit above the Hudson⁠—how beautiful it had been that morning when she had stood there with young Weston, and they had watched light return to the world with a rending of vapours, a streaming of radiances, like the first breaking of life out of chaos! “He felt it too⁠—I could see it happening all over again in his eyes,” she thought; those eyes had seen it with hers. Perhaps that was why, when he recited his poetry to her, in spite of his shyness and his dreadful drawl, she had fancied she heard the authentic note.⁠ ⁠… Had she been mistaken? She didn’t know. But surely not about the story Lewis had brought home the other day. She was sure that was the real thing; and she was glad Lewis had felt it too, felt it at once⁠—she was always glad when they saw things together. Perhaps the boy was going to be a great discovery; a triumph for Lewis, a triumph for The Hour! She remembered that as she leaned back against the mossy edge of the pool the pointed leaf shadows flickered across his forehead and seemed to crown it like a poet’s.⁠ ⁠… Poor little raw product of a standardized world, perhaps never to be thus laurelled again!⁠ ⁠…

She turned and wandered back to the fire, gazing, as she went, at the books her own hands had arranged and catalogued with such eager care. “What I want today is the book that’s never been written,” she thought; and then: “No, my child, what you really want is an object in life.⁠ ⁠…” She was grimly amused to find that she was talking to herself as so often, mentally, she talked to her husband.⁠ ⁠…

Oh, well⁠—it was nearly dusk already; one more day to tick off the calendar; and at five there was a concert at the Vanguard Club⁠—something new and exotic, of course; she’d mislaid the programme.⁠ ⁠… She went to her room and pulled out her smart black coat with the gray fur, and the close black turban that made her face look long and narrow and interesting. There were sure to be amusing people at the concert.⁠ ⁠…


The concert was dull; the amusing people were as boring as only the amusing can be; Halo came home late and out of sorts to find a long-distance from her husband saying he was going to Boston that night, and she was to notify the office that he would not reappear till Monday.⁠ ⁠…

Next morning she rang up the office and gave her message; then, after a pause, she added: “By the way, did Mr. Weston turn up yesterday⁠—Vance Weston, the storywriter, you know?” Yes; they knew; they were expecting him. But he had not appeared, and there had been no message from him. No; they hadn’t his address.⁠ ⁠… She thought: “After all I was a fool not to go out to Eaglewood last night.” Another radiant day⁠—the last before winter, perhaps! Why shouldn’t she dash out now, just for a few hours? A tramp in the woods would do her more good than anything.⁠ ⁠… But she lacked the energy to get into country clothes and call for the Chrysler.⁠ ⁠… “Besides, very likely that boy will turn up.⁠ ⁠…” Not that she meant to see him; but she could at least report to Lewis if he called at the office, and give whatever message he left.⁠ ⁠… It was rather petty of Lewis, she thought, not to have told her to see young Weston.⁠ ⁠…

Before twelve she rang up the office again. No; no sign of Weston; no message. How very queer.⁠ ⁠… Yes, it was queer.⁠ ⁠… Well, look here⁠—that’s you, Mr. Rauch? Yes. Well, if he should turn up today after the office was closed⁠—supposing he’d forgotten it was a Saturday⁠—would Mr. Rauch leave word with the janitor to tell him to come to see her? Yes, at the flat; she’d be in all the afternoon. He was just to be told to ask for Mrs. Tarrant. (In the end, Lewis would probably be grateful⁠—though he’d never go as far as acknowledging it.)

“I think I’ll try and do some painting,” she said to herself as she hung up. Lewis had fitted up a rather

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