So carefully, that even now in the confidential talks which to Aunt Sidonie’s horror extended so far into the night, when after tea with the family, or on coming home from a party, they retired to their rooms, no word passed her discreet lips, and Meta began to doubt her own acuteness. All the more as the engagement which distressed Elsa so much, really did look much more serious when looked at closely than it had seemed to Meta from the brief, written accounts. Meta had now made acquaintance personally with Ottomar and Carla; Ottomar, although Elsa said he was only a shadow of his old self, had fascinated her, and Carla was the only lady of their whole acquaintance whom she thoroughly disliked. She too began to think that the union of such a dissimilar couple could not possibly bring happiness, that Ottomar indeed was already unhappy. Added to this was the uncomfortable state of affairs which according to Elsa had certainly existed even before the betrothal, between the father and son, but which now, when everything was apparently put straight, had grown much worse, and for which Elsa could discover no reason excepting Ottomar’s still doubtful, perhaps desperate, financial condition.
Meta had been taken also to see the Baroness Valerie, had learned to sympathise with Elsa in her feeling for the interesting, and evidently most unhappy woman, and here too stood with Elsa on the threshold of a dark and terrible mystery. What were the relations between this woman and the man whom she must have passionately loved, when she sacrificed to him what is most dear to a woman; whom she must love still, as she still made such sacrifices to him, sacrifices which yet seemed to be so difficult to her! Had she not again and again said to Elsa that she could no longer live without Elsa’s love, or without her brother’s forgiveness? And yet in Giraldi’s presence she did not venture to show the smallest sign of love to Elsa, she did not venture to fulfil the condition imposed by the General, if there was to be any questions between him and her of a real reconciliation, of anything more than a mere superficial renewal of social intercourse—did not venture to separate from Giraldi, but seemed rather to stand now as ever under the absolute dominion of that hateful man!
“It is a dreadful state of things of course,” said Meta; “but I do not see why you are to wear out your bright young life over it. Dear me! there is something of the kind, after all, in every family. I do not like my sister-in-law at all; my brother is a true Strummin, always jolly and lighthearted, and she is a real wet blanket, who drives the poor man wild with her dry matter-of-factness and perpetual considerations. And as for one’s uncles and aunts—there I really may speak. Uncle Malte—at Grausewitz, you know, ten miles from us—we only see once in three years, and then he and papa quarrel dreadfully; Uncle Hans—he was a soldier, went into the Austrian service later, and afterwards into the Brazilian—we have not heard of him these six years; Aunt Gusting—who married a Baron Carlström in Sweden—has grown so fine that she only stayed half a day with us when she came to Strummin last autumn; she wrote afterwards that the combined smell of tobacco-smoke and plum-jam had been too disagreeable to her, and I could tell you a thousand other heartbreaking stories of our family. My papa always says: ‘If a man is to be responsible for all his relations, there is an end of all pleasure.’ ”
So spoke Meta to comfort her friend, as she plaited her long red-gold hair, of which she was rather vain now since Signor Giraldi had said, at a large party at Aunt Valerie’s, that it was of the true Titian colour; or sat prattling coaxingly by the side of Elsa’s bed as she had done on the first evening at Golmberg.
Meta often recurred to that evening. “It had been the birthday of their friendship,” said Meta; and the sight of Count Golm, whom they met at every party, and who had even lately once or twice joined their family circle at teatime, kept the dear remembrance always fresh.
But though Meta seemed inclined to be always indulging in recollections, she had no idea of doing so in reality, and her supposition that Elsa did not care a bit about the Count had been confirmed every time she saw the two together; but when she spoke of all that had happened at Golmberg, of the evening meal and the morning walk, it was quite natural, quite unavoidable that amongst others a name should be mentioned which Elsa never voluntarily allowed to pass her lips, and which Meta was convinced sounded day and night in Elsa’s heart.
Just because it never passed her lips. “There must be a reason for that,” said Meta to herself; “and also for his never appearing here where he has been invited and, as I hear from Aunt Sidonie, was so kindly and even warmly received; and the reason must be one and the same, and can only be a sorrowful one, and that must be why Elsa is so sad.”
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