was unable or unwilling to try much else.
'This is the big day, Donte,' the guard said when he slid the breakfast tray into the cell. Pancakes and applesauce again. 'How you doin'?'
'Okay,' Donte mumbled. They spoke through a narrow slit in the metal door.
The guard was Mouse, a tiny black guy, one of the nicer ones. Mouse moved on, leaving Donte to stare at the food. He did not touch it. An hour later, Mouse was back. 'Come on, Donte, you gotta eat.'
'Not hungry.'
'How 'bout your last meal? You thought about that? You gotta place your order in a few hours.'
'What's good?' Donte asked.
'I'm not sure anything's good as a last meal, but they tell me most of the guys eat like a horse. Steak, potatoes, catfish, shrimp, pizza, anything you want.'
'How 'bout cold noodles and boiled leather, same as any other day?'
'Whatever you want, Donte.' Mouse leaned a few inches closer, lowered his voice, and said, 'Donte, I'll be thinking about you, you hear?'
'Thanks, Mouse.'
'I'll miss you, Donte. You're a good guy.'
Donte was amused at the thought that someone on death row would miss him. He did not respond and Mouse moved on.
Donte sat on the edge of his bunk for a long time and stared at a cardboard box they'd delivered yesterday. In it, he'd neatly packed his possessions-a dozen paperbacks, none of which he'd read in years, two writing tablets, envelopes, a dictionary, a Bible, a 2007 calendar, a zippered bag in which he kept his money, $18.40, two tins of sardines and a package of stale saltines from the canteen, and a radio that picked up only a Christian station from Livingston and a country one from Huntsville. He took a writing tablet and a pencil and began to calculate. It took some time, but he finally arrived at a total he believed to be fairly accurate.
Seven years, seven months, and three days, in cell number 22F-2,771 days. Before that, he'd spent about four months at the old death row at Ellis. He'd been arrested on December 22, 1998, and he'd been locked up since.
Almost nine years behind bars. It was an eternity, but not an impressive number. Four doors down, Oliver Tyree, age sixty-four, was in his thirty-first year on death row with no execution date on the calendar. There were several twenty-year veterans. It was changing, though. The newer arrivals faced a different set of rules. There were tougher deadlines for their appeals. For those convicted after 1990, the average wait before execution was ten years. Shortest in the nation.
During his early years in 22F, Donte waited and waited for news from the courts. They moved at a snail's pace, it seemed. Then it was all over, no more petitions to file, no more judges and justices for Robbie to attack. Looking back now, the appeals seemed to have flown by. He stretched out on his bed and tried to sleep.
You count the days and watch the years go by. You tell yourself, and you believe it, that you'd rather just die. You'd rather stare death boldly in the face and say you're ready because whatever is waiting on the other side has to be better than growing old in a six-by-ten cage with no one to talk to. You consider yourself half-dead at best. Please take the other half.
You've watched dozens leave and not return, and you accept the fact that one day they'll come for you. You're nothing but a rat in their lab, a disposable body to be used as proof that their experiment is working. An eye for an eye, each killing must be avenged. You kill enough and you're convinced that killing is good.
You count the days, and then there are none left. You ask yourself on your last morning if you are really ready. You search for courage, but the bravery is fading.
When it's over, no one really wants to die. – It was a big day for Reeva too, and to show the world she was suffering, she invited Fordyce-Hitting Hard! back into her home for breakfast. In her most stylish pantsuit, she cooked bacon and eggs and sat around the table with Wallis and their two children, Chad and Marie, both in their late teens. None of the four needed a heavy breakfast. They should've skipped the meal completely. But the cameras were rolling, and as the family ate, they prattled on about the fire that destroyed their beloved church, a fire that was still smoldering. They were stunned, angry. They were certain it was arson, but managed to restrain themselves and not make allegations against anyone-on camera. Off camera, they just knew the fire had been started by black thugs. Reeva had been a member of the church for over forty years. She had married both husbands there. Chad, Marie, and Nicole had been baptized there. Wallis was a deacon. It was a tragedy. Gradually, they got around to more important matters. They all agreed that it was a sad day, a sad occasion. Sad, but so necessary. For almost nine years they had waited for this day, for justice to finally arrive for their family, and yes, for all of Slone as well.
Sean Fordyce was still tied up with a complicated execution in Florida, but he had made his plans well-known. He would arrive, by private jet, at the Huntsville airport later in the afternoon for a quick interview with Reeva before she witnessed the execution. Of course, he would be there when it was over.
Without the host, the breakfast footage went on and on. Off camera, an assistant producer prompted the family with such gems as, 'Do you think lethal injection is too humane?' Reeva certainly did. Wallis just grunted. Chad chewed his bacon. Marie, a chatterbox like her mother, said, between bites, that Drumm should suffer intense physical pain as he was dying, just like Nicole.
'Do you think executions should be made public?' Mixed reactions around the table.
'The condemned man is allowed a last statement. If you could speak to him, what would you say?' Reeva, chewing, burst into tears and covered her eyes. 'Why, oh, why?' she wailed. 'Why did you take my baby?'
'Sean will love this,' the assistant producer whispered to the cameraman. Both were suppressing smiles.
Reeva pulled herself together, and the family plowed through breakfast. At one point, she barked at her husband, who'd said almost nothing, 'Wallis! What are you thinking?' Wallis shrugged as if he hadn't been thinking at all.
Coincidentally, Brother Ronnie dropped by just as the meal was wrapping up. He'd been up all night watching his church burn, and he needed sleep. But Reeva and her family also needed him. They quizzed him about the fire. He appeared sufficiently burdened. They moved to the rear of the home, to Reeva's room, where they sat and huddled around a coffee table. They held hands, and Brother Ronnie led them in prayer. With an effort at drama, and with the camera two feet from his head, he pleaded for strength and courage for the family to endure what was ahead on this difficult day. He thanked the Lord for justice. He prayed for their church and its members.
He did not mention Donte Drumm or his family. – After a dozen trips to voice mail, a real person finally answered. 'Flak Law Firm,' she said quickly.
'Robbie Flak, please,' Keith said as he perked up. Boyette turned and looked at him.
'Mr. Flak is in a meeting.'
'I'm sure he is. Listen, this is very important. My name is Keith Schroeder. I'm a Lutheran minister from Topeka, Kansas. I spoke with Mr. Flak yesterday. I'm driving to Slone as we speak, and I have with me, here in my car, a man by the name of Travis Boyette. Mr. Boyette raped and killed Nicole Yarber, and he knows where her body is buried. I'm driving him to Slone so he can tell his story. It is imperative that I speak with Robbie Flak. Now.'
'Uh, sure. Can I put you on hold?'
'I can't stop you from putting me on hold.'
'Just a moment.'
'Please hurry.'
She put him on hold. She left her desk near the front door and hurried through the train station, rounding up the team. Robbie was in his office with Fred Pryor. 'Robbie, you need to hear this,' she said, and her face and voice left no room for discussion. They met in the conference room, where they gathered around a speakerphone. Robbie pushed a button and said, 'This is Robbie Flak.'
'Mr. Flak, this is Keith Schroeder. We spoke yesterday afternoon.'
'Yes, it's Reverend Schroeder, right?'
'Yes, but now it's just Keith.'
'You're on our speakerphone. Is that okay? My whole firm is here, plus some others. I'm counting ten people. Is that okay?'
'Sure, whatever.'
