“Poor Letty!” she said very softly. “Suppose after all, he is dead?”
Letty met her with a pitiless stare.
“He is a prisoner,” she said. “Isn’t that enough? Why do you jab at me by saying that? A wounded prisoner. Isn’t that enough despicable trickery for God even to play on Teddy—our Teddy? To the very last moment he shall not be dead. Until the war is over. Until six months after the war. …
“I will tell you why, Cissie. …”
She leant across the table and pointed her remarks with her knitting needles, speaking in a tone of reasonable remonstrance. “You see,” she said, “if people like Teddy are to be killed, then all our ideas that life is meant for, honesty and sweetness and happiness, are wrong, and this world is just a place of devils; just a dirty cruel hell. Getting born would be getting damned. And so one must not give way to that idea, however much it may seem likely that he is dead. …
“You see, if he is dead, then Cruelty is the Law, and someone must pay me for his death. … Someone must pay me. … I shall wait for six months after the war, dear, and then I shall go off to Germany and learn my way about there. And I will murder some German. Not just a common German, but a German who belongs to the guilty kind. A sacrifice. It ought, for instance, to be comparatively easy to kill some of the children of the Crown Prince or some of the Bavarian princes. I shall prefer German children. I shall sacrifice them to Teddy. It ought not to be difficult to find people who can be made directly responsible, the people who invented the poison gas, for instance, and kill them, or to kill people who are dear to them. Or necessary to them. … Women can do that so much more easily than men. …
“That perhaps is the only way in which wars of this kind will ever be brought to an end. By women insisting on killing the kind of people who make them. Rooting them out. By a campaign of pursuit and assassination that will go on for years and years after the war itself is over. … Murder is such a little gentle punishment for the crime of war. … It would be hardly more than a reproach for what has happened. Falling like snow. Death after death. Flake by flake. This prince. That statesman. The count who writes so fiercely for war. … That is what I am going to do. If Teddy is really dead. … We women were ready enough a year or so ago to starve and die for the Vote, and that was quite a little thing in comparison with this business. … Don’t you see what I mean? It’s so plain and sensible, Cissie. Whenever a man sits and thinks whether he will make a war or not, then he will think too of women, women with daggers, bombs; of a vengeance that will never tire nor rest; of consecrated patient women ready to start out upon a pilgrimage that will only end with his death. … I wouldn’t hurt these war makers. No. In spite of the poison gas. In spite of trench feet and the men who have been made blind and the wounded who have lain for days, dying slowly in the wet. Women ought not to hurt. But I would kill. Like killing dangerous vermin. It would go on year by year. Balkan kings, German princes, chancellors, they would have schemed for so much—and come to just a rattle in the throat. … And if presently other kings and emperors began to prance about and review armies, they too would go. …
“Until all the world understood that women would not stand war any more forever. …
“Of course I shall do something of the sort. What else is there to do now for me?”
Letty’s eyes were bright and intense, but her voice was soft and subdued. She went on after a pause in the same casual voice. “You see now, Cissie, why I cling to the idea that Teddy is alive. If Teddy is alive, then even if he is wounded, he will get some happiness out of it—and all this won’t be—just rot. If he is dead then everything is so desperately silly and cruel from top to bottom—”
She smiled wanly to finish her sentence.
“But, Letty!” said Cissie, “there is the boy!”
“I shall leave the boy to you. Compared with Teddy I don’t care that for the boy. I never did. What is the good of pretending? Some women are made like that.”
She surveyed her knitting. “Poor stitches,” she said. …
“I’m hard stuff, Cissie. I take after mother more than father. Teddy is my darling. All the tenderness of my life is Teddy. If it goes, it goes. … I won’t crawl about the world like all these other snivelling widows. If they’ve killed my man I shall kill. Blood for blood and loss for loss. I shall get just as close to the particular Germans who made this war as I can, and I shall kill them and theirs. …
“The Women’s Association for the Extirpation of the whole breed of warlords,” she threw out. “If I do happen to hurt—does it matter?”
She looked at her sister’s shocked face and smiled again.
“You think I go about staring at nothing,” she remarked. … “Not a bit of it! I have been planning all sorts of things. … I have been thinking how I could get to Germany. … Or one might catch them in Switzerland. … I’ve had all sorts of plans. They can’t go guarded forever. …
“Oh, it makes me despise humanity to see how many soldiers and how few assassins there
