There was a moment of silence. “What does it matter? We are no children now.” There was an infinite gentleness in Lingard’s deep tones. “But if you have been unhappy then don’t tell me that it has not been made up to you since. Surely you have only to make a sign. A woman like you.”
“You think I could frighten the whole world on to its knees?”
“No, not frighten.” The suggestion of a laugh in the deadened voice passed off in a catch of the breath. Then he was heard beginning soberly: “Your husband. …” He hesitated a little and she took the opportunity to say coldly:
“His name is Mr. Travers.”
Lingard didn’t know how to take it. He imagined himself to have been guilty of some sort of presumption. But how on earth was he to call the man? After all he was her husband. That idea was disagreeable to him because the man was also inimical in a particularly unreasonable and galling manner. At the same time he was aware that he didn’t care a bit for his enmity and had an idea that he would not have cared for his friendship either. And suddenly he felt very much annoyed.
“Yes. That’s the man I mean,” he said in a contemptuous tone. “I don’t particularly like the name and I am sure I don’t want to talk about him more than I can help. If he hadn’t been your husband I wouldn’t have put up with his manners for an hour. Do you know what would have happened to him if he hadn’t been your husband?”
“No,” said Mrs. Travers. “Do you, Captain Lingard?”
“Not exactly,” he admitted. “Something he wouldn’t have liked, you may be sure.”
“While of course he likes this very much,” she observed. Lingard gave an abrupt laugh.
“I don’t think it’s in my power to do anything that he would like,” he said in a serious tone. “Forgive me my frankness, Mrs. Travers, but he makes it very difficult sometimes for me to keep civil. Whatever I have had to put up with in life I have never had to put up with contempt.”
“I quite believe that,” said Mrs. Travers. “Don’t your friends call you King Tom?”
“Nobody that I care for. I have no friends. Oh, yes, they call me that …”
“You have no friends?”
“Not I,” he said with decision. “A man like me has no chums.”
“It’s quite possible,” murmured Mrs. Travers to herself.
“No, not even Jörgenson. Old crazy Jörgenson. He calls me King Tom, too. You see what that’s worth.”
“Yes, I see. Or rather I have heard. That poor man has no tone, and so much depends on that. Now suppose I were to call you King Tom now and then between ourselves,” Mrs. Travers’ voice proposed, distantly tentative in the night that invested her person with a colourless vagueness of form.
She waited in the stillness, her elbows on the rail and her face in her hands as if she had already forgotten what she had said. She heard at her elbow the deep murmur of:
“Let’s hear you say it.”
She never moved the least bit. The sombre lagoon sparkled faintly with the reflection of the stars.
“Oh, yes, I will let you hear it,” she said into the starlit space in a voice of unaccented gentleness which changed subtly as she went on. “I hope you will never regret that you came out of your friendless mystery to speak to me, King Tom. How many days ago it was! And here is another day gone. Tell me how many more of them there must be? Of these blinding days and nights without a sound.”
“Be patient,” he murmured. “Don’t ask me for the impossible.”
“How do you or I know what is possible?” she whispered with a strange scorn. “You wouldn’t dare guess. But I tell you that every day that passes is more impossible to me than the day before.”
The passion of that whisper went like a stab into his breast. “What am I to tell you?” he murmured, as if with despair. “Remember that every sunset makes it a day less. Do you think I want you here?”
A bitter little laugh floated out into the starlight. Mrs. Travers heard Lingard move suddenly away from her side. She didn’t change her pose by a hair’s breadth. Presently she heard d’Alcacer coming out of the Cage. His cultivated voice asked half playfully:
“Have you had a satisfactory conversation? May I be told something of it?”
“Mr. d’Alcacer, you are curious.”
“Well, in our position, I confess. … You are our only refuge, remember.”
“You want to know what we were talking about,” said Mrs. Travers, altering slowly her position so as to confront d’Alcacer whose face was almost undistinguishable. “Oh, well, then, we talked about opera, the realities and illusions of the stage, of dresses, of people’s names, and things of that sort.”
“Nothing of importance,” he said courteously. Mrs. Travers moved forward and he stepped to one side. Inside the Cage two Malay hands were hanging round lanterns, the light of which fell on Mr. Travers’ bowed head as he sat in his chair.
When they were all assembled for the evening meal Jörgenson strolled up from nowhere in particular as his habit was, and speaking through the muslin announced that Captain Lingard begged to be excused from joining the company that evening. Then he strolled away. From that moment till they got up from the table and the camp bedsteads were brought in not twenty words passed between the members of the party within the net. The strangeness of their situation made all attempts to exchange ideas very arduous; and apart from that each had thoughts which it was distinctly useless to communicate to the others. Mr. Travers had abandoned himself to his sense of injury. He did not so much brood as rage inwardly in a dull, dispirited way. The impossibility of asserting himself in any manner galled his very soul. D’Alcacer was extremely puzzled. Detached in a sense from the life of men perhaps as much
