the mirror. The light from the lamp on the table's right side cast shadows that rendered unfamiliar the planes and angles of his face and left his eyes dark. He blinked and pushed the hair off his brow with his fingers, then pulled open the middle drawer. Women's cosmetics never ceased to amaze him. Even women like Jasmine, who in all other respects were relatively orderly, seemed unable to do more than confine the mess to a specific area. And they never seemed to throw the used bits and pieces away. Jasmine's drawer proved no exception. Half-empty pots of eye shadow and rouge, lipsticks used down to the metal inner casing, brushes and sponges, all covered with a fine dusting of face powder. He sniffed. From somewhere came the scent he associated with Jasmine. Exotically floral with a hint of musk, it almost reminded him of incense.
He was lifting the slips and nightgowns in a bottom drawer when his hand struck something hard. His pulse quickened, then sank as he lifted the object out and realized it was not a journal but a framed photograph. He turned it over curiously.
She was instantly recognizable. When he'd passed Briantspuddle the day before and imagined a twenty-year- old Jasmine walking out her cottage door, he'd seen her exactly like this-the long, dark hair, the smooth, olive skin and delicate oval of her face. Her expression was relaxed, serious except for the hint of a smile at the corners of her mouth and in the dark eyes that gazed directly into his.
Carefully, he set the photo on the dresser-top, Jasmine's face next to his mirrored reflection. Gemma had searched this room carefully-she must have seen the photo. He wondered briefly why she hadn't shown it to him.
He finished with the dresser and the chest of drawers, looked under the bed and in the drawer of the nightstand, but found nothing else.
Returning to the sitting room, he found Sid curled up on the hospital bed's bright cotton spread. He'd seen the cat so often in the same spot, tucked into a tight, black ball against Jasmine's hip or thigh.
Kincaid sat on the edge of the bed and pushed the button to raise its head, then leaned back against the pillows. His chest ached suddenly, fiercely. He squeezed his eyes shut and buried his fingers in Sid's thick coat.
Chapter Nineteen
Meg took the baggage claim ticket from the attendant and tucked it away inside her handbag. Eighteen months of her life were contained in one battered leather suitcase and a dufflebag, now locked securely away in the railway station baggage claim. It had surprised her how large and bare the bedsit looked, stripped of her meager belongings.
On her way to the station she had taken great satisfaction in posting a letter to the planning office giving her notice, but telling her landlady she was leaving hadn't quite lived up to her expectations. In fact, an expression Meg might almost have described as regret flashed across Mrs. Wilson's fleshy face before she said, 'I'll not be sorry to see the back of that Roger, I can tell you. You mind my words, girl, you'll be better off without him.'
Meg had come to the same conclusion herself some time ago, but doing something about it was a more difficult matter. She'd lain awake all night in the narrow bed, thinking, planning, daring to imagine a future in which she controlled her own destiny.
By morning she'd reached a decision, if only she had the courage to see it through. She knew she couldn't confront Roger alone, but face him she must. So she compromised, burning her other bridges first, making sure there could be no going back.
From the station she took the bus to Shepherd's Bush roundabout and walked the last few blocks to The Blue Angel. Roger's mate Jimmy worked in a nearby garage and Roger could often be found in the pub at Saturday lunch-time. She was counting on his pride in front of his mates keeping him from following her when she'd finished what she had to say.
Still, she hesitated outside the door of the pub, her stomach in knots, her breath coming fast. Two men barrelled out the door, nearly knocking her down. Meg stepped back, then ran her fingers through her hair and pulled open the door.
The air was thick with smoke, the noise level raucously high. Holding on to her position in the scrum near the door, she stood on tiptoe as she searched the crowded tables. She spotted Jimmy first, then Matt with his fluffy blond hair and drooping mustache, then Roger, with his back to her. The crowd didn't part like the Red Sea as she pushed her way across the room-she almost laughed as the biblical analogy flew through her mind, wondering at the strange sense of exhilaration she felt. Matt saw her before she reached the table, and said in his sneering way, 'Hey, Rog, here's your bird come looking for you,' but for once that didn't bother her. Jimmy smiled at her-he wasn't a bad sort, really-and Roger turned to face her, expressionless.
'Roger. Can I have a word?' Her voice was steadier than she expected.
'What's stopping you?'
She looked at Jimmy and Matt. 'I meant alone.'
Roger rolled his eyes in exasperation. There were no free tables, and every available bench and stool was jammed with bodies. He looked at his friends and jerked his head toward the bar. 'Get us another one, will you, lads?'
They went, Jimmy with better grace than Matt, and Meg wedged herself past a heavy woman at the next table and sat on the bench they'd vacated.
Roger started before she could draw a breath, pushing his pint aside to lean across the table and hiss at her. 'What do you mean, coming here and making a fool of me in front of my mates, you silly bi-'
'Roger, I'm leaving. I-'
'-should bloody well hope so. And don't-'
'Roger. I mean it's finished. You and me. I've given notice at work. I've left the bedsit. I've written to Superintendent Kincaid, letting him know how to reach me. I'm telling you good-bye.'
For the first time she could remember she'd left him speechless-not sulking in deliberate silence, but mouth open, bereft of words.
He closed his mouth, opened it again and said, 'What do you mean, you're leaving? You can't.'
Meg could feel her body starting to tremble, but she hung on to the feeling of power that had flooded through her. 'I can.'
'What about the money,' he said, leaning forward again and lowering his voice. 'We agreed-'
Meg didn't bother to lower hers. 'I never agreed to anything. And you'll not see a penny of it. You wanted her dead. Did you make sure, Roger? I don't know what you've done, but I'm finished covering up for you.'
His eyes widened in astonishment. 'You'd grass on me, wouldn't you? You bitch. You-' He stopped, took a breath and closed his eyes, and when he opened them again he was back in control. 'Think about it, Meg. Think about how much you'll miss me.' He raised his hand and ran a finger down her cheek.
She jerked her head back, turning her face away from him.
'So that's how it is,' he said, the venom fully evident again. 'Run home to Mummy and Daddy, then. You've got no place else to go. Work in your dad's garage, let every filthy old bastard that comes in pinch your bum; change your sister's brats' dirty nappies-you're welcome to it. And you can tell your precious Superintendent Kincaid whatever you bloody well like, because they'll not pin anything on me.' There was nothing pleasant about Roger's smile. 'You fancy the Superintendent, don't you, Meg? I've seen the way you look at him. Well, he's way out of your league, darling, and you're a bigger fool than I thought.'
Meg felt the hot rush of color stain her face, but she refused to let him bait her. Standing, she squeezed her way clear of the table and stood close enough to Roger for his arm to brush her thighs when he moved. She looked down into his face, noted the way his eyelashes fanned against his cheek when he blinked, and she sensed the fear beneath his bravado. 'So are you,' she said, and turned away. She didn't look back.
'Ta, Charlie,' Meg said to the driver as the bus groaned to a halt beneath the Abinger Hammer clock. It was the daily Dorking to Guildford run, and the driver one of her father's regular customers. She waved as the doors swished shut behind her, then watched the bus until it disappeared around the bend in the road.
The shop was across the road, unmistakable, just the way she remembered it. She brushed her hands down
