end, a man stood between two Monitors. At least he seemed to be standing and then, Adara saw that he was being supported at each side, his feet hanging inches above the floor.
'Larchen,' said a man at his side. 'Number four. He tried to put a good face on it, but collapsed and tried to run. A bad thing to have happened.'
'And Thichent?'
'As you'd expect. He drew the prime and knew there could be only one end. He left the party at the first knell; an example to us all.' He smiled at Eloise, bobbing his head. 'You look superb, my dear, but then you always do. A little wine?'
'Aren't you afraid of Camolsaer?'
'After the bell there is always a period of grace. Didn't Adara explain that? Drinks taken now are not counted. A concession for which we must be grateful. But surely you know this?'
She had known it, realized Adara sickly. It had been himself who had forgotten. Or perhaps not forgotten, but distrusted. The woman's fault-why had he ever saved her?
Taking the proffered glass she said, quietly, 'Choi, you amaze me.'
'In what way, Eloise?'
'In your acceptance.'
'Of what?' He frowned, genuinely puzzled. 'Things are what they are-what they have always been. We are born, we live, we leave. It is as simple as that.'
'Leave?' Her voice was faintly mocking. 'Don't you mean that you die?'
Flushing, he said in a high voice, 'Now listen, I know that you're a stranger, but that is no way to talk. You've been here long enough to have learned our customs. We don't-die.' He seemed to gag on the word. 'We are converted.'
'Yes,' she said.
'Changed! Improved!' His voice was now almost a scream. 'Thichent knew that. He realized and accepted it. He was proud to be the first. To pay his debt to the city, to us, to Camolsaer.'
'Who are you trying to convince?' she said flatly. 'Me or yourself?'
'Adara!'
Adara answered the appeal, taking her by the arm and guiding her away from Choi, the others who had overheard. Beneath his fingers he felt the quivering of her flesh, the anger which threatened to consume her. A pair of girls ran towards them, long streamers of bright fabric in their hands, the material breaking beneath his impatient gesture. Pouting at their spoiled pleasure, they ran towards others more receptive of their attention.
'Eloise, why be so foolish?'
'You call it that?'
'To upset Choi and the others, yes.'
'To upset them?' She shrugged. 'To teach them, you mean. To try and reach them. To stop them from being so blind.'
'To spoil their pleasure.' His voice was brittle with impatience. 'Have you learned nothing? To talk as you did was stupid.'
'Stop it, Adara.'
'But-'
'Stop it!' She pulled her arm free and turned to face him. Colored light from drifting globes bathed her face with shadowed radiance, accentuating the structure of the bone, hardening the contours in their rigid anger. 'I won't be lectured by you or any man in this insane city. Nor any woman. If you want to know why, just look around. Minutes ago they heard the bell. Now every damned fool acts as if he were at a party.'
'It's custom, you know that.'
'Madness!'
'No.' He reached for her arm and felt a momentary hurt as she avoided his hand. 'You are disturbed, but that is natural. I understand. But it is all over now. There is no need for concern. You, I, both of us are safe.'
'For how long?' She gave him no time to answer. 'Until the next draw,' she said bitterly. 'The next selection. How can you be sure that you won't draw prime? And, if you do, will you walk willingly to your death as that fool Thichent did?'
'Please, Eloise.'
'Death,' she repeated savagely. 'Death, damn you! Death!'
She saw the sudden pallor of his face, sensed the abrupt hush from those who had overheard; the tension, the shifting away from where she stood. Afraid, all of them, herself too; but with a fear more corrosive than their own. They were simply afraid of what she said; she was terrified of what the future could hold.
'Eloise!'
Adara stepped towards her, one hand extended-he, at least, displayed a little courage. But not enough. Not anywhere near enough. And, now that the bell had tolled and the danger was over, old habits would regain their hold.
Rabbits, all of them, men and women both-and she, dear God, was trapped among them.
'Eloise.'
She turned as Adara touched her, running through the assembly; passing startled faces and barely conscious of the voices, the laughter, the gaiety which ruled beyond her immediate vicinity. A winding stair led to the summit of a tower and she reached it, pressing open the door; walking to where a high parapet edged the city, the area beyond.
Tiredly she leaned against it, barely aware of the chill which numbed her flesh through the thin clothing, the harsh pressure against her breasts.
The night was still. Here, in the cup of the valley, was little wind; but higher, where the ringing hills stood like pale sentinels, their slopes and summits thick with ice, there would be a frigid blast whining from the north, carrying particles of snow and sleet; a killing wind which robbed body-heat and brought killing hypothermia.
She remembered it, her skin puckering at the memory. A bad time in which she almost died. Should have died, she thought bleakly. At least, then it would have been over.
'Woman Eloise, it is not wise to stand here dressed as you are.'
Engrossed with memory she had heard no sound and, as always, the Monitors were silent on their padded feet. She turned, looking at the thing. Seven feet tall, a body made of articulated plates, limbs, torso; all in a parody of the human frame. The face too, cold, hard despite the paint, the eyes elongated curves of crystal. Starlight shone on the figure in a cold effulgence, accentuating the chill of the night.
'Woman Eloise, you must return below.'
The voice was like the body, cold, flat; an emotionless drone.
'No. I-'
'Woman Eloise, you must return.'
She could argue, try to run, but the end would be the same. She could walk or be carried like a stubborn child, but the Monitor would be obeyed.
Always the Monitors were obeyed.
It followed her down the stairs, halting as she entered the assembly room, watching as she thrust her way into the crowd, to the passages leading to her room. The fragments of the glass she had shattered had vanished; another goblet replacing the one broken, clean and bright on the tray.
She filled it with lambent blue wine and drank and refilled it with ruby, they carried it over to the window where she stood looking out over the city, upward to the stars.
A host of suns, the vault of the sky filled with glittering points, sheets of luminescence, patches of nacreous light, the blur of distant nebulae.
Suns around which circled a multitude of worlds on which men could walk free. Ships traversing the gulfs between them. The ebb and flow of restless life of which once she had been a part.
The glass lifted in a silent toast, a prayer and then, abruptly, she collapsed in a storm of weeping.
Chapter Four
