Within and Without

grown grace, divine to human grown?
I hear the voice again: “Speak but the word:
She will array herself and come to thee.
Lo, at her white foot lie her daylight clothes,
Her earthly dress for work and weary rest!”
—I see a woman-form, laid as in sleep,
Close by the white foot of the wonderful.
It is the same shape, line for line, as she.
Long grass and daisies shadow round her limbs.
Why speak I not the word?⁠—Clothe thee, and come,
O infinite woman! my life faints for thee.
Once more the voice: “Stay! look on this side first:
I spake of choice. Look here, O son of man!
Choose then between them.” Ah! ah! Silence.
Her I knew
Some ages gone; the woman who did sail
Down a long river with me to the sea;
Who gave her lips up freely to my lips,
Her body willingly into my arms;
Came down from off her statue-pedestal,
And was a woman in a common house,
Not beautified by fancy every day,
And losing worship by her gifts to me.
She gave me that white child⁠—what came of her?
I have forgot.⁠—I opened her great heart,
And filled it half-way to the brim with love⁠—
With love half wine, half vinegar and gall⁠—
And so⁠—and so⁠—she⁠—went away and died?
O God! what was it?⁠—something terrible⁠—
I will not stay to choose, or look again
Upon the beautiful. Give me my wife,
The woman of the old time on the earth.
O lovely spirit, fold not thy parted hands,
Nor let thy hair weep like a sunset-rain
If thou descend to earth, and find no man
To love thee purely, strongly, in his will,
Even as he loves the truth, because he will,
And when he cannot see it beautiful⁠—
Then thou mayst weep, and I will help thee weep.
Voice, speak again, and tell my wife to come.
’Tis she, ’tis she, low-kneeling at my feet!
In the same dress, same flowing of the hair,
As long ago, on earth: is her face changed?
Sweet, my love rains on thee, like a warm shower;
My dove descending rests upon thy head;
I bless and sanctify thee for my own:
Lift up thy face, and let me look on thee.
Heavens, what a face! ’Tis hers! It is not hers!
She rises⁠—turns it up from me to God,
With great rapt orbs, and such a brow!⁠—the stars
Might find new orbits there, and be content.
O blessed lips, so sweetly closed that sure
Their opening must be prophecy or song!
A high-entranced maiden, ever pure,
And thronged with burning thoughts of God and Truth!
Vanish her garments; vanishes the silk
That the worm spun, the linen of the flax;⁠—
O heavens! she standeth there, my statue-form,
With the rich golden torrent-hair, white feet,
And hands with rosy palms⁠—my own ideal!
The woman of my world, with deeper eyes
Than I had power to think⁠—and yet my Lilia,
My wife, with homely airs of earth about her,
And dearer to my heart as my lost wife,
Than to my soul as its new-found ideal!
Oh, Lilia! teach me; at thy knees I kneel:
Make me thy scholar; speak, and I will hear.
Yea, all eternity⁠—He is roused by a cry from the child. Lily

Oh, father! put your arms close round about me.
Kiss me. Kiss me harder, father dear.
Now! I am better now. She looks long and passionately in his face. Her eyes close; her head drops backward. She is dead.

Scene XXII

A cottage-room. Lilia folding a letter.

Lilia

Now I have told him all; no word kept back To burn within me like an evil fire. And where I am, I have told him; and I wait To know his will. What though he love me not, If I love him!⁠—I will go back to him, And wait on him submissive. ’Tis enough For one life, to be servant to that man! It was but pride⁠—at best, love stained with pride, That drove me from him. He and my sweet child Must miss my hands, if not my eyes and heart. How lonely is my Lily all the day, Till he comes home and makes her paradise! I go to be his servant. Every word That comes from him softer than a command, I’ll count it gain, and lay it in my heart, And serve him better for it.⁠—He will receive me.

Scene XXIII

Lily lying dead. Julian bending over her.

Julian	The light of setting suns be on thee, child! Nay, nay, my child, the light of rising suns Is on thee! Joy is with thee⁠—God is Joy; Peace to himself, and unto us deep joy; Joy to himself, in the reflex of our joy. Love be with thee! yea God, for he is Love. Thou wilt need love, even God’s, to give thee joy. Children, they say, are born into a world Where grief is their first portion: thou, I think, Never hadst much of grief⁠—thy second birth Into the spirit-world has taught thee grief, If, orphaned now, thou know’st thy mother’s story, And know’st thy father’s hardness. O my God, Let not my Lily turn away from me. Now I am free to follow and find her. Thy truer Father took thee home to him, That he might grant my prayer, and save my wife. I thank him for his gift of thee; for all That thou hast taught me, blessed little child. I love thee, dear, with an eternal love. And now farewell! Kissing her. —no, not farewell; I come. Years hold not back, they lead me on to thee. Yes, they will also lead me on to her.
	Enter a Jew.
Jew	What is your pleasure with me? Here I am, sir.
Julian	Walk into the next room; then look at this, And tell me what you’ll give for everything. Jew goes. My darling’s death has made me almost happy. Now, now I follow, follow. I’m young again. When I have laid my little one to rest Among the flowers in that same sunny spot, Straight from her grave I’ll take my pilgrim-way; And, calling up all old forgotten skill, Lapsed social claims, and knowledge of mankind, I’ll be a man once more in the loud world. Revived experience in its winding ways, Senses and wits made sharp by sleepless love, If all the world were sworn to secrecy, Will guide me to her, sure as questing Death. I’ll follow my wife, follow until I die. How shall I face the