“If we cannot get hold of Mr. Hollander,” he said, “would you consider it advisable for the post to be taken by yourself?”
He repented instantly at the sight of her deadly whiteness. It seemed impossible that blood could drain so swiftly from the skin. His own face blazed like fire from the slap of her hand across his cheek. He noticed, as he sat very still, the strange terror that hid beneath her bitter, staring eyes: it wasn’t any terror of the law, the cheek of which she had symbolically in his person just so vigorously slapped; it wasn’t any terror of what he or the machine he represented could do to her—what anyone or anything could do to her. … It was baffling; baffling as the undiscoverable source of any intense emotional reaction is baffling—something that drew its sustenance from roots imbedded not in the immediate present but in the past. …
“You will permit me to offer my apologies?” he said.
She returned vividly to the moment, and her colour swept back in a succession of bright waves.
“I am not usually so unmannerly,” she said.
“Nor usually subjected to insult. The fault was mine.”
Her laugh was quite harsh. “On the contrary, Lieutenant, I am accustomed to insult.”
“Then why do you stay with Mrs. Endicott?” he said softly.
“Because there are some people, Lieutenant, who can only find their happiness in hell.”
“Martyrs.”
“Not martyrs, precisely.”
“Just what, then, precisely?”
“It’s a sharing, if you wish—sort of a sharing of torture.”
Vague—vague. Lieutenant Valcour felt quite convinced that he would shortly begin to gibber, if the mysteries of hearts, of minds that he had dipped into during the past few hours, did not soon coalesce within the mould of reason. He began to envy his sterner compatriots on the force who confined their processes to the comfortable fields of hard, cold facts—the “did you at five-forty-five this afternoon place the silver teaspoon on the pantry shelf, or did you not?” sort of facts. He conceded that their wholesome, plein-air tactics were quite right, and that his own, in spite of their usually successful results, were hopelessly wrong. They at least were never called liars, or slapped in the face, or found themselves helplessly swirling in a sea of metaphysics with a splendid chance of being thoroughly drowned. He forced himself to concentrate. What was it that slash of pale lips had been saying? A sharing of something … Of course, of torture.
“You mean,” he said, “a sharing that is now going on?”
“Perhaps—but especially in the past. Do you believe, Lieutenant, that the dead remain in emotional touch with the living?”
“And that, my poor fish,” he told himself severely, “is what your interminable probing into people’s souls has got you into.”
“I have never thought about it. But I should like to believe that it is true. I should like to believe in anything that offers corroborative proof of immortality.”
“You are convinced of the finality of death?”
“It is a dread, not a conviction.”
Roberts nodded her head swiftly. “And with me—with me—if I could only know.”
“So that you would be quite certain that your sacrifice is not being made in vain.” Lieutenant Valcour spoke very softly. He was approaching, he felt, no matter how grandiloquently, that goal toward which he had been aiming: the answer to the amazing look she had given him in Mrs. Endicott’s room.
The mood broke. She stood up abruptly.
“You wished that address book?” she said.
It was of no great matter. Moods, at least, did not die. They were always there—somewhere—waiting to be recaptured.
“If you will be so kind,” he said.
She went to the door of Mrs. Endicott’s room, opened it, was swallowed up. Lieutenant Valcour waited outside. The case was becoming mired in evasions. That was the trouble with cases whose milieu rose beyond a certain social and mental level. They invariably grew kaleidoscopic with overtones. Crime in the lower strata was noteworthy for its crudenesses rather than its subtleties: an intrigue among animals, with the general patentness of some jackal filching its prey. But breeding and intellect generally presupposed masks: the inbred defensiveness of manner and social combativeness with the world which offered barriers most difficult to pierce. Roberts opened the door and handed him the small leather reference book Mrs. Endicott had used when verifying the telephone number of Dr. Worth.
“Thomas Hollander,” she said. “The names are listed alphabetically.”
The door closed even in that short second which preceded his thanks. It was a gesture of retreat from hinted intimacies. It wasn’t so much the door of the room she had closed as it was the door guarding her secrets. He felt that she wanted to show him she had already repented of having gone so far—not that she had gone any distance, really, but there were beacons, faint pin points of light toward which he would chart a course over the surface of her troubled seas.
He took the reference book and sat down. He began with A and started to go systematically through it. At H he fixed in his memory the street and telephone number of Hollander’s house. He continued without interest to turn the pages.
At the end of the M’s he came, to his marked bewilderment, upon the address and telephone number of Marge Myles.
X
12:06 a.m.—The Stillness of a Grave
Lieutenant Valcour went to the head of the stairs.
“O’Brian!” he called down.
O’Brian looked up at him from below.
“Yes, Lieutenant?”
“Send Hansen up here, please.”
“Yes, sir.”
A painting on the wall held Lieutenant Valcour’s attention while he waited. A Gauguin, he thought, and, going closer, confirmed it. His eye drifted over the entire corridor. Everywhere were the details of great wealth, and the young owner
