“You mean, then, to say that you disapprove of it?” said Mary, almost sternly.
“I cannot say that I think it wise.”
“I am not speaking of wisdom. Of course, Mr. Gilmore is very much richer, and all that.”
“You know, Mary, that I would not counsel you to marry a man because he was rich.”
“That is what you mean when you tell me I am not wise. I tried it—with all the power of thought and calculation that I could give to it, and I found that I could not marry Mr. Gilmore.”
“I am not speaking about that now.”
“You mean that Walter is so poor, that he never should be allowed to marry.”
“I don’t care twopence about Walter.”
“But I do, Aunt Sarah. I care more about him than all the world beside. I had to think for him.”
“You did not take much time to think.”
“Hardly a minute—and yet it was sufficient.” Then she paused, waiting for her aunt; but it seemed that her aunt had nothing further to say. “Well,” continued Mary, “if it must be so, it must. If you cannot wish me joy—”
“Dearest, you know well enough that I wish you all happiness.”
“This is my happiness.” It seemed to the bewildered old lady that the whole nature of the girl was altered. Mary was speaking now as might have spoken some enthusiastic young female who had at last succeeded in obtaining for herself the possession—more or less permanent—of a young man, after having fed her imagination on novels for the last five years; whereas Mary Lowther had hitherto, in all moods of her life, been completely opposite to such feminine ways and doings. “Very well,” continued Mary; “we will say nothing more about it at present. I am greatly grieved that I have incurred your displeasure; but I cannot wish it otherwise.”
“I have said nothing of displeasure.”
“Walter is to be up after lunch, and I will only ask that he may not be received with black looks. If it must be visited as a sin, let it be visited on me.”
“Mary, that is unkind and ungenerous.”
“If you knew, Aunt Sarah, how I have longed during the night for your kind voice—for your sympathy and approval!”
Aunt Sarah paused again for a moment, and then went down to her domestic duties without another word.
In the afternoon Walter came, but Aunt Sarah did not see him. When Mary went to her the old lady declared that, for the present, it would be better so. “I do not know what to say to him at present. I must think of it, and speak to his uncle, and try to find out what had best be done.”
She was sitting as she said this up in her own room, without even a book in her hand; in very truth, passing an hour in an endeavour to decide what, in the present emergency, she ought to say or do. Mary stooped over her and kissed her, and the aunt returned her niece’s caresses.
“Do not let you and me quarrel, at any rate,” said Miss Marrable. “Who else is there that I care for? Whose happiness is anything to me except yours?”
“Then come to him, and tell him that he also shall be dear to you.”
“No; at any rate, not now. Of course you can marry, Mary, without any sanction from me. I do not pretend that you owe to me that obedience which would be due to a mother. But I cannot say—at least, not yet—that such sanction as I have to give can be given to this engagement. I have a dread that it will come to no good. It grieves me. I do not forbid you to receive him; but for the present it would be better that I should not see him.”
“What is her objection?” demanded Walter, with grave indignation.
“She thinks we shall be poor.”
“Shall we ask her for anything? Of course we shall be poor. For the present there will be but £300 a year, or thereabouts, beyond my professional income. A few years back, if so much had been secured, friends would have thought that everything necessary had been done. If you are afraid, Mary—”
“You know I am not afraid.”
“What is it to her, then? Of course we shall be poor—very poor. But we can live.”
There did come upon Mary Lowther a feeling that Walter spoke of the necessity of a comfortable income in a manner very different from that in which he had of late been discussing the same subject ever since she had known him. He had declared that it was impossible that he should exist in